I'm so sorry you're feeling badly. I'm sure the bad weather doesn't help your feelings any. I know that it's awful here the past few days (Ernesto), and I've been absolutely miserable too. Your Furry was a beautiful cat. My cats loved to go into the linen closet too. Scooter loved to cuddle or go into his kitty condo. Since he passed 7 weeks ago today, none of the other cats have gone into his condo, like it's haunted or somthing. They will lay on top of it, or next to it, but never in it, which is fine with me, because that condo was Scooter's domain.
I will be especially sad thest holidays without Scooter. He used to come to the door with me when the kids would ring the bell for Halloween candy, or he used to be at the kitchen sink when I'd be thawing the Thanksgiving turkey, and getting everything ready. Christmas, though will be extremely difficult. Scooter loved to lay under the tree on the Christmas Tree Skirt. Even with all the presents under the tree, he always managed to find a spot between the presents, and was hard to find. I'm so glad we took pictures of him under the tree so many times. At least I have that memory. But, it will be so diffifult not seeing him there this year.
I really know how you're feeling. This is the time we left the house 7 weeks ago to go to the vet to have him put to sleep. I remember he was crying in his cage, which made me cry even more. I don't know if he knew what was happening, or if he just did not want to be in that awful carrier. For some reason, his cry just seemed much more pittiful.
The best we can do, is come here, and write our feelings down. It's much easier than trying to explain to someone in person.
I hope as time goes on, that your pain eases, but I know it is difficult as the seasons change, and it gets colder. It does seem to bring back memories of things that were and that will not be anymore. We do have those memories though, and try to remember them as happy times and memories (I know this is difficult).
We will be with our babies again someday.
Scooter - You are missed so much, and in our hearts forever