Here I was, just posting yesterday about signs from our gal, and then last night I was talking to her about sending me more, and asking her if she could try to come through in my dreams......

So now I've had a THIRD bad and recurring dream about her, and I don't know if these have all been actual messages from her, or if they're just about me and what I'm trying to work through in my grief!

They've all been the same. No matter what else is going on in the dreams, suddenly she's just there, and pitteously, yet quietly ( not like her except when she was in her final days ) wailing at me, and looking too skinny.......to get her some FOOD, finally, for Heaven's sakes!, as if she's been waiting all these 3 wks. since she left, for me to feed her and I somehow 'forgot'!! Even in the dream, at that moment I realize she's no longer here in physical form, so start to wonder how in the world she could even BE hungry, and what good would food do her anyway now??? But I start anyway, to look for a can of something for her, all disturbed and confused as to why I can't even find anything around. The feeling I suffer each time is that I've NEGLECTED her -- horrors!!! I'd so very seldom EVER neglected any needs of hers for more than an hour or 2 in all her 19 yrs, 7 months, especially for food! In fact, food was a big issue with her, as it was me who was constantly trying to get her to eat more! Then I wake up, feeling soooooo terrible, like I've abandoned her to suffering something I don't even understand, something that doesn't even make sense to me!

But the worst suffering for ME, is that I keep worrying afterwards that she's somehow gotten into some kind of trouble getting to the Other Side, and NEEEEEDS me, her Mommy, to DO something to help her!!! The first time I had this dream, I figured it was just me, just a brief nightmare and that I likely wouldn't have it again anyway.....but it just keeps coming back! And having just asked her to come to me in her dreams has me thinking she IS, but something's WRONG! Oh, God help me if there IS something wrong, and I can't figure out what it is or what to do to help my girl out of it!!!!!! I NEVER had nightmares like this when Sabin died, even though I was loaded with guilt over the way he died. No, with him, in the midst of a chaotic dream, he'd appear and I'd just have a KNOWING that he was fine, safe, untouchable, despite whatever was going on around us....and experienced great comfort from that.....could even hold him and have it feel real, and calming, just as it was with him and me in the physical plane. But THIS, with my little girl, who I always felt more protective of!.......I don't even want to go to sleep again now!! Please, if anyone can help?????? I'm so AFRAID for her!!

Remember that you baby is in a safe place and happy and pain-free!! The nightmares may be a result of unresolved guilt feelings so don't worry about them. I haven't had any nightmares about Precious so I suppose subconsciously I know he's with my Mum and other family members in that wonderful place where people and pets feel only love and are all together again. It makes me more than a bit jealous (!) but I'm happy that Precious is not hurting anymore and isn't an "older cat" -- he's ageless and timeless.
Talk to clergy, maybe they can help you resolve your feelings. My priest certainly helped me!
Please take care...
Lisa

Furkidlet's Mom

I think that you had one bad dream about Nissa and your subconsious mind is going back to that place when you want to dream about Nissa. I am so sorry for your worry and unhappiness but I believe that Nissa is doing better than all of us are down here. She is safe and happy and without pain. Your were a great Mom! Make a list of all the things you did for her and a list of what you didn't. I am sure the second list will be BLANK!

During the last few weeks of Dugan's life I felt it was so important that he not lose weight so I went out and bought alot more bowls for food. I had them EVERYWHERE and when he meowed I would open a new can or pouch or treats. He used to sit on the bed and look around the corner at me in the kitchen as if to say, "I am here Mom are you going to bring me something good?" He was always a good eater but he even started coming to bed in the middle of the night to wake me up to feed him, which of course I gladly did. I had a rough night last night myself and woke up at 2:00PM as usual and could not get back to sleep. When I got up this morning there was a bowl on the floor of the kitchen, that my husband must have left, before he went to work. I just lost it. Crying like a baby again. It brought back so many memories.

Try and get Nissa to communicate with you during the day. Try not to dream of her. Let her come to you in her own time (as is the way with cats most of time anyway) I find if I just let things flow it works better for me. If I try and push and control I always seem to get into trouble. I just feel in my heart that she is ok like all of our babies are. I think we project alot of our own worries from this world onto the next because it is the unknown.

Take care and know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.

Dugan's Mom
Krissyo

I cant believe how you are describing the exact dreams that i have and just two nights ago i had this same dream about my baby rabbit Ringo who died years ago.

it is, i think, processing our feelings of hopelessness, why cant we ~DO something, after all we are the most powerful species on earth and we cant do anything about this death thing.

And of course we have spent - how many years - feeding and caring for them and all of sudden nothing, no getting up to let them out, no feeding no watering no walking. Our minds must be wondering what the hells going on why have we stopped these life long habits HAVE WE FORGOTEN to do them, better process this in her dreams make sure we get it examined and filed.

Trust me everything is normal, as awful as normal is right now. Ask before you sleep to have a peaceful night - Reiki your sleep till you feel more comfortable letting your dreams just be.

I had this dream once where Jude and Sadie were hatched out of a hutch, lord alone knows what that one was about.

Love Sue

The only other thought I have is perhaps she still feels tied here because she is concerned about you. Maybe she needs your permission to go and reassurance that you will be okay.

God Bless,

Theresa

Thank you, all, for your caring concern about this problem I'm having! I didn't get a chance to get back here yesterday cuz a friend called and I ended up on the phone for hours with her, trying to keep my mind off of everything.

What I ended up doing, though, was phoning Nissa's Reiki practi*tioner, as she's had experience with at least one furbaby who got 'trapped' between planes, so I suddenly rememberd she might be of some assistance. She'd had impressions ( through the Reiki energy ) of Nissa's passage, which made me feel a bit better. She'd been sending her Reiki both before, during and for awhile after her passing. She said Nissa had been really taking the Reiki in beforehand, but spiritually, not physically ( she can feel the difference, after all her years of working with and teaching Reiki - she should have a book published soon about Reiki for animals, btw ). Afterwards, she said she felt Nissa was one of those who rest for awhile....fairly common for those who've had a chronic or debilitating illness before their passing. Hers and my former communicator ( the one who's not able to work right now ) had also told her, years before, that even their energy can be tired, so need this rest, and people do this, too. She said that they can still send signs when they're resting, but that sending takes a lot of energy, so they may not, or not send too many, until they're rested up more. She'd also sensed some sadness from her soon afterwards, so she was missing me. She then sent Nissa more Reiki after we'd talked, and called back to report that the heavy feeling was now gone, so concluded that she was probably done with her resting stage. She also gave me the name and number of a Christian psychic who'd helped her once, for free, with a cat who was to be killed for the owner's convenience, and who didn't want to die. This fellow helped this cat come to peace inside, which was good because the woman did, indeed, follow through with her plans. She told me that if anyone could tell for sure how Nissa was doing, it would be him, as he sees passed ones, and if she was in trouble, he'd know what to do for her. ( he came highly recommended, by both her and friend of hers who's naturally psychic herself - he normally only 'does' people, but is also just as aware of the animals and their levels of existence in Heaven ) So I called him. He assured me quite positively that she was fine and that these dreams are nothing more than my own fears and phobias surfacing, and made mention, too, of our babies usually 'sticking around the house' for about a year, most often. ( I know Sabin's NEVER stopped sending signs, so he's obviously stuck around much longer than most, or checks in more often! ) He told me to quit worrying about her safety, as she was fine and more than well-looked after now.


So, between this and all your wonderful posts, it will be easier for me to let this be and give up that "control" Krissyo spoke of. Last night I asked my subconcious to give me a better, restful, more peaceful sleep and although I dreamed as usual, thankfully, there were no bad ones about my girl. I think I will try to go with the flow more, as I'm able, as I know that makes good sense.

And Sue....??????? What's up with THAT? - the same dreams for the both of us?!?!? How uncanny!! Your mention of the one about the hutch DID make me chuckle, btw....as did Krissyo's suggestion that my second list would be "BLANK"! ( thanks for this bit of levity, gals.....nothing wrong with a bit of that amidst all this pain! ) One question, though.......how does one Reiki their sleep? That, I've not heard of doing, but would like to try it. Do you need Level II to do that?

I also think Sue probably hit the nail on the head, about the DOING thing. I know it's been impossibly hard for me, even just walking through the house doing something else, and not having to stop and DO something for Nissa. The care I chose to give her was almost constant, day and night, for the last couple of years, and increasingly so of course in the last year, then even more so since last March when her blood pressure skyrocketed and she lost one eye's sight from it. My very cells are still crying out, from daily practise, that I should be DOING something for her. My H and I are always getting thoughts about now it being the time of day to......it's both SO hard to sit still and not do, and yet not have the energy to do whatever I should still be doing around here! It's both a relief and a curse to not have all these things to worry about and schedule....as I anticipated it would be, but anticipation's not the same as actually living with the reality, as I'm sure we all can relate to.

Strangely, yet thankfully, it's not hard at all for me to envision Nissa as her younger self now ( on the Other Side )....it just seems natural....maybe also because I never really could see her as 'old', and would sometimes find myself surprised to see some of her bonier parts sticking out in certain postures, reminding me that she was, actually, older now. She was always just my Kitten-Button and I honestly think my thoughts of her being younger helped keep her younger-feeling than her actual years, for the most part.

Anyway, thanks again gals, for all the love and support on this. I hate to be leaning so much on everyone else who's also suffering, but I just find I HAVE to right now, and that's not an easy thing for me, since I'm more often the one trying to help others through their own pain. I just don't seem to have much help to GIVE so far, so I'm really thankful you're all here!

I don't believe that your bad dream is Nissa sending you a message. I think that it is your own mind expressing some feelings of guilt or remorse. Like all of us, you probably feel that you could have done more to keep her alive or to help her. This is normal, even when we have done all that is possible on earth.

I am sorry to disagree with another point, but I believe that anyone who thinks that animals can get caught between planes or have trouble finding their way doesn't understand the purity and goodness of the animal soul. God is their perfect guide and it is impossible for any of his creatures to have trouble finding Him. No human help is needed for creatures who by their very nature are without sin.

So don't worry, Nissa is safe in God's care. One day, you will see her again, but until then, just try to have faith.

Daisy's Mommy

Daisy's Mommy,

Yah, I know there almost always seem to be at least some feelings of guilt or remorse.....hard not to be when love's involved! So it's likely a combination of that, plus Sue's idea.

As for that other thing.....I may be remembering somewhat wrongly...so it may not have been exactly "between planes", but I do know it was something having to do with an interrupted transition....it may have had something to do with the owner of this cat.....I've forgotten most of it cuz it was years ago that I heard this account. But believe me, Nissa's Reiki lady, as we called her, has learned an awful lot about the energy-side of animals, as they've been the very ones to teach her. I know she, herself, wouldn't argue about their purity of soul! And I know she's incredibly good at what she does, as it was even one of her own cats ( who just passed this last year, too, also with CRF for quite a few years ) who's taught his own primary vet about the wonders of Reiki. It was, incredibly but truthfully, Reiki itself that was keeping her cat alive many times during crises, where the vet said nothing she had done could have achieved such miraculous results, and even at the end.....proven afterwards through autopsy. The vet said she'd never seen anything like it and had never done such a strange autopsy in her life. This cat was some kind of Master of teaching, that's for sure, which he continues to do on the Other Side. I'm kinda hoping he hooks up with my 2 kids sometime as well!

It was also helpful for me to find out that this Christian psychic's knowledge about how things are structured in these other realms jibes with what many other psychics, some non-denominational, have also found, although the nomenclature is somewhat different....but just different names for the same concepts. So I will try my best not to let my fears override my beliefs. Blessings to you, too, for your input.

What is Reiki?


Daisy's Mommy,

Anne

Anne,

Reiki is an ancient form of energy healing, originally Jap*anese, but now also including some others, like from Hawaii and other places. It involves acting as a channel for the Universal Energy from whence everything came, with increasing Levels of learning and channeling, then Master work, after which one can then certifiably teach it to others. It can help both heal and relax and is first channelled through the hands ( and feet, too ), but in higher Levels can also be sent 'long distance", w/o having to actually be with the receiver. Animals usually respond very well to it and cats are especially sensitive to it, often preferring the distance method to hands-on, which they can often find too powerful, especially those with CRF and other illnesses that make them a bit more fragile. There's lots to it, but that's the basic idea.

I should let everyone reading this thread know that the Christian psychic who I'd mentioned here actually only does HUMAN passed loved ones' readings, so isn't, unfortunately, available for animal readings. He also doesn't do them by phone, either, unlike most, so you'd have to travel all the way to Edmonton, Alberta, if you had a human you wanted read for! Sorry for not making that clearer in my earlier post, as I know many of us are always on the look-out for a good animal communicator. Last year, someone here had mentioned to me that Elizabeth Severino was someone she was really happy with, but she's quite expensive. If anyone's interested in her, just google her, as she's very well-known in many circles.