I'm so sorry about the loss of your precious Lollie!!

She is now in a realm where there's no sense of emotional or physical pain, where there's no sense of separation from you. Pure bliss

--and you will be reunited when it's your time!! Until then, Lollie wants you to be okay.
Maybe you can someday adopt another needy animal in Lollie's honor---a way of continuing the love.
It will get easier. My heart is with you,
Kathy