I am having a really difficult time coping with my sweet Boston's terrier's diagnosis and prognosis. She is just 6.5 years old and yesterday a CT scan confirmed a brain tumor. She is starting to lose her balance and have spells where she seems partially checked out.
Last night I was so grief-stricken that I was vomiting and had cold sweats. My body temperature dropped to 96 degrees and I thought I was going crazy. Today, I am a wreck. I keep having burts of crying and uncontrollable grief. Nothing helps. Is this normal? Has anyone else been through this?
I am a vet tech and I deal with this kind of thing every day. I should be stronger and more sensible about it.
I have only had Meg for a year and a half. She was an abused dog that I got from Boston terrier rescue. We have such a close bond I really feel like I am losing my child. Does anyone know what I can do to lessen this pain? I don't want her to feel worse with me crying all the time, but I just can't cope.
My husband is destroyed as well, and I am just a burden on him with my grief.
Any help would be greatly appreciated.
Thank you,
Emily

I am sorry that you have to go through this now. It is always really tough, especially when you feel as if you should have more time together.

Try to enjoy the time you have left together. I wish that I could have one more day with my little guy. I know that it is tough when you are in the middle of such a hard place to focus on love and not fear. Meg will know and probably appreciate the caring.

Good luck with this horrible situation. I, unfortunately, can certainly relate to all of your feelings at this moment in time.

I'm so sorry to read about your situation. Everyone deals with grief in their own way. There no such thing as normal since we all grieve differently.
I think why you may be reacting so strongly is that you do have such a strong bond, didn't really know it until you found out about her problem. Being a vet tech you deal with this stuff all the time, but it is different when it is your own.
All you can do it try to take some time for yourself to come to terms with the situation and be stong for your girl. The pain never lessens, only dulls with time. But know that you have given her a loving home and you are doing everything you can for her.

Take care and keep us posted.

Chris

I think it helps to realize that you are not alone. All of us on this site have suffered similar losses and understand the terrible grief and pain. It is wonderful that you rescued this dog and gave her more than a year of love! She would have had this tumor had you not rescued her, but she probably would have never had a happy loving home.

Think of your grief as the price that you must pay for saving and loving her. I try to think this every time I start to cry about my dog, who died on April 1 from liver disease. The price is terrible, but it is not too great. I would not have missed a minute of my time with my terrier, Daisy, and I am sure that you feel the same about your terrier.

Posting on this site also helps a lot.


Daisy's Mommy