It's been 3 months since my beloved dog went to Heaven. Yesterday, I was doing spring cleaning when I found my black dog's hair all over an old blanket and in the closet and on a few other things. This brought on hysterical crying because lately I have been feeling like my dog really wasn't "real" and it was all a dream that I ever had him. But the hair was "proof" that he really WAS real and was here and did exist. Does anyone ever find things of their dogs later after they died and feel the same way? I cleaned up the dog hair, and as I did so, I felt like he was dying all over again and I was getting rid of him again. It's an awful feeling.

It has happened to me with my Max....she used to always sleep on two of my sweatshirts in my closet-I just stopped wearing them and let her keep using them as a bed. After she died, we buried her with one of them and I keep the other one still matted with her hair on the top shelf. I still can't look at it (it's been 7 months) because it makes me feel as bad as the day she died. Someday maybe I'll wash it!

I have come to the conclusion that it's perfectly fine to feel bad about losing a really special friend. I no longer fight it and I am sure that it helps to accept the unchangable.

Sidney's favorite place to sit was on top of the refrigerator, believe it or not, and i recently found an incredible amount of hair wedged between the fridge top and the cabinet above it. I left the hair there. When I now look at the hair it actually makes me happy, and I remember his goofball antics up there. He was such a funny cat.

Though he is sorely missed, the grief that I now feel is such a small price to pay for all of those wonderful years. I never knew that a cat could be so amazing.

Oh, I feel your pain - its amazing how some of the time we are able to function and go with daily activities, all the while repressing the reality that our much loved companion is gone. I very much understand how finding BooBoo's hair would make you start crying.

If you look at the hardwood floor at my front door just the right way, you can see two paw prints that Jake left behind. My baby boy has been gone now since March 11th, and I faithfully wipe and clean around those prints, but I will never wipe them away. I guess over time they will fade and go away, but for now I look at them every day!

I know exactly how you feel!! For months after Sasha died I would empty the vaccuum cleaner canister out on the garage floor and pick all of her hair out of it so I could keep it..I couldn't stand the thought of throwing it away! After it became obvious that there wasn't any more hair being sucked up, I was able to stop that rediculous obsession. There have been other times, like when we had the carpet cleaned for the first time after she died and had to move all the furniture. There was hair behind some of the furniture...I'm sure those poor cleaning guys thought I was a mental patient!! Then, not long ago, we bought a larger fish aquarium. When we moved out the old one to put the new one in, there was all kinds of hair behind it!! There was no way to get behind that sucker without moving it, so there was quite a lot of hair there for me to wallow in. My husband said "GROSS! look at all that hair!" (he is as bad as I am when it comes to cleanliness) and I yelled "IT"S NOT GROSS--IT"S MY BABY"S HAIR AND IT"S BEAUTIFUL!!!" as I lay on the floor trying to clutch it in my hands....COO-COO-COO-COO . That is actually one thing that my hubby laughs at me for that I can now actually laugh with him...I bet it was quite a site to watch...he was probably thinking "this is it, she has finally lost it, time to call the home".
I still have all that hair. I put it into a little box and placed it in her urn by her ashes.....
your friend in grief,
Kim

I just lost my cat over Mother's Day weekend. This is my first posting. I cry all of the time because I just can't let go. I understand the hair thing. I looked everywhere for his hair just because it was apart of him and I want to hold on to as much as I can. I vet sent me clippings of his hair and I just cryed my eyes out feeling it and remembering that it wasn't too long ago that he was sitting in my lap or following me to the bathroom for me to turn on the water for him. It has been 12 days now and I do not feel like it is getting any easier. My other cat is grieving just as much as I am, I feel so sad for her loss too.

Oh yes, can completely relate as I cannot throw out any clumps of fur that I find that belonged to my Rocky. They go into a box. I kept the pillow case he laid on until the day before he died. I folded it up and put it in a drawer. I refuse to wash it and periodically pull it out and look at it. Has his fur and bits of litter on it (he was messy ).
He also loved to jump up the door jam in my office. It has long scratch marks where he would jump up then slide down the jam. I refuse to fix it or replace it.
Rocky has been gone 4 months May 22 and don't think I'll ever remove that jam. It's all just something that keeps you connected to your loved one. Heck, I still have his basket in the family room with his ashes and favorite toys in it. I can't bear to think of moving it yet.

I still have Jake's blanket that has his fur on it--it is in a box, but, I do take it out and look at it...I will never get rid of it. I also have some of his favorite toys, his dishes, and any fur that I could find--I know exactly how you feel.

Our furkids are so special....

Sandi

I'm glad to know I'm not the only one.

A couple of weeks ago i spotted a whisker on the floor, and I cherish it.

BooBoo's Mom, my wife was trying to find something in our linen closet last night and came across our sweet Bella's sweater and a hat (she hated it) that had been forgotten.

We both cried a little and I must admit, it brought back some good memories...and some bad ones too. I guess we have to have a bit of the bad to make the good ones even sweeter.

It has been over 7 months since we let her go, it gets better, can't say how or when. It does get better...and they never leave your heart or memories.

They live on forever inside you. I never understood that until Bella was gone.





P.S. It still feels like a dream that she is gone and will be back soon. I cannot shake that emotion.