Last night I went to the store to get some food for Oscar. It has to be super soft and no chunks because he has a hard time chewing. I was filling a small basket when my husband asked how many I was getting. I didn't get why he asked, and he reminded me I only needed enough until Tuesday. It hit me like a brick, on that morning I am taking my baby to be put to sleep.
His tumor is growing and his lower jaw almost looks dislocated. At times I think I will put it off because he seems fine. Then he starts drooling blood where he has bitten the tumor trying to eat. Which I will say he sure hasn't lost his appetite.
When I look at him this morning I feel totally selfish!! His little tounge hangs out the side, and he looks miserable lying there. I hope I didn't wait too long and made him suffer because of my own needs.
I was looking through my albums for pics, but back when he was younger I didn't have much of a camera.
It's so hard, and thats why I love this site. Everyone understands how it feels. Unlike others I do have strong family support too. I am sure not going to be alone in my grief, or the only one shedding tears. My husband is going in Monday to pre-pay and do what ever else so on Tues morning we don't have to do anything. Even my Mom who is not like my Dad and I when it comes to furbabies has been really sad and shedding tears for Oscar. Everyone loves him. Even my 2yr old grandson who doesn't understand keeps saying poor Oscar.
I know I will get through this, and that he will be in a happier place where he will be greeted by my Dad and will wait for me.

Your story abiout Oscar has touched my heart, as all of the stories here do. As usual, I'm reading through my tears for you and Oscar and your family. I remember all to well, going to the vet to buy Scooter's food, and only getting enough for what I thought would be at least two weeks. In our case, we only had 6 days, but those last few were so sad. I cried all the time, and all I could do was just give Scooter all my love as I had before, but I took so many pictures. I had made up an album of all my cats pictures, and discovered, that most of them were of Scooter. I don't know why that was. He wasn't sick at the time, but so many of them are of him. I'm gratefun of that now. What ever pictures of Oscar you have, will help you.
I am glad that you have your family's support around you. That will be a comfort to all of you, having each other. So many of us, find our only comfort here. And even your 2 year old grandson knows that somthing is going on.
These decisions we have to make, are so difficult , when to put our beloved pets to sleep. The decision is made out of extreme love for our pets. We do not want them to suffer.
I have read your other posts about Oscar, and you and your vet have done everything they can to try and keep the tumor away. Your love and care has gotten him this far, and your love will help him to make that journey to peace. I know it's hard. so so hard. You are doing what is best for Oscar.
I know that I, along with everyone else here, will be sending our thoughts and love to you, your family and Oscar . Give Oscar a little pet on the head for me, ok?
Please, let us know how you are, Everyone will be here when you need us.

Dear Nyna,
I feel so sad for you, but you have these last few days to give Oscar all the love & cuddles. So many of the people who post here have their furry friends taken from them so suddenly & without a chance to say good-bye. I know how hard it is to make the decision, when you so want them to stay with you. But the joy he brought you will live on & on in your heart. I hope that the grief will ease with time too.
I'll be thinking of you & Oscar.
Judith

Dear (((((((Nyna)))))))

My heart is breaking for you and your family.....and also, for your precious little Oscar .

I know that your dad will meet Oscar when he arrives in Heaven, and you will know that Oscar is okay......

You and Oscar have been in my thoughts and prayers -- I know the pain of losing someone you love sooooooooo much, but......where your precious Oscar is going, there is no more pain, no more sickness.....
He will be just as he was when he was feeling well---all of his hurt will be gone.....

God Bless You & Your family & God Bless Oscar .

Thinking of you all.

Love, Denise

I have tears in my eyes, reading about your beloved Oscar. All of us who have made that appointment know what you are going through - the hardest last days of a beautiful, shared, too-short lifetime.

You are in my thoughts.