Hello i am new here and i need someone to hear me as my heart is aching.



Thomas is our darling part persian part bred lad we bought 13 yrs ago as a kitten he was shy but in no time at all he grew to love and be part of our family.
He was hansom and so very kind and loving ,he came up on my lap and loved to have his belly patted and would lie on his back and purr and pad the air with his
furry feet and stretch out and ask for more if i stopped ,he did this for many years
and would ask for love and attention all ways .
In all of the 13 yrs we had him he never scratched or ever showed any malice
i loved and adored him .
sadly this week he became unwell and i took him to my vets and she said he had cancer and that his kidneys were very large he was terminally ill i was heart broken and i ask if she could make him comfortable just to have the last 12 hrs
with us at home and he came home dure in that time he was weak and frail but always kept purring i cried but spent all night with him slowly the morning broke
he was tired but we took him into his garden one more time for 10 mins he watched the birds and blinked his eyes at me like a smile .
We talked awhile and cuddled he was weak now .
My husband and i took him to the vets he travelled in my arms in the car
still purring we got to the vets and we cuddled for the last time ,i loved him some much it was the hardest thing in my life ever i gave him over to my husband
who was with him till the end i just was not strong enough to let him go .
Oh the aching in my heart has not yet eased it was only this morning tonight it seems so strange him not coming in the cat flap and jumping on my lap there is such an emptiness and the house feels strange ,i have 2 other beautiful cats
and they seem very quiet ,Thomas was so special not like other cats but like a child
to us my bond with him was so strong i loved him so very much and its hurts like hell in my heart , we have bought a cat special coffin for him he will be buried in his garden on Tuesday by us it seems so far away as he still lay at the vets untill
his coffin arrives .
I believe in life after but can anyone answer will he come home or will he cross over
go to the light and be happy i wish i knew for sure i couldnt bear the thought of him being at home trying to get my attention and me not knowing it would break my heart i really need to know if anyone can answer please .
My heart is with all those who have loved and lost or is losing a pet as nothing compares to the pain and sense of loss god bless you all and thank you for listening and to admin for this wonderfull site where hearts can meet and share the loss of a much loved pet .Thank you so much.

I am so sorry for the loss of your furbaby Thomas. Everyone who comes here does hear you and feels your deep pain. I lost my T.C. just over a month ago and the aching in my heart still remains. I don't know if we be totally sure if our lost ones cross over to a happy life to wait for us but I know I HAVE to believe that they do. That is the only thing I have to hold on to. What a wonderful memory you gave Thomas by taking him to your garden to experience that peacefulness. My thoughts and prayers will be with you.
Hugs, Kathi

I believe that your darling cat is safe with God. Although he might visit in an attempt to make you feel better, it is not because he is unhappy. He just doesn't want you to feel badly. How can any animal be unhappyin God's care, whose love is greater than any we can give?


It is clear that you gave Thomas a wonderful life and also gave him the final gift - you helped him to leave this earth without pain, unafraid and feeling your great love. What more can a human do?

The pain is terrible. It doesn't really pass, but it is the price we all pay for having had the loving bond we shared with our furbabies.


I am truly sorry for your loss.

Daisy's Mommy

You've come to the right place. Everyone here is so loving and kind and we all feel the same way about our beloved pets.
We all ask the same questions and seek the same goal.....to KNOW.
Read as much as you can of all the posts. Perhaps you will find some helpful words and feel some comfort knowing someone else knows and cares.
My baby boy was put to sleep on Oct 2 and I have been here crying ever since.
People here understand and care. I have found some comfort here that I haven't found anywhere else. God bless

I am so very very sorry for your loss. The next few days and weeks and months, maybe years, will be difficult for you after a loss so great. The numb feeling which so many of us feel gives way to an intense sadness and grief, and that can show itself at times and in places we never expect.

You ask if Thomas will come home or cross over. My personal experience has been that wherever our beloved ones go, there are no boundaries where they are, so in my mind (and maybe it's wishful thinking, but it helps me, anyway) they are free to come and go as they wish. Shortly after I've ever lost a pet, I notice signs that I have no doubt are sent to me by my furbabies, to let me know that they're okay, that they are at peace, and that they are in a better place and watching over me. As time goes on, I notice fewer and fewer signs, and at times this really bothers me, but I know - I don't know how, but I know - that the spirit of my pet is with me and always will be. So I feel that wherever they are, they have that freedom to come and go as they please to bring us comfort when we need it, and that it does not detract from their experience in their next transition.

Again, this is my personal belief, and I base it on the fact that I know that the bond between me and my departed loved ones was and is so strong that the fact that their physical body is not here does not mean that their spirit is not here. There are just some bonds that death can not break - the relationship between mother and child being one of them, but right up there too, the relationship between pet and pet's human companion.

Again, I'm so sorry. Please come back and let us know how you're doing during this most difficult time. There is a wealth of wisdom and compassion here with these folks, and they care, so you take care - Barbara

Oh!
I can't help but feel close to you and your Thomas from reading this letter. I just lost my Himalayan kitty on 11/21 and felt/feel very much the way you do -- plus, Himmies and Persains are basically the same.
Thomas is so beautiful -- as the others said, it is very clear how much you love him and did the very best you could by him.

I spend alot of time wondering where my Little Girl is -- will I see her again, is she happy, will she visit me in dreams, etc.

The Sunday after she died I went to church.
During a song I had a mental image of God holding her on his lap; rising and smiling as I arrived some time later and holding her out to me to hold and love again at last.

Just writing this brings the tears back.

Was this just my wishful thinking or truly a gift from God, I don't know.
I'm certainly led to believe the latter.

Hugs to you and know that many of us know how you feel!
It's incredibly awful to loose a pet -- I had NO idea until this November.

I joined this site last week after having to put my Jemima down. The support, caring & love is incredible. Everyone understands what you are going through. When you lose a beloved pet, you've lost a member of your family. I have another cat, Checkers. He knows Jemima is gone. You feel for them as well.
Give them lots of hugs & kisses from me & Checkers.

I'm so sorry you lost your Thomas. He was a very beautiful boy and he sounds so special. I lost my Moustache kitty on 10-23 so I understand how much it hurts and how much you need answers. I have felt so desperate for answers myself.


I agree with Barbara (5catsmom) there are no boundries where he is, so he can both be with you and cross over. Where he really is, is in your heart, forever.

Thinking of you
Lori

Hello to you all thank you for hearing me and for your heart felt replies i did feel so much better for a short while then as you all know the heart comes back.

Our Thomas comes home Tuesday to be buried in his special place in his garden
we bought a beautiful coffin for him and his resting place will bloom in the new spring as will his garden.

The sad passing of Thomas has bought me closer to my other pets my 2 horses and 2 girly pet cats and the people i love.

When the new spring comes i know he will be with us in the garden rolling in the sun and sitting on the roof of our workshop looking at us through the window but untill then he will be in front of the fire with us keeping warm.

I wish all the animals in the world were as lucky as Thomas to be so loved but sadly this will never be my heart goes out to those less fortunate it makes me realize how lucky i am to be able to love people and animals as i do and all who think the same way.

It can feel very lonely when one is grieving but finding this website has helped me through and as i keep saying i am thinking of you all and my heart is with you .

i have tried to post earlier with more pics of Thomas but it all failed so i have tried again and made his picture smaller i hope i succeed this time.

Thank you all so much i feel i will make freinds here thank you for listening and hearing me god bless you i will pop back soon.x