I got Meiko's ashes today and I feel the newness of losing him all over again. I feel like I am going to go crazy. I know in my heart that he is gone but I can't accept it. It is just not fair. The realization has kicked in now that he isn't coming home from the vet, he is gone. How can I live without him? My heart is hurting so bad, I can think straight. I have cried oceans of tears, they just keep coming. When does the hurting stop? I see his beautiful face everywhere I go, I can hear his coos. I feel so empty inside, my life has changed forever! I just want to crawl in bed and never get out. I feel so alone.

Hi, I feel the same way. I took my cat to the vets yesterday and had to have her put to sleep. She was 16. It was horrible having to say goodbye. Yesterday I was in shock but today I am crying constantly. She was my best friend who always knew when I was upset and would fuss round me when I was down. I would have given anything to have spent an extra day with her but I knew the time had come. I have to think of all the happiness she has bought me, its hard to not cry but knowing I have given a cat a loving home brings me much comfort. I too have got to pick up the ashes soon, I will be buying a bush and planting it in the garden and spreading Elsa's ashes over it. I will never, ever forget Elsa. In time I would like another cat. For now though, I need to get over my beautiful Elsa. I hope the pain eases over time for you. I know exactly how you are feeling. We were so blessed to have these pets in our lives. My thoughts are with you.

I am so, so sorry.

I know how you feel and know how bleak everything looks from where you are now. I managed to turn such an incredible negative into a positive, but it was really hard. I still miss my soul kitty so much that it hurts, but I can and will go on loving him forever.

Always remember that the pain you now feel is a testament to the love that you had for Meiko. That is the truly wonderful part.

I wish you the best.

I know exactly how you feel. I cried so hard after I picked up Kurby's ashes that I could hardly drive home. I know you can't see it now but things will slowly get better. I felt better just knowing Kurby was finally home with me....
He isn't here in body but he is here in spirit. That's where he belongs.....

I feel the same also. But, I am glad that her ashes are here. I couldn't bear to think of her remains being anywhere else bout with the people who loved her,

Daisy's mommy