TODAY IS THE 3 WEEK MARK WITHOUT MY LITTLE BABY BOY. I HAVE HAD A ROUGH COUPLE OF DAYS, GOING THROUGH THE GUILT STAGE AGAIN. I STILL FEEL LIKE HE STAYING SOME WHERE AND HE WILL BE HOME SOON. I TRY TO KEEP TELLING MYSELF HOW SICK HE WAS AND I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW IT UNTIL THE DAY HE DIED. I AM ALSO SECOND GUESSING THE DOCTORS. WOULD IT BE WRONG TO GET A COPY OF CHARLIES XRAYS, NECROPSY REPORT AND RECORDS JUST FOR A DIFFERENT DOCTOR TO LOOK AT?? I GUESS I AM JUST DIGGING FOR A DIFFERENT ANSWER. CHARLIE I LOVE YOU SOOOOOO MUCH AND STILL CRY MYSELF TO SLEEP AT NIGHT BECAUSE YOU ARE NOT NEXT TO ME. I KNOW YOU ARE AT PEACE NOW WITH YOUR BIG BROTHER GIZMO. JUST REMEMBER HOW MUCH JOY YOU GIVEN DADDY AND I AND WE BOTH LOVE AND MISS YOUR HANDSOME FACE.

LOVE YOUR MOMMY,
MICHELLE

If it will give you peace, then go ahead...but it may cause more grief and pain for you.
Think it over, the right decision will come to you!
Lisa