On July 22 it was 6 months since Rocky died. I can't believe it has been that long already. I still miss him so terribly. I have Fluffy with me still but sometimes I think it makes it worse with her around. It's a daily reminder of him not being here since they were together since she was a year old (about). I find myself still bringing him up in conversation and just thinking about him in general. I feel so sad he's not around to see the changes done to the house. I hate the feeling that life is going on without him. He was such a part of my life that it seems like it's not right to experience things without him. I honestly still hate coming home to the house knowing he's not there. Or getting up in the morning and not having him as part of our routine.
I still have his basket in the living room with his ashes and favorite toys. I'm starting to think I need to put it away and finally get a proper box for his ashes. Some days I just feel lost.

Well, just needed to vent. Love you Rocky, as always

Love Mom.

It is so strange to hear you say... My husband and I are in the planning stage of building a new house and I just can't 'get into it'. Although it should be a very exciting thing, it is only a reminder that my Sasha will never get the chance to enjoy it with us....that reality of her absence is just too much sometimes. I hate the thought of leaving this house and moving on to a place that her paws have never touched, a place that holds no memories of her....the thought just leaves me cold. I hate the thought of life just moving right along without her...it's so unfair...
Kim

Kim,

Thanks for validating my feelings. I sometimes think I'm a little off kilter for feeling this way. I think as you say it makes it so obvious they are not there.
Really it's like a human. You fully expect them to be integrated into all aspects of your life. So when they're gone as you say, it leaves a gaping hole.

Argh. I wish it would stop hurting so darn much.
Now I'm sitting at my desk at work crying my eyes out. Must go.


Chris

Chris,
Just wanted to let you know you and Rocky are in my thoughts and prayers this evening.
Steve

I think one of the hardest ideas to accept during the transition period after death is that life must go on. You are not betraying Rocky when you continue to move on. Your feelings for Rocky and your memories of him validates the love you shared. That will never be lost in spite of changes in your life as time goes by.