today being a down day for me. i had been thinking about both my girls alot. and what they must be thinking of me right now.
i had thoughts of things well more like questions..

what went thru their minds when i made the call to end their suffering?
did they hate me?
the time they were with me(seperate occasions) when they were pts
did it get dark all of a sudden for them?
were they like hey what the?
were they calling me in their minds..mom whats happening?
were they scared?
are they made at me?
are they together?
do they miss me? like i miss them?
my god why did i start to think of these things? what made me think?
vets say it isnt painful for them can they be sure? how do they know?
its the what ifs?
both my girls were in such terrible states one with pain from a ruptured spleen and the the other old age and asthma..so the choice to pts was there but one that was not taken lightly..but none the less these questions are there.. is this normal?
why am i having these questions all of a sudden..?

Since most of our pets are put to sleep because of pain and illness, to me I think they would get a peaceful, blessed release from the hurt when they die. And since I believe in God and Heaven for pets, I believe they instantly enter a wonderful world that is way better than this one. We WILL see them again one day. Time is different for them now, so maybe they don't even miss us because we will join them really soon in the way time is for them now. Don't worry, I believe they are all love and wouldn't even think of hating you or anything like that. I think they are so grateful for your wonderful care for them while they were on this earth. They are in the arms of God--the best place to be!

You know, when ppl go under anaesthesia for surgery how the doctors hook them up to monitors to keep track of their vital signs? part of the monitoring of the vital signs is for doctors to tell whether or not the person is staying comfortably under the anaesthesia (not feeling any pain during surgery). I bet, since vets are very professional licensed doctors in their own right, they have studied animals being pts, monitoring their vital signs to see if the process was painful or not. and this is how they can comfortably tell us that the animals do not feel any pain (because they've done medical studies on it). At least I'd like to think it's this way...Don't you think so too?

I often wonder what's going on in my pets' minds...and I wonder about what is going on in my lost Tia's mind now that she's passed on...I'm certain in my own way that she still exists and still thinks and feels...so I wonder what she's thinking now. Does she miss me? Does an animal even have the type of memory that would allow them to miss anybody after being apart like that? In a selfish way I hope she does miss me...but then, when I think that she might miss me and she has no way to be with me (other than in my dreams), I feel bad thinking she might feel lonely.

You know, I've read before that dogs especially see their people companions as their pack leaders...and the pack leader to a dog is the one responsible for all decisions..life and death decisions, even. If you might wonder what would go on in a dog's mind when he is being pts, think of it this way...that dog sees you as his pack leader. If you do anything regarding him you are doing it for his best interest. A dog has total trust in his pack leader...so why should there be any room for fear or doubt? I think a dog would not feel any fear at being pts because all he would know at that last moment was that his pack leader was helping him feel better.

Cats are more independent so it's hard to know their thoughts. However, I do believe that cats also know that their ppl companions have their best interests at heart. Why, then, should they feel any fear?

I agree with BooBoo's mom.I believe in God and I know that when a pet dies they go straight to the other side where it is beautiful and there is no more pain.Your beloved kitties didn't hate you for putting them to sleep.They knew that you did it out of love for them.It really is the last act of unconditional love that you can do for a loved one.I think about all of your questions all the time,sometimes they even haunt my dreams at night.IWhen we first put our baby Sox to sleep I felt guilty about alot of things,guilty that I couldn't make him well,guilty that maybe I didn't do enough for him,guilty that he would hate me for doing it,and the list goes on and on.............but that is normal!!!!!!!!Gulit is one of the biggest steps in the grief process.It's your minds way of working things out.Please don't be so hard on yourself and give yourself some time to heal.I know what your going thur,I miss my dear Sox so bad at times I can hardly stand it.I usually love thanksgiving but this year I'm not even looking forward to it.It just makes me think of him more and then I get even more depressed over the fact that I have to go thur the holidays without him.Try not to think about the negative things that are making you so sad,instead concentrate on what a wonderful relationship you had with your babies and remember that someday you will see them again and there will be a joyous reunion...it's that thought that keeps me going every day.I will keep you in my prayers tonight and I hope you will soon find peace.Sincerely,Renee (Sox's mom)

I worry a lot about it. Is my kitty lonely, is she scared? Is she sad to be away from me? She can't sleep on her favorite window sill anymore. She can't play with her favorite toy. She can't have her favorite treats. I hope so much she is happy and isn't scared. But I wonder about that all the time.

Magdalene

In my version of heaven, my Schtoobing isn't scared, he can sleep in his favorite sunny places, and have all his favorite toys and treats. Plus, he gets to snuggle with my dad until I get there.

Magdalene, your baby isn't scared or lonely- maybe she wonders where you are, but she'll be fine until you get there.

I'm a different 'Booboosmom', from 'Boo Boo's Mom'. So, as not to confuse anyone, my baby was Boo Boo Kitty, a black male Bengal.

I also think about what my baby was thinking when he died. I wasn't with him and I know he was killed by an animal in the woods. I keep hoping it was quick and he didn't suffer. I wonder if he called to me or wondered why I didn't come. I think he wonders why I haven't found him, or what is left of him, even though I've walked the woods, fields, and foothills for the past nine weeks. I think he feels I abandoned him out there. I don't believe in a God or Heaven, but I believe our love for them and their love for us has great power to exist even after we are apart. I want to believe Boo Boo Kitty is at peace now. I want him to know how much I love him, and how much I miss him. I think what you are going through Michelle is normal. We worry about our babies, even in death. I believe that your babies knew you loved them and would do what was best for them. If they still exist, in form of spirit, they know you are hurting for them. Because they love you, they would want you to take comfort in the fact that they are not suffering anymore. They would want you to remember how much love there was.