Hi All,
I justed wanted to say that I too, like Juanita am haunted by that last day when I had to put my Tinky love down. When I was in the office holding her on the table I wanted to ask the Vet, "You are sure we have to do this right?" But I knew rationally that a Vet would not put an animal to sleep that wasn't very sick. But it all happened too fast for me to grasp the idea that this was it. That she was so sick that she couldn't live anymore when just two days before I had no idea she was sick at all. I know that cats don't show signs of illness until they are very very sick, but that too still haunts me. How could I not know that my baby was so sick? And I had just found my Millie cat dead in my living room the day before. She was sniffling the night before, but otherwise perfectly ok. The vet said even if she had pnemonia that that wouldn't have killed her. She either had a heart attack or a stroke. Sorry just venting here, the one yr. anniversary of their death is Sept 19,20 and I am very very sad. If you have read my other posts, I have four new furbabies all about 14 months old, Frankie,Sheeba,Thor,Crystal. And I love them to death....... but I still miss my Millie and Tinky so so much. Thanks for listening guys.

Debby Mom of
Tinky,Millie,Frankie,Sheebs,Thor,Chrissie

Hi Debby,

Please dont appologize for coming here to "vent". Tinky was your baby, part of you, your unconditional love, the one you shared your secrets with, the one who never got angry with you, the one who could look directly into your soul and know exactly how to make you feel better or when it was time to play or sleep or cuddle. Who else knew you better.

I get comfort from faith that we'll be together again. I pray and pray we will all be together again on the bridge.

Please keep coming to this site and writing about your baby as it helps the rest of us know that we won't ever forget....I can still feel exactly what my Pepe feels like if I just close my eyes.

Thanks for coming back

Pepe's dad

Dear Debby,
Sometimes there is just no rhyme or reason for why things happen the way they do, or the timing of those events. My Magic cat died in Dec., I never had a clue that she was sick or not, or what ever happened to her. It's part of what hurts the most - that animals can seem fine one day and the next day be gone. I have a feeling that one day, when we are reunited with them, we will understand what happened. But meanwhile it hurts, even if you have the comfort of other kitties around. It's okay and normal to wonder, to question, to get angry, to feel guilt - you wouldn't be human if those emotions were absent. Please come back and let us know how you're doing - those anniversaries bring back such memories that we thought were behind us. It's never behind us - we carry these things throughout our lives and it becomes a part of who we we are. Let us knowhow you're doing and take care -Barbara

Dear Debby - I'm so sorry for the loss of Millie and Tinky. I would have lost my mind. Please don't blame yourself for what happened. Many years ago, we had a dog Benji. He was healthy one day, and the next so sick. The vet said it was probably a virus, because he had lost his balance, and could not stand. His face did not look right. After trying medication, it was obvious that something more serious had happend, and figured it was a stroke. All we can do is love our furbabies with all our hearts. Unfortunately, as I have painfully discovered. we have no guarantee's how long we will be blessed to have them with us.
My cat Scooter always knew when I needed love and comfort. He always slept on my side, and I had barely gotten into bed, but he was there waiting for me so he could just get on my side and sleep there all night. Even if I woke up during the night, he was still there. It was so comforting. Now I miss that so bad.

I know it is difficult, with the anniversary so near. God bless you for adopting 4 more furbabies. They are blessed to have you to care for them and love them.

Writing here and venting here, helps, I know it helps , because it has gotten me through some of my most difficult days and nights.

Trish

Your love and compassion for your cats is so clear. Mille and Tinky were so loved and had such a good life with you. Their legacy lives on. Just keep loving and try to let got of feeling bad about how it happened-maybe they spared you for a reason? They went on their own terms....