I thought I was doing better but today just seems so over wheming. I am dreading Saturday as Dugan will be gone two weeks. It feels soooooooo much longer than that.

Labor Day weekend was always such a happy memory as that was when my husband got Dugan for me from the shelter. Now there is a Bar-b-que planned, Nascar to watch and all I want to do is cry. I don't want to put on a stiff upper lip.

There is a chill in the air here and I know than summer is all but over. More endings. I miss my Dugan so much I can hardly stand it.

Dugan's Mom
Krissyo

I know what you mean. 04 September would have been my 19th anniversary of Precious adopting me as his mummy! It's going to be a hard one for me as well.
Don't hold anything back, grieve for as much and as long as you need to. I'm keeping Precious in my heart, mind and soul every day. He still means as much to me as when he was a living, breathing baby!
Talk to Dugan; hug his urn; sing to him! Somewhere, he can hear you and feel your love! That thought is keeping me sane through this bad time.
Lisa

I, too know what you are going through. Every Saturday is torture for me. There won't be any picnics for us this year. Thankfully, I'll be working, and that is a distraction.

But, if you want to cry, just cry. I found, I could not help keep the tears in, and if I tried, it made it worse. You are not alone.

I'll be thinking of you this weekend, sending you comfort and prayers.

Scooter's Mom

I'll be keeping all of you in my thoughts and prayers too -- will do a m^^ candle-lighting at the feet of the Pieta statue in back of the church sanctuary, and say a special prayer for all of our babies. I hope they're visiting with each other and keeping each other company!
Lisa

Precious's Mom and Lisa,

Both of you & your babies will be in my prayers as well. I feel like all I have done all day is cry. I am so rummy today that I even misspelled DUGAN'S NAME!


This was something good from this morning. I made a place on the shelf with all of my babies pictures and ashes and put two electric candles between everything. I tried them yesterday to make sure they worked and then I turned them off. I know they were off last night because my husband forgot to blow out the candle on the table and I did that. The room was totally dark. Then this morning when I got up one of the electric candles was glowing! I take it as a sign from Dugan because for the last few weeks of his life he would sleep on the chair in the kitchen and would come in and 3wake me up about 2:00AM to be fed. I knew he was having trouble seeing so I had night lights all over the kitchen, dining room and bathroom so he had a path to find me.

I hope all of our little angels are running and playing together and wondering why we are so sad down here.

You are all so special to me. Thanks for the support!

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Krissyo

Hi!


I am sure Dugan is your angel watching over you. I feel the same way. Today is 3 weeks for Charlie. I still cry myself to sleep every night. I went to see my doctor today because I have not been feeling well. I advised her what happened 3 weeks ago and she too understood what I am going through. She precribed me an anxiety medicine (not sure if I want to go that route) but we all deal with this situation in our own ways. So continue to grieve remember there is no time frame for your feelings. There is a song by Train called WHEN I LOOK TO THE SKY, this is what helps me when I am having a bad day, I went out and bought the whole cd, maybe you can get it online. Well you and Dugan are in my thoughts and prayers.

Take Care,

Michelle

Thanks beecherbabe. I will look for that CD. One of my favorites was a song by Garth Brooks, "When You Come Back To Me Again", it was a theme song from the movie "Frequency." I know what you mean about crying yourself to sleep. I have not had one day that I could wear contacts. My eye are just red and puffy and I don't even care!

Nothing tastes like anything worth eating. When I look at yogurt, tuna, milk or cantalope all I can think about is Dugan and how those were his favorites.

I wish I could dream about him, safe and happy.

You and Charlie are in my thoughts and prayers. Thanks for being here for me.

Dugan's Mom
Krissyo

I thought I was the only one that thought food was tasteless! I honestly can't taste anything much. Sometimes I forget to eat even when I'm hungry. It's part of the grief process and can be quite upsetting to some people (when they're trying to do something nice by taking you out to lunch and all you can do is stare at your plate).
I'm not trying to be rude to them but when you have a lot on your mind you just can't!
Lisa