Hi all,
I haven't posted here in a while. I still read the posts, but usually end up bawling and can't type.
July 5, 2005, my precious Dixie was hit and killed by a car as I watched helplessly.
As I posted a year ago, it all happened in a flash.
We had just moved into a new house, new neighborhood. We had only been here a few weeks when it happened. I was doing a simple task...taking out the trash. Dixie followed, as she always did. In the 7 years I had her, she never ran off or strayed. She was at my side every second ALWAYS. As fate would have it, a cat appeared out of nowhere and crossed our path. The cat ran into the street and narrowly missed being hit by oncoming cars ( I live on the corner of a 4 way stop in a busy residential area). Dixie couldn't resist the temptation and chased after the cat. I saw the SUV and I thought the driver saw Dixie and would stop. She didn't. As I yelled and jumped up and down, I saw Dixie get hit by the SUV. She immediately crumbled and lay in the street, panting, bleeding out of her mouth and from her paws.
I'm sorry, I can't do this. It is too hard. I have cried every day for the last year. I dreaded this day, July 5th, and here it is.
I am not much of a writer and find it very difficult to say exactly what I am feeling.
What I am feeling, one year later, is complete devastation, guilt, and emptiness. I can't type anymore, but I want my angel Dixie to know that I miss her so much and love her so much and pray to God often that he has her. If there is no Heaven for pets, then I am completely lost as to why God would give us animals to love, only to have them ripped away too soon. Dixie was a little under 8 years old, but acted like a 1 year old. GOD, I miss her and am so sorry that I didn't protect her. I don't know that I will ever recover.
Dana

I am so sorry you still have such fresh grief. A year is a long time to feel like you do. Remember Dixie loved you and wouldn't want you to still feel this way. I'm not saying you need to "move on", but torturing yourself isn't what she would want for you. It's not your fault she chased a cat or an SUV was driving down the road. Bad things happen for no real reason, but you can't let those things ruin your life. I think your guilty feelings are holding you back from healing.
You have no fault for what happened and you need to start healing. I am so sorry for what happened to Dixie and for what happened to you. No one should see their baby lying lifeless on the road. Maybe you should contact a professional who deals with post-traumatic stress problems. I imagine I would feel much like you if I saw what you saw.
Please try to heal for Dixie's sake. You will recover, and when your time comes, she will be waiting for you, I wholeheartedly believe that.

During her life, you did so much for Dixie. You loved her and took care of her and the terrible accident that took her life does not change that.

Now you need to do one more thing for her - you need to be happy.



Daisy's Mommy

Hi Dana!

It is my complete belief that there really is a Heaven, where our furkids go when they die. And, I truly & honestly KNOW that your sweet Dixie is with God!!

I believe that when our babies pass on, that they are carefully & lovingly placed into the arms of St. Francis. (I sometimes always say St. Christopher, but that's okay too).
After that, they are taken to Rainbow's Bridge. It's a beautiful, magical place where our babies are free to roam & play with one another -- without pain. They are healthy & whole once again, running through grassy meadows & chasing butterflies on their noses.
As my friend Kathy (LittleGirl'sMommy) says, they don't miss us at Rainbow's Bridge. When we are reunited with our kids, to them, it is like no time has passed at all!
It is here that they will stay until the time that it is our turn to go to Heaven, and there, our furkids will be waiting for us -- and, we will walk into Eternity forever, with them .

God Bless You and Yours at this difficult time!!

Love, Denise

p.s. I don't believe I've ever told you, but Dixie has one of the very sweet faces
that I have seen. She looks like she was such a good girl, and kind of shy..

Dana,

So sorry for your loss. My beloved Nugget was shot and killed on July 5th of this year. He did not die right away and I thought he had a chance, but could not hang on. He was only 5 years old. I, too, have those guiltly feelings that I should have been able to protect him. I always made sure the gate was locked and the fence had no holes in it. Then the stupid police come into my backyard and shoot my dog !! He was a pit, so I guess they thought he was a threat. Little did they know that Nugget was so sweet and friendly that he would not have hurt them.

I pray that you will find peace. Have you read any pet loss books? I found one that has helped. It is called "The Loss of a Pet". It talks about how you have to work through the grief in order to get to a place where it does not hurt so much.

Please know that your baby is at Rainbow Bridge. I have to believe that my baby is there, or I want to die. I want to believe that he is whole again and not in any pain. (He was shot twice). That is the only thing that is keeping me going.

Debbi