As some of you know I lost my Cuddley(18 yrs old) this year on May 24th. Well I lost his brother Beethovan( would of been 17 in August) on June 11th. My heart can't handle the pain of losing both of them so close to eachother. !8 days apart. Beethovan just couldn't go on anymore. That morning he dropped a little poop on the rug and acted like he had to throw up, shortly after that he started to have trouble breathing. We took him in to the vet right away. When we got there he was panting. On the ride there he wanted to sit next to me, I was holding him but he seemed to be uncomfortable, so I put him next to me. He looked up at me and let out a small meow, with a look in his eyes, asking me to please help him. I told him mommy knows....you don't feel good, soon everything will be better. While the vet was getting the shot ready, he was laying on a comfy quilt that they had put on the table, I had him covered with his blankie( he was cold) he lifted his paw up to me to hold when he seen her come around the table. He always loved to have his eyes rubbed with a kleenex, so I held his little paw and rubbed his eyes with a kleenex, as she was giving him the shot. As I watched his life slip away.... I wispered to him how much I love him and how much I always will. I wispered him out of this world. Cuddley and Beethovan were the last of the seven cats I brought out here with me in 1989. The final chapter was closed on June 11th at 9:56 a.m. The house is so empty now. I do have my Mantha kitty 1 Yr old and my dog Chance 3 yrs old, but I miss my boys so much. It's been 20 years since I've had just one cat in the house. As Cuddley had his thing with the water bowl at night, Beethovan had his with the couch. He always had to sit by the arm of the couch. When ever I was sitting there he would let me know he wanted to sit there, he would sit there and wait for the moment when he could steal it away. As soon as I got up he would hurry and steal my place. That first night without him, I moved over so I could rub his place on the couch. We have 2 recliners in the t.v. room, one big one and a small one for my grandson. Whenever my husband went to watch t.v., if Beethovan was in the big recliner, my hubby would sit in the small recliner(talk about a site). He didn't want to disturbe Beethovan. I've been so upest over them I've caused my medical problem to flare up. Now I'll be on meds for a week. I'm so depressed, I knew Beethovan wasn't going to make it thru the month, but I still wasn't prepared for it. I'm so tired and exhausted, I just can't get a good nights sleep.

I'm so sorry. How devastating to lose two so close to each other. Please accept my condolances.

I'm right there with you in the "not sleeping" department. It just hurts so much.

I lost Jesse one month after I lost Edgar. I understand.

I think his meow in the car was him telling you "I think it's my time Mommy. Will you be okay without me?"...

I am so sorry for your loss.

I'm so sorry that you had to face losing two animals in less than a month. I hope it helps you to think of these brothers frolicing around the Bridge together.

I had to laugh at your description of your living room seating arrangement. These cats sure have us trained, don't they?

It sounds like any animal that made its way to your home was a very lucky one.

The pain is so great, it seems to be around every corner. I too am walking around in a daze at the loss of my 16 year old black cat, Solas. I trust that the pain will lessen in time, but for right now 'lean into your grief' and keep crying. It helps to write here, because we all understand and send you our support.

My thoughts are with you,
Ariel

Samantha,

I am so sorry to hear about Beethoven and so, so soon after losing Cuddley. Gosh, I don't know what to say. I knew you were worried about B. The way you were there with him and the kleenex and all, that was so sweet, and they way he looked at you and meowed. I know you are just devastated, not even had time to begin to get over losing Cuddley and now this loss too.

Please try hard to take good care of yourself and keep taking your medicine. Again, I am SO sorry. We'll be here when you need to talk. Bless you and your husband.
Marcia

Samantha,

I'm SO sorry. I remember your concern about how you would cope when it was Beethoven's time! I know it is devastating. As Solas's Mom said, it may be comforting for you to picture Cuddley and Beethoven being together now.

Be gentle with yourself and do whatever need to do----whether that's cry, watch movies, live at this site, hold your other babies close, etc. And don't ever forget that we're here for you.

You will be in my prayers. With heartfelt sympathy,

Kathy