Today I've been in a sort of softly melancholic mood...not deeply depressed...not happy. just a sort of in-between state...not numb...just a gentle sadness as if the loss of my Tia is finally becoming a permanent part of my life in my mind. In this mood I felt drawn towards certain songs, songs with certain "feel"s to them. Music has always been an integral part of my life...highlighting my happy times and punctuating my sad ones. These songs I will share here with y'all supported me today and I feel they say out loud (in words and music) how I feel about my loss. I'll include the lyrics to one of the songs. The other is in nationality (these are both from my favorite musician, Hyde, who is nationality).
Do you find any songs in particular seem to jump out at you as meaningful...that they seem to speak to you personally about your lost loved one(s) or about your feelings about that loved one? Let's share
When I feel sad but grateful to my Tia I listen to this song, "Shallow Sleep," by Hyde. This is the piano version with English lyrics. It's sad but the lyrics are so meaningful to someone who lost a loved one. Please give it a listen.
This is the link to the song and below are the lyrics:
Link to "Shallow Sleep (English, piano version)"
"Shallow Sleep" (lyrics and music by Hyde)
I just saw you
Beyond the course of time
A room that we once shared
But my memory's a haze
Forgetting what was said
I gently held out my hand
And in that perfect moment
You disappeared - I lost you over again
In a shallow sleep I dreamt I was seeing you
Just how I remembered
Brimming with tenderness
And somewhere in the calm
A feeling that nothing had ever changed
Your presence close beside me till I wake
I just saw you
A moment far too brief
Before the daylight came
But my heart is beating fast
Perhaps we'll meet again
In a shallow sleep I dreamt I was seeing you
Just how I remembered
Brimming with tenderness
And somewhere in the calm
A feeling that nothing had ever changed
Your presence close beside me till I wake
I see you - until I wake from shallow sleep
An artist without a brush
Can't paint upon the canvas
Without you here - there is no colour
A colourless landscape
In a shallow sleep I dreamt I was seeing you
Just how I remembered
Brimming with tenderness
And somewhere in the calm
A feeling that nothing had ever changed
Your presence close beside me till I wake
I see you - shallow sleep
This song, called "Season's Call," is another one by Hyde. This one is more upbeat and reminds me of the few times (perhaps the manic upside of a manic depressive mood swing..haha) that in the midst of my grief I feel a sudden welling up of joy, of gra***ude for my Tia and for her presence in my life. As some of the English lyrics of this mostly nationality song state, "because you taught me how to love I feel I can do anything." This song is about a feeling, a sureness that there is a higher power by the feeling of inner joy and peace that the faith one has provides them. I also interpret it like this...When I think of Tia and how she has now passed on I don't always feel sad. When I look at it and step outside of my sad feelings I feel an inner peace and a sudden feeling of joy to think that somewhere, inside of me, she is still there and will never die. This is what I think of when I hear this song...my faith that Tia is still with me, only now, in her spiritual form, she will never leave me as her mortal form did.
Hyde "Seasons Call" video
Edit: I'll purposefully misspell this so you can see what I mean...every time I type Jpnese this changed it to "nationality"...in case you're wondering what that meant:)
Full Version: Songs That Remind You Of Your Lost Loved One
When I came out of the vets and started my car after Simba been PTS the song on the radio was "Had A Bad Day" by Daniel Powter. That was the first song I heard. All I remember about driving home is listening to that song like someone was talking to me and the next thing I knew I was home.
Shannon by Henry Gross
"Home" by Michael Buble.
It tears me up every time I hear it. It was one of the first songs I heard after Kurby had died.
"I'm just too far....from where you are....I wanna come home."
It tears me up every time I hear it. It was one of the first songs I heard after Kurby had died.
"I'm just too far....from where you are....I wanna come home."
Snow Patrol - Chasing Cars. Reminds me of sleeping on the kitchen floor with Cara when she was ill. I am on the hunt for something that doesn't make me crumble every time I hear it - I even started blabbing in a cafe the other day when it came on. I'd like to have one that makes me smile about her instead of cry!
right now the only song that really runs through my mind is "Rest high on the mountain" by Vince Gill. I know it talks about a father and his son, but I think it can apply to a father and his babby girl. That song along with my thoughts of her constanly run through my mind even when I'm occupied doing something.
Unforgetable by Nat King Cole.
Cleo 1
Cleo 1
Cleo 1, my baby's name was Cleo as well. Good name. 
When I started the car to go to the vet to have Jake PTS, the chorus of Carrie Underwood's "Jesus Take The Wheel" was playing.
Sandi
Sandi
For Raggs I Will Always Love You, by Doly Parton. for I will always love him as he loved me . Would'nt be wonderful if we humans loved each other like our furbabies.
Joanne
Joanne
All of them! The most of all though Who you'd be today by Kenny Chesney
Sunny days seem to hurt the most.
I wear the pain like a heavy coat.
I feel you everywhere I go.
I see your smile, I see your face,
I hear you laughin' in the rain.
I still can't believe you're gone.
It ain't fair: you died too young,
Like the story that had just begun,
But death tore the pages all away.
God knows how I miss you,
All the hell I've been through,
Just knowin' no-one could take your place.
An' sometimes I wonder,
Who'd you be today?
Would you see the world? Would you chase your dreams?
Settle down with a family,
I wonder what would you name your babies?
Some days the sky's so blue,
I feel like I can talk to you,
An' I know it might sound crazy.
It ain't fair: you died too young,
Like the story that had just begun,
But death tore the pages all away.
God knows how I miss you,
All the hell I've been through,
Just knowin' no-one could take your place.
An' sometimes I wonder,
Who you'd be today?
Today, today, today.
Today, today, today.
[Instrumental Break]
Sunny days seem to hurt the most.
I wear the pain like a heavy coat.
The only thing that gives me hope,
Is I know I'll see you again some day.
Some day, some day, some day.
Sunny days seem to hurt the most.
I wear the pain like a heavy coat.
I feel you everywhere I go.
I see your smile, I see your face,
I hear you laughin' in the rain.
I still can't believe you're gone.
It ain't fair: you died too young,
Like the story that had just begun,
But death tore the pages all away.
God knows how I miss you,
All the hell I've been through,
Just knowin' no-one could take your place.
An' sometimes I wonder,
Who'd you be today?
Would you see the world? Would you chase your dreams?
Settle down with a family,
I wonder what would you name your babies?
Some days the sky's so blue,
I feel like I can talk to you,
An' I know it might sound crazy.
It ain't fair: you died too young,
Like the story that had just begun,
But death tore the pages all away.
God knows how I miss you,
All the hell I've been through,
Just knowin' no-one could take your place.
An' sometimes I wonder,
Who you'd be today?
Today, today, today.
Today, today, today.
[Instrumental Break]
Sunny days seem to hurt the most.
I wear the pain like a heavy coat.
The only thing that gives me hope,
Is I know I'll see you again some day.
Some day, some day, some day.
How to save a life - The fray
"Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life "
its what was playing on the radio at the time i drove past his body on the side of the freeway after looking for him for 2 days. i cant get thru that song without bawling my eyes out now.
"Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life "
its what was playing on the radio at the time i drove past his body on the side of the freeway after looking for him for 2 days. i cant get thru that song without bawling my eyes out now.
Please go to youtube and enjoy DOG SONG 2 Better with you There by typing it in. It is a colorful collection of great doggie art from Seattle artist Nancy Schutt combined with a "good ole country tune" designed to tug at your heartstrings and quite possibly bring a tear or two. Here are some of the lyrics:
When I'd get home from work each night, you were always there to greet me,
With so much love my troubles seemed to fade'n'turn to smiles...
You'd smother me with kisses sitting in that "big ole chair"
Life was so much BETTER with you THERE......
Well I been tryin' to pass the time without you....things just ain't the same
I 'd stare at that old collar rememberin' how I'd holler out yer name...
When I'd say.."C'mere boy...lets go for a ride" you'd beat me to the car each time
With the windows down wind blowin' in your.....face........
When I'd get home from work each night, you were always there to greet me,
With so much love my troubles seemed to fade'n'turn to smiles...
You'd smother me with kisses sitting in that "big ole chair"
Life was so much BETTER with you THERE......
Well I been tryin' to pass the time without you....things just ain't the same
I 'd stare at that old collar rememberin' how I'd holler out yer name...
When I'd say.."C'mere boy...lets go for a ride" you'd beat me to the car each time
With the windows down wind blowin' in your.....face........
Since Maggie's death when I hear this song I think of her, and tears stream down my face.
One Headlight – The Wallflowers
http://www.last.fm/music/The+Wallflowers/+videos/38015083
One Headlight – The Wallflowers
http://www.last.fm/music/The+Wallflowers/+videos/38015083
Since Gemini's passing this song runs through my mind.....Coming Back To Me by Jefferson Airplane
Coming back to me by Jefferson AirplaneVisit My Website
Jefferson Airplane - Comin' Back To Me lyrics
(Marty Balin)
The summer had inhaled
And held it's breath too long
The winter looked the same
As if it never had gone
And through an open window
Where no curtain hung
I saw you, I saw you
Comin' back to me
One begins to read between
The pages of a look
The shape of sleepy music
And suddenly you're hooked
Through the rain upon the trees
The kisses on the run
I saw you, I saw you
Comin' back to me
You came to stay and live my way
Scatter my love like leaves in the wind
You always say you won't go away
But I know what it always has been
It always has been
A transparent dream
Beneath an occasional sigh
Most of the time
I just let it go by
Now I wish it hadn't begun
I saw you, yes, I saw you
Comin' back to me
Strolling the hills
Overlooking the shore
I realize I've been here before
The shadow in the mist
Could have been anyone
I saw you, I saw you
Comin' back to me
Small things like reasons
Are put in a jar
Whatever happened to wishes
Wished on a star?
Was it just something
That I made up for fun?
I saw you, I saw you
Comin' back to me
"Do You Realize" by the Flaming Lips. I've had this song in my head for the past month and heard it every time I looked into Smudge's sweet, beautiful face.
Leibchen's song is "My Heart Will Go On". The last time she went for a car ride with me, three days before she passed, this song came on the radio. I had never "really" listened to the lyrics before then. I glanced over at her in the passenger seat and she sat up and just gazed back at me, then laid back down and stared out the window. I knew. The gravity of her illness was still not sinking in yet, but I knew this was her song. I had to pull over as I couldn't see to drive through my tears. At times when I am feeling really down and thinking of her more often than usual, this song has come on the radio. I still have to pull over and listen, dry my eyes, glance at the empty car seat next to me, and then just quietly say "thank you Lei-Lei'".
In Nov. 2008, just before the second anniversary of her death, I had lunch at our favorite nationality restaurant. While we ate the music played, as usual , via the ceiling, piped in through speakers. The same song played over and over the ENTIRE time we were there, like it was on instant replay.... it was a lovely instrumental version of "My Heart Will Go On". How unusual to hear it during lunch for 45min. straight. I only ate half my lunch and silently cried as I remembered that last car ride. My then 21yr old son was sitting across from me and he too had full eyes and tried to avoid eye contact with me. I then recalled a fond memory of Leibchen and shared it with him, which made us smile as I dried my tears.
I got another schipperke, like Leibchen was, about 7mo after she passed, from a kennel called Heart-Throb's schipperkes. She was born on what should have been Lei-Lei's 13th birthday, so I was intrigued. I named her Echo and she is a lot like Lei... too much sometimes. Leibchen is still "my little daughter" and will always own my heart, but I share "just a little" that's left of it, with Echo. I don't think Lei-Lei would miss such a trivial amount. Echo's registered name is Heart-Throb's My Heart Will Go On...and I guess it has.
This song has meant so much to me. Thank you Lei-Lei.
Peace
In Nov. 2008, just before the second anniversary of her death, I had lunch at our favorite nationality restaurant. While we ate the music played, as usual , via the ceiling, piped in through speakers. The same song played over and over the ENTIRE time we were there, like it was on instant replay.... it was a lovely instrumental version of "My Heart Will Go On". How unusual to hear it during lunch for 45min. straight. I only ate half my lunch and silently cried as I remembered that last car ride. My then 21yr old son was sitting across from me and he too had full eyes and tried to avoid eye contact with me. I then recalled a fond memory of Leibchen and shared it with him, which made us smile as I dried my tears.
I got another schipperke, like Leibchen was, about 7mo after she passed, from a kennel called Heart-Throb's schipperkes. She was born on what should have been Lei-Lei's 13th birthday, so I was intrigued. I named her Echo and she is a lot like Lei... too much sometimes. Leibchen is still "my little daughter" and will always own my heart, but I share "just a little" that's left of it, with Echo. I don't think Lei-Lei would miss such a trivial amount. Echo's registered name is Heart-Throb's My Heart Will Go On...and I guess it has.
This song has meant so much to me. Thank you Lei-Lei.
Peace
"footprints in the sand" By Leona Lewis, beautiful lyrics,
You walked with me,
Footprints in the sand,
And helped me understand,
Where I'm going,
You walked with me,
When I was all alone,
With so much unknown,
Along the way,
Then I heard you say,
I promise you,
I'm always there,
When your heart is filled with sorrow,
And despair, I'll carry you
When you need a friend
You'll find my footprints in the sand.
I see my life flash across the sky,
So many times have I been so afraid.
And just when I, have thought I lost my way,
You gave me strength to carry on,
That's when I heard you say,
I promise you
I'm always there
When your heart is filled
With sorrow and despair
And, I'll carry you
When you need a friend
You'll find my footprints in the sand.
When I'm with you,
Well I know you've been there,
And I can feel you when you say,
I promise you (you)
I'm always there
When your heart is filled (when your heart)
With sadness and despair (and despair)
I'll carry you when you need a friend (need a friend)
You'll find my footprints in the sand. (I promise you)
Ohh. (I'm always there)
When your heart is full of
Sadness and despair, (and despair)
I'll carry you when you need a friend. (I'll carry you)
You'll find my footprints in the sand.
Edited to say, this sums up excatly what Foxy was to me. We got her just before I found out I was pregnant with my DD, and she helped me through some very tough times, a threatened miscarriage, a very traumatic delivery where both DD and I nearly died and post natal depression. Foxy was my reason to leave the house on days when I didn't even want to get out of bed. I miss her so so much.
You walked with me,
Footprints in the sand,
And helped me understand,
Where I'm going,
You walked with me,
When I was all alone,
With so much unknown,
Along the way,
Then I heard you say,
I promise you,
I'm always there,
When your heart is filled with sorrow,
And despair, I'll carry you
When you need a friend
You'll find my footprints in the sand.
I see my life flash across the sky,
So many times have I been so afraid.
And just when I, have thought I lost my way,
You gave me strength to carry on,
That's when I heard you say,
I promise you
I'm always there
When your heart is filled
With sorrow and despair
And, I'll carry you
When you need a friend
You'll find my footprints in the sand.
When I'm with you,
Well I know you've been there,
And I can feel you when you say,
I promise you (you)
I'm always there
When your heart is filled (when your heart)
With sadness and despair (and despair)
I'll carry you when you need a friend (need a friend)
You'll find my footprints in the sand. (I promise you)
Ohh. (I'm always there)
When your heart is full of
Sadness and despair, (and despair)
I'll carry you when you need a friend. (I'll carry you)
You'll find my footprints in the sand.
Edited to say, this sums up excatly what Foxy was to me. We got her just before I found out I was pregnant with my DD, and she helped me through some very tough times, a threatened miscarriage, a very traumatic delivery where both DD and I nearly died and post natal depression. Foxy was my reason to leave the house on days when I didn't even want to get out of bed. I miss her so so much.
I thought I would repost this song here (I've just posted it in my thread) as I feel a lot of people might be able to relate to it. Funnily enough, this was Daisy's favourite song when she was alive.
"The Dance" by Garth Brooks
--
Looking back on the memory of
The dance we shared 'neath the stars above
For a moment all the world was right
How could I have known that you'd ever say goodbye
And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain
But I'd have had to miss the dance
Holding you I held everything
For a moment wasn't I a king
But if I'd only known how the king would fall
Hey who's to say you know I might have changed it all
And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain
But I'd have had to miss the dance
Yes my life is better left to chance
I could have missed the pain but I'd have had to miss the dance
---
"The Dance" by Garth Brooks
--
Looking back on the memory of
The dance we shared 'neath the stars above
For a moment all the world was right
How could I have known that you'd ever say goodbye
And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain
But I'd have had to miss the dance
Holding you I held everything
For a moment wasn't I a king
But if I'd only known how the king would fall
Hey who's to say you know I might have changed it all
And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain
But I'd have had to miss the dance
Yes my life is better left to chance
I could have missed the pain but I'd have had to miss the dance
---
When Holly was younger my favorite song was Jewel - You Were Meant For Me so that one .... and the last song I sang her was The Beatles - All My Loving. The past few days I've been singing the Jewel song, The Beatles song as well as Judy Garland - Somewhere Over the Rainbow. Holly was a carefree and happy dog throughout most of her life, and that's how I want to remember her. There's nothing better for mending a broken heart than oldies and nothing heals better than the song my grandmother sang my mother when my mother was little: Doris Day - Que Sera Sera.
I miss my grandmother dearly and I remember Holly always loving grandma's room before my grandma died because it was so warm in there. She loved hanging out and sleeping next to grandma's bed every day when I was in school. They were such old ladies together.
My choice for remembering my precious Holly? Doris Day - Que Sera Sera
Hands down.
When I was just a little girl
I asked my mother, what will I be
Will I be pretty, will I be rich
Here's what she said to me.
Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.
When I was young, I fell in love
I asked my sweetheart what lies ahead
Will we have rainbows, day after day
Here's what my sweetheart said.
Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.
Now I have children of my own
They ask their mother, what will I be
Will I be handsome, will I be rich
I tell them tenderly.
Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.
I miss my grandmother dearly and I remember Holly always loving grandma's room before my grandma died because it was so warm in there. She loved hanging out and sleeping next to grandma's bed every day when I was in school. They were such old ladies together.
My choice for remembering my precious Holly? Doris Day - Que Sera Sera
Hands down.
When I was just a little girl
I asked my mother, what will I be
Will I be pretty, will I be rich
Here's what she said to me.
Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.
When I was young, I fell in love
I asked my sweetheart what lies ahead
Will we have rainbows, day after day
Here's what my sweetheart said.
Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.
Now I have children of my own
They ask their mother, what will I be
Will I be handsome, will I be rich
I tell them tenderly.
Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.
Fly To The Angels by Slaughter
Pictures of you
Oh, they're still on my mind
You had the smile
That could light up the world
Now it rains
It seems the sun never shines
And I drive down
This lonely, lonely road
Ooh I got this feelin'
Now I gotta let you go
But now you've got to fly
(Fly high)
Fly to the angels
Heaven awaits your heart
And flowers bloom in your name
You've got to fly
(Fly high)
Fly to the angels
All the stars in the night
Shine in your name
Though it hurts me, way deep inside
When I took a look
And found that you're not there
I tried to convince myself
That the pain
The pain is still not gone
But still I drive down
This lonely lonely road
But I got this feeling
Girl I gotta let you go
You've got to fly
(Fly high)
Fly to the angels
Heaven awaits your heart
And flowers bloom in your name
You've got to fly
(Fly high)
Fly to the angels
All the stars in the night
Shine in your name
Ooh yeah
And still I drive down
This lonely lonely road
Oh I got this feelin'
Oh, I can't let you go
But I know that you've got to fly
(Fly high)
Fly to the angels
Heaven awaits your heart
And flowers bloom in your name
Ohh you've gotta fly
(Fly high)
Fly to the angels
All the stars in the sky
Shine in your name oh yeah
Ooh, ooh
Ooh yeah
I'm gonna miss you
I'm gonna miss you so
Pictures of you
Oh, they're still on my mind
You had the smile
That could light up the world
Now it rains
It seems the sun never shines
And I drive down
This lonely, lonely road
Ooh I got this feelin'
Now I gotta let you go
But now you've got to fly
(Fly high)
Fly to the angels
Heaven awaits your heart
And flowers bloom in your name
You've got to fly
(Fly high)
Fly to the angels
All the stars in the night
Shine in your name
Though it hurts me, way deep inside
When I took a look
And found that you're not there
I tried to convince myself
That the pain
The pain is still not gone
But still I drive down
This lonely lonely road
But I got this feeling
Girl I gotta let you go
You've got to fly
(Fly high)
Fly to the angels
Heaven awaits your heart
And flowers bloom in your name
You've got to fly
(Fly high)
Fly to the angels
All the stars in the night
Shine in your name
Ooh yeah
And still I drive down
This lonely lonely road
Oh I got this feelin'
Oh, I can't let you go
But I know that you've got to fly
(Fly high)
Fly to the angels
Heaven awaits your heart
And flowers bloom in your name
Ohh you've gotta fly
(Fly high)
Fly to the angels
All the stars in the sky
Shine in your name oh yeah
Ooh, ooh
Ooh yeah
I'm gonna miss you
I'm gonna miss you so
When we were driving Dakota to the Vets that cold January morning (her last) I heard this song on the Radio--I cannot hear it without crying. It's called "One More Day"--by Diamond Rio.
"One More Day"
Last night I had a crazy dream
A wish was granted just for me,
It could be for anything
I didn't ask for money
Or a mansion in malibu
I simply wished, for one more day with you
One more day
One more time
One more sunset, maybe I'd be satisfied
But then again
I know what it would do
Leave me wishing still, for one more day with you
First thing I'd do, is pray for time to crawl
Then I'd unplug the telephone
And keep the tv off
I'd hold you every second
Say a million I love you's
That's what I'd do. With one more day with you
"One More Day"
Last night I had a crazy dream
A wish was granted just for me,
It could be for anything
I didn't ask for money
Or a mansion in malibu
I simply wished, for one more day with you
One more day
One more time
One more sunset, maybe I'd be satisfied
But then again
I know what it would do
Leave me wishing still, for one more day with you
First thing I'd do, is pray for time to crawl
Then I'd unplug the telephone
And keep the tv off
I'd hold you every second
Say a million I love you's
That's what I'd do. With one more day with you