To my Moose kitty, my good boy.

Three weeks ago you choose to go away from us. Now it's your birthday and I can't stop crying and looking at your pictures and loving you. Isn't there any way you could have given us just this little amout of time so we could have had one more birthday with you? We got you a card baby, I hope you can mark it like you did all the others.

We love you so much baby boy. Happy Birthday, birthday boy.


Forever Autumn

The summer sun is fading as the year grows old
And darker days are drawing near.
The winter winds will be much colder
Now you're not here.

I watch the birds fly south across the autumn sky
And one by one they disappear.
I wish that I was flying with them
Now you're not here.

Like the sun through the trees you came to love me.
Like a leaf on a breeze you blew away.

Through autumn's golden gown we used to kick our way,
You always loved this time of year.
Those fallen leaves lie undisturbed now
'Cause you're not here.
'Cause you're not here.
'Cause you're not here.

Like the sun through the trees you came to love me,
Like a leaf on a breeze you blew away.

A gentle rain falls softly on my weary eyes
As if to hide a lonely tear,
My life will be forever autumn
'Cause you're not here.
'Cause you're not here.
'Cause you're not here.

From the Moody Blues album "The War Of The Worlds" (1978) Written by Paul Vigrass, Gary Osborne and Jeff Wayne

Good moring buddy

My god I miss saying that. Mommy just wanted to say Happy Valentines Day to you buddy. I know most people don't think of their kids today, but I can't seem to get you out of my mind. We bought a card for Autumn and Majik. It was so hard to write Majik and not Moustache. It just feels so wrong.

I can't believe you have been gone so long. I miss your little face every day. Thank you for being with us as long as you could baby. Thank you for sending Majik to us.

I hope you are happy baby. I love you. The world is colder 'cause you're not here.

Daddy misses you so much.

Mommy and daddy love and miss you so much buddy, we will forever.

I've never read this one before, I guess it was "before my time" but what a beautiful tribute to your sweet boy. Valentine's isn't really a "kitty" holiday, but even so, its days like this that make us miss them so much more.

You're Moose was so pretty. I just love his little face.

Big Hugs to you Lori

Oh, Lori!....I didn't realize this was your Moose boy's birthday! Another extra-sad day for you...I'm so sorry. Those lyrics got me going, too...never could stand listening to the Moody Blues for too long as I found too many of their songs so depressing-sounding. But this one is so apt.

I was looking at cards today, too. Got one for my H....but made sure it had a grey cat on it (so it can be from both of his girls still)...doesn't look like our girl, but the cat's sitting on a piano, so it fits, as I used to play a lot. I toyed with the idea of buying a separate one that was "To My Daddy", but no...almost burst into tears in the store. That's so sweet that you bought one for Autumn and Majik, though. Someday, hopefully, you'll mainly be thankful for doing that for them/you, w/o it being mixed with so many tears.

I'm having trouble with Valentine's Day, too...even though we normally didn't even celebrate it. I guess it's just another sickening reminder that the ONLY one I've got to buy cards for now is my husband....can't get used to that idea at ALL.

With his pic larger, now I can really see why you chose his name.....a perfect, miniature 'handlebar', that is!

Happy Birthday, Moose....from all of us here at LS. We'll try to keep your mommy company, even though we know we'll never even begin to compare to YOU.

Thanks guys my Moosie was so beautiful, we were so proud of him. His mustache and his mane and his beautiful eyes. His racing stripes on his back legs, I miss it all so much. We talked about naming him Hitler, LOL. Just couldn't do it to the kid, but he did have a 'Hitler' mustache. He was a silly boy and I love him so.

I thought the song was so right for him, he loved the fall, and we didn't even rake the leaves after he passed, he loved them so. We left them for him. I found one beautiful leaf on the ground at the mall when we went to get the curio case we put his urn on. I put it on top of his urn and it's still there.

The original post was last November, his "birthday" was just three weeks after he died. It wasn't really his birthday, who knew when that was, it was the day we got him. My god that was a hard time! In saying that I realize how far I've come. While I'm still so sad, I'm in a better place. Much more calm most days. While I still cry some every day, it's not all day. While I did resist so hard I did, finally, accept. That may give hope to someone who is where I was back then. It does get better. In a way it sucks that it does. I guess I'm never satisfied...

Love

Silly me! I saw the "14" and didn't even look at the month in that first post! Nooowwww I get it. Thanks for clarifying! This brain of mine just doesn't want to get in gear when I need it to this year.

Hitler?!?! If you could only have heard me laughing over that one! But yes, I can see how that would have come to mind...

Yah, I know...the feeling better has its own set of 'problems', doesn't it? Most often when I have those few times of feeling more settled (for lack of a better term), I also feel horrified that I dare even FEEL that way yet...even knowing this is not only a good thing, but an expected one while working through the grief. Even that knowledge doesn't seem to stop the feeling guilty about it. So yes, we can be really hard on ourselves...and even knowing how common this, too is doesn't make a whit of difference! Grief really does a number on you.

Oh my Moosie boy

It's been a year, and it's your birthday again. I miss you so much today. You didn't live with us quite 10 years but you left thousands of happy memories. You filled our home and our lives with love, it stll feels empty here without you.

We would have had you 11 years today if you had stayed with us. I know how lucky we were to have known you at all.

Happy Birthday baby, wherever you are.
Our love still lights your way.
Mommy

Your boy is simply beautiful. He looks so huggable! I read all the above in this thread and it looks like you called him Moustache at times. You are so right...10 years is not enough...that's about when we lost Little Guy's twin brother. Then his sister stayed 15 years and Little Guy was 16 last May and left us in September. I love reading when people have their special friends as long as possible but however long it is.........it is and never will be long enough......cause once they have made themselves comfortable in a place in our hearts.......we do not want to ever have them go. You're right about accepting. Maybe it helps us cry a little less but it really doesn't make one feel "better". that's just impossible. I think your notes to him are really wonderful. It's a way of "touching" our special one as best we can. They come into our lives and they are taken away but for all the good years and happy times and hugs and love........I still would not trade all of that to avoid the pain that comes later. I feel blessed knowing each one in my life.
Take Care..

Happy Birthday, little Moose! He is such a gorgeous kitty! My thoughts are with you on this difficult day.

Happy Birthday, little Moose! He is such a gorgeous kitty! My thoughts are with you on this difficult day.

Moose Mom ,all I can say, knowing you on this board is that little Moose had the best that life could offer him, and that best translates into you. May your life be made the best because of the precious love you so willingly gave to your little moose. tAke care, I know the pain is sometimes heavy on your great big heart. Hugs.

Little Guy's Mom

Thanks for your kind thoughts. His name was Moustache, say it Moostash, but we mostly called him Moose. He was the most huggable kitty ever. He was so tiny when we got him, 1 1/2 lbs, and I would carry him in the corner of my arm and tickle his tummy. He never outgrew that, except he got so he filled both arms, but he would let you carry him around like a baby for hours and tickle his tummy.

It does hurt so much to lose them, but I'll accept the pain to have the joy and love our little ones bring us.

forduffy

Thanks so much. He was our "dressed up for a formal night on the town" kitty :-).

toonie

Thank you. I guess "love isn't love till you give it away" is just part of my life. I know it's true for you too.


Love

Happy Birthday Moose

Another year, you would have been 12 today baby. We love you and think about you all the time buddy.

You blessed our lives for 10 years, we miss you so much.

Happy Birthday baby, wherever you are.
Our love still lights your way.
Mommy

Happy Birthday to Moose....Angels can have birthdays too.

You Angels can never ever leave our hearts...you become a part of us that can never separate..no matter how much time goes by.

Yes, it truly will be Heaven when one day....all our sweethearts come to greet us. We will have so much time to make up...with lots of hugs and kisses.

I light a Birthday candle for you, Moose. I know you are watching over your "Mom" every single day.

Hugs to you both.

Judy
(Little Guy's Mom)

You were a great mom and I know that you have many wonderful memories of Moose. We never have enough time with them but they enrich our lives so much in the few short years they are with us. Keep those precious memories and treasure them. Moose was a real sweetheart.

Ken Albin

Judy (Little Guy's Mom) and Ken Albin

Thanks for thinking of my boy on his "birthday". Of course it wasn't, it was the day we got him. Who knows when the little guy was born for sure. He was only 5 or 6 weeks when he came to us.

Thanks for saying nice things and remembering him. Hugs back at you.

I miss him so much.

There are alot of people who need to be reminded of that, and often. It is one of the few things in Life where the bill comes due at the end, all at once. usually we pay as we go. Some have been so overwhelmed by the bill that they fear to ever enjoy the love and joy again.
They only remember the bill, and seem to forget the other 99% of the time they spent happy and pefectly loved.

Well said, Jon. I can't think of a single word to add to what you said.

Except.............Ditto!

Judy

Jon730

Very well said Jon. It does come due all at once and feels very overwhelming when it happens. I try to get to remembering as soon as I can, of course it takes a while after you lose one, all the joy and love they gave to me. At my age and after losing so many I KNOW the payment will come due, but I can't imagine not having the joy and love they bring. I don't like it but I accept that the pain is part of the love.

We got Majic just a month after Moose passed. He makes us laugh every day, the silly little bugger. :-) Our lives would be so empty without him.

Treasure every moment you have.