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Nanny
Hello All,

I stumbled across this site last night as I was looking for websites regarding wild cottontail bunnies. A week ago, my significant other brought home a little baby cottontail bunny found in a field by a warehouse. This bunny had obviously lost its mother, and the little baby bunny it was playing with got scooped up by a cat. Therefore, no other thoughts had come across my mind, other than to raise it and care for it. A similar situation had happened two years ago. This bunny was also found in a field having been attacked by a cat. It had a big scar on its side and part of one of his bunny ears chewed off, but he somehow survived this and is still with us today doing wonderfully. My s/o named the baby bunny who arrived last week "Buster," even though we were not able to determine its sex as of yet. I teach school and my vacation began the day he arrived home, so this was perfect timing for me to raise the baby, love it, care for it and play with it. He seemed to lose his fear when I held him. He began to drink his formula in plastic bottle caps, and would drink like crazy. When he began to eat carrots (and he was still smaller than a racquetball), I knew he would be ok. Everytime I would go near his cage to play with him or feed him, he would stand on his back legs and paw at his cage, looking happy to see me. I would supervise him as he hopped around on the bed, and though he did run so fast as to fall off a couple of times, he quickly got up and began running around on the floor until I caught him and put him back on the bed. Tuesday night, my world completely changed, and so did his. After I picked him up out of his cage, I tried to close the bedroom door, as there are two parakeets that I don't want the cats to get at. As I closed the door, the bunny decided to run up my arm and fell off onto the floor. This sound was the worst I ever heard in my life, and I very quickly picked him up off the floor, as he was laying pitifully on his side. As I tried to revive him, he ran up my arm and fell off again. I held him for two hours after this, hoping he was only in shock. He seemed to regain his strength and was trying his hardest to run either to the top of my shoulder and burrow under my hair, or to just hop somewhere. I tried to feed him some carrots thinking this would maybe calm him, but he didn't want to eat. Despite the pain and torture he had just gone through, he was still trying to fight for his life. A couple of hours later, he stopped breathing, and today I have the sad task of burying him. Because of his beautiful coat and cute little markings, I had considered taking him to a taxidermist, but figured he deserved to rest in peace. I am devastated that I, the one he was beginning to trust, am responsible for his death. He was in my life for only five days, but he brought so much happiness into the house, and I will never forget him or his demeanor. I will never get over the fact that I ended his life. Thank you for letting me take up your time as you read this.
eek
I am sorry about your baby bunny Buster. You said you were happy during your days with Buster, they are a special kind of bunny and you are lucky that you have done so well with the other Cottontail. I am not sure what I belive in spiritually. In feeling responsible for Mr. Cottontail's death, I have spent hours upon hours searching the internet for the answer of life after death, or what happens in death. I want to know what happened to my companion. It sounds silly, but it has helped me with grieving. It is reassuring to see that the majority of people of many different religious faiths, or even no set religious faith believe there is something beyond death. If there is more for a person, there must be something more for animals as well. Animals feel empathy, they know when you are sad. They feel guilt, sadness, happiness... I know what you are going through and I wish you well. (sorry it took me so long to post, I am still grieving alot right now, and havent really spoken much to anyone in the past few days. )
eek
I don't think it makes any difference here, if the animal that is lost is a ferret, a bunny, a dog or a cat, a rat.., each one can be special with his or her own personality. I want you to know that I wanted to reply right away, I just wasn't sure what I wanted to say would be right. I dont know about anyone else, but everything I started to post, came back to my own feelings of grief and I felt my response was missing empathy for what you were going through, but I guess that would have been better than not replying at all., Not sure about this forum, but I go to a forum for bunny advice on care, and the replies are slow on the weekends.
Steph
I'm so sorry to hear about the little one. You obviously cared for him a great deal, and it is wonderful that he was surrounded by so much love. What happened was an accident. You were trying to keep all of your babies safe. There was no way to know Buster would run up your arm.

I remember when my Luba was a pup I dropped her accidentally (she did a lightning fast movement with her body and I was unable to hold her) and her head hit the pavement. I just about went out of my mind with anxiety and guilt. It's 11 years later and I still remember exactly how it happened.

Hindsight is 20/20. Feel good about the fact that you helped him as best you could.
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