Last night after spending hours here reading, I decided to go to bed as I am so exhausted from crying. I can's sleep in my bed right now because there is an empty spot on the pillow next to me. I layed on the couch and prayed for us to remain connected through our dreams. I awoke to my 16 year old cat, Aspen, asleep between my legs.
I almoast cant bear him not being here. He always wakes me up at 6. I think my other cat's are mourning too. Chevis and Pepe were very close for over 10 years. When Pepe stopped grooming himself, Chevis would do it for him....I'm worried about the poor little girl....she's staying away most of the time although still very affectionate for a minute or 2 when I put her in my lap.
For quite some time Pepe would only eat temptations treats...when I got up this morning I went to the cabinet for them... but only one of the other 3 cats came. It breaks my heart even more to know the other cats are feeling the same way I am.
I feel guilty beginning a second day without you!
Pepe, please please know if there were anything I could do right now to hold you in my arms again right now, I would.....I miss you so much baby....I love you with all my heart.
Daddy
Full Version: The Beginning Of Day 2 Without My Baby...
Pepe's Daddy - I am so sorry for the pain you are going through right now. I, too cry when I read the posts here also. We had to have our cat Scooter put to sleep a little over 4 weeks ago. The pain was unbearable, and the tears never stop flowing. I have ok days, and two days ago, I was unconsolable, crying my heart out missing Scooter.
I, also , have 3 remaining cats. They moruned the passing of Scooter. It was awful those first weeks. The first night, they were all three looking for Scooter. It was so obvious, they were looking in all of his hiding spaces, and where he used to sleep. It was so heartbreaking. Now his kitty condo remains empty, the other cats, just lay on the floor next to it. I miss my little guy so bad, he was not quite 7 and lost his battle with kidney disease.
Things have eased a little. I still find it hard to sleep because Scooter used to sleep on my side every night. My 3 other cats barely come up on the bed now.
I think that is because we just adopted another furbaby named Marcel.
I feel so bad for your pain, and understand how unbearably sad you feel.
You gave all your love to your Pepe, and he is at peace. The journey through grief has many stages, and it is exhausting, I won't lie to you about that. I must say that I learned that you have to do your best to take care of yourself. Cry when you need to, but, try to rest when you can. I forgot about cooking and housework for the longest time. The only thing I could do was cry and take care of my other 3 cats. That was the only reason I got up every day. If you can, I hope you have family or friends to talk to.If not, come here and just write about all your feeling. It does help. Everyone here understands how you're feeling.
Try to take care of yourself, by getting some rest, try to have a little to eat, (I know this is hard). But,, I'm just telling you from what I went through, what I learned was necessary. Just take it one day or even 1 hour at a time. You did everything you could for Pepe.
In time, you will remember the good happy times, and funny things your Pepe did, but for now, please, know my heart and prayers go out to you during this sad time for you
Trish
I, also , have 3 remaining cats. They moruned the passing of Scooter. It was awful those first weeks. The first night, they were all three looking for Scooter. It was so obvious, they were looking in all of his hiding spaces, and where he used to sleep. It was so heartbreaking. Now his kitty condo remains empty, the other cats, just lay on the floor next to it. I miss my little guy so bad, he was not quite 7 and lost his battle with kidney disease.
Things have eased a little. I still find it hard to sleep because Scooter used to sleep on my side every night. My 3 other cats barely come up on the bed now.
I think that is because we just adopted another furbaby named Marcel.
I feel so bad for your pain, and understand how unbearably sad you feel.
You gave all your love to your Pepe, and he is at peace. The journey through grief has many stages, and it is exhausting, I won't lie to you about that. I must say that I learned that you have to do your best to take care of yourself. Cry when you need to, but, try to rest when you can. I forgot about cooking and housework for the longest time. The only thing I could do was cry and take care of my other 3 cats. That was the only reason I got up every day. If you can, I hope you have family or friends to talk to.If not, come here and just write about all your feeling. It does help. Everyone here understands how you're feeling.
Try to take care of yourself, by getting some rest, try to have a little to eat, (I know this is hard). But,, I'm just telling you from what I went through, what I learned was necessary. Just take it one day or even 1 hour at a time. You did everything you could for Pepe.
In time, you will remember the good happy times, and funny things your Pepe did, but for now, please, know my heart and prayers go out to you during this sad time for you
Trish
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