IT IS A ROUGH DAY TODAY. I JUST BROUGHT MY BABY CHARLIE'S ASHES HOME. I CANNOT DESCRIBE HOW I FEEL! LOST, EMPTY ALONE, MISSING HIM SOOO MUCH IT HURTS!! ALONG WITH HIS ASHES I RECEIVED CHARLIE PAW PRINT WHICH THEY DID AT THE VET'S OFFICE. IT WAS DONE ON A PIECE OF PLASTER, WHEN I SEEN THAT I JUST LOST IT!!! I GUESS IT IS FINAL NOW. I KEPT THINKING HE WAS AWAY FOR A WHILE AND I WAS GOING TO BRING HIM HOME. ALL I CAN SAY IS CHARLIE (CHUCKIE) I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL! YOU ARE WITH YOUR BIG BROTHER NOW, HE WILL TAKE GOOD CARE OF YOU. NOT A MINUTE WILL GO BY WITHOUT ME MISSING YOU OR LOVING YOU. IF I COULD JUST HAVE 1 MORE HUGGIE FROM YOU I THINK I WOULD BE OK. YOUR MOMMY IS GOING TO RESEARCH YOUR CANCER AND HOPEFULLY MAKE A DIFFERENCE FOR OTHER ANIMALS. YOUR SISTER DARLA SENDS LOTS IF KISSES, SHE IS MISSING YOU. YOUR WERE MY BABY BOY . REST IN PEACE NAD I CANNOT WAIT TO SEE YOU AT THE BRIDGE!!!

LOVE YOU FOREVER
YOUR MOM
MICHELLE

What a precious gift that plaster foot print is! I'm envious! what a great rememberance that is!

Peace be with you, Charlie's Mom.

I am really sorry that you are having to go through this. I've been seeing more and more that vets are making paw prints of the pets that they have had to put to sleep. It hurts, but I wish my vets office did that. That would have been wonderful to have that paw print of my cat. I hope that you can find comfort and some kind of peace here. It does help to write about your feelings. There are so many people here that helped me and continue to do so.

I am sorry. I hope you are doing a bit better today. I cried myself reading your post. I hope you do find a cure for that cancer. Try with all your might and ask for Charlie's guidance and a difference will be made. You sound like a real powerful person and that is awesome. I know you want one more hug as do I but try this and just sit still for awhile in a favorite place of Charlie's. Maybe minutes or an hour. Something will happen but just be watching. He is with you and he will let you know. Betsy died on Monday night and it wasn't until last night and this morning I felt her with me. I got ready for bed and I heard her collar cling. This morning, after getting a shower I came back down to my bed and it happened again. Just keep yourself open to this and you will be amazed at how much Charlie is there. Don't ever forget that you will be with him again, it maybe awhile but you will give him the greatest of hugs ever and this time you will never have to let him go. This is a promise from God. Take care and I will give you a great big hug from this side as well and keep you and Charlie in my prayers as well as his sister and big brother.

Kevin