Aug 14th my little starry had to go. In 10 days she would have been a year.
She was dragging herself after me and still even trying to get to her potty pad to please me, that's how much she loved me in such her short little life.
I can't beleive how hard this is, I feel like my face is going to fall off bc I miss her sooo much.
No more crazy helicopter tail wagging, howling at dogs 100 times her size, putting her head on my foot with her nose 1 inch from my toenails iam trying to cut, swatting me with her paw to throw her toy and most of all being my sweet friend.
I slept (attempted to) with her toys but have such a hole in my soul now.
My husband went w/me to the appt at our vet to euthenize her.(I don't even want to spell it!)Our vet was so nice and gave her a sedative first, it was so fast and I held her the whole time.She looked so beautiful and I think she was ready bc she normally gets scared at the vets but she wasn't shaking or nervous at all.
We stayed for a while and talked to her, I know we made the decision at the right time but typing this I am crying.
Well I didn't have the emotional energy to say every thing but I just wanted to honor her in some way here.
We get the ashes back next week but I am going to bury a toy and the fur from her brush tomorrow, outside my kitchen window bc she always laid on top of my feet while I was in there which was alot.

Thank you all for reading about Star, bc she was one..

I am very sorry for your loss of Star. When you love a pet as much as we all obviously do here, it is so hard to have to say goodbye. I lost Mocha, my lab/pit mix on July 1st. She was similiar to Star in that she did not like going to the vet. She was always hiding behind my legs, nervously shaking. On the day I took her in to have her put to sleep, she was so calm, laid on the floor and wasn't nervous at all. She was 3 days shy of being 8 years old.

You find the right place here. Everyone understands what you are going through and there are so many caring people here to help comfort and offer support. I know that I am very grateful to have found this forum.

I am so sorry about Starry, as you know I'm walking the same path with you. I think when we lose a furbaby that passes in their sleep or other way we say it was Gods decision to call them home. We still feel the same pain of loss, but it's out of our control. When we have to do the deciding it can put everything in a different light. Some people feel guilt and eats away at them, they keep second guessing themselves. They don't realize it is still God calling them home through us. I know everyong loved their babies as much as I loved mine, and if I could have one wish it would be to take their guilt away, and replace it with joy. To make them realize they loved their baby so much they gave them the gift of freedom. They are free from pain, illness, suffering. Hold the good memories, cherish them, your baby will always be there.
I love the way Starry laid on your foot. One of my favorite memories is when we had both Oscar and Odin. I would buy bags of those rawhide strips and give each one. Oscar would wait until Odins head was turned and take his. He kept doing this, but at first I didn't see where they had gone. All I saw was Oscar happily chewing on one with Odin standing there looking at him. My son walked in and Oscar got up to go greet him and there they were. He was laying on a whole pile of chewies.
We have a little pet cemetery in the field, but because of the water level we buried Oscar and Odins remains at my daughters. Your plan to bury the toy and some of Starrys hair is good. My husband made a cross, but I also bought a bobble head yard ornement thats a dog and painted both their names on it.
I hope this site helps you the way it has helped me. You and Starry are in my thoughts Nina

I am sorry to hear about your loss...Starry's life was "shorter" than some, but she was greatly loved by you. Try to think of some happy memories. And, know you did the right thing and made her time here happy.

Thank you all.
I am glad you could share those thoughts with me.
I am hoping I can make some thing positive out of this maddness but for now I just want to look at her pictures and mourn. I think that's okay.
Thanks again everyone for reading about my starry.