I went to an online pet loss support meeting. And I talked about how I was feeling. They were very nice and supportive but I only felt that it helped me cope on the surface. To go to work and do daily things etc.
I have three other cats. That I have had longer than my cat who passed one month ago. He was just so special and a comedian. At the same time he would go out and protrol our yard and chase any unwelcomed visitors away. I don't feel as safe.
I had to go pay my Insurance bill at the AAA office here in town. Everyone was so happy talking about travel plans. I just thought I must have brought the whole place down. I don't even want to be around people anymore. My family can't relate to me. All I have are my pets while they have children grandchildren etc.
Maybe it is time for me to start ****** again. I was in a very abusive marriage and don't seem to trust having a relationship. Maybe it is time.
Peewee taught me to live life everyday. He was the first one up and outside living. He would moan for me to get out of bed and sometimes when I got up to let him out I went back to bed. I think I will start ****** again and making new friends. I feel abit better. Not so down as I was feeling.