I am so grief striken that it is hard to put into words. We all love our animals very much but every once in a while that SPECIAL animal comes into our lives - the one that connects with us on a different level, the magical ones like a soul mate - that was my Scooty. Whenever anything bad happened I could take her in my lap and all would be OK.

She was my very, very special kitty. She was my constant companion for 14 years and followed me everywhere. She was always by my side. And now she has unexpectedly gone.

She had Hyperthyroidisim and I elected to have her treated with radioactive iodine - she went through multiple tests and all looked great and she was given to OK to get the treatment. I drove her way up to Santa Cruz as there are only a few locations in California that do this procedure - it is a 3 hour drive each way and she had to stay at the hospital for a week - I picked her up this Monday and everything was great - I was told she was going to be fine as the treatment has no side effects and has a 95% cure rate. She needed to be isolated for a few weeks and I could only be with her for a half hour a day because she was still radioactive. So I would go in a pick her up and comfort her for 5 minutes every hour or so. My wife was visiting with me (we are separated) and we went in to pat her and keep her company and then we went to supper and when we came back in an hour she was lying in a pool of water and blood and was dead.

It was so shocking because I had told Scooty that all the tests and the procedures and driving had been worth it because she was going to be OK and she was going to have a great quality of life for the remainder of her years and then she died a few hours later. Completely unexpected and no one knows why - none of the doctors or specialists who saw her can give me an answer. I had to buy a cooler and ice to put her little body in because she can't be cremated for 3 months because of the procedure. I am left with my precious kitty lying in a cooler in my room while I wait for the vets office to send someone way down here from Santa Cruz.

I am devastated and I am lonely and I am so, so sad. My beautiful, sweet and gentle Scooty did not deserve this kind of ending.

She was an amazing cat - she was the light of my life and the calming force.

My heart aches.

I will always remember her - but I just don't have enough tears to cry for her.

I just don't have enough tears.

Rest in peace my dear sweet girl - I miss you so, so much. I love you and I will always love you.

Scotty's mom

My heart aches for you and Scotty and I can't find the right words to tell you to make you feel better or to ease the pain a little bit. I am still in the process of grieving over my baby's leaving April 7 and the pain is still tremendous. I am getting better, slowly recovering from depression. I was a mess because I just don't want to continue living anymore. But coming back in this web site for comfort, talking about my pain to friends who understand this level of love, and with professional and med's help, I am sure now that I can go on.

Hang in there and just write all about your feelings in this site. We all understand your pain because we love your fur babies the same level as you and Scotty. Rest be assured also that Scotty is not hurting anymore. Take care my friend.

LuckyNono's mom

ps - Scotty is sooooooooo beaaauuuutiful!

Scooty really is beautiful. She looks so much like our cat Beau they could almost be siblings. I am very sorry for your loss. It's never easy to lose a loved one but when it happens unexpectedly it just seems so much worse. May your journey through the grieving process be a quick one. All of us here are traveling somewhere on that same road so we all have a good idea of your feelings at this time. Be kind to yourself and take solace in the fact that Scooty is at peace and not suffering. Rainbow Bridge gained a very special angel cat who will be waiting for you while she is playing with all of our furkids.

Here is a photo of Beau, one of our adopted cats.

Boy do I know what you are going through. My Sidney was the best.

I'm sorry that anyone has to go through this but I just keep telling myself how fortunate I was to have him at all. It helps me a bit.

Good luck.

What a beautiful cat! I am so sorry for your loss. I really understand how you feel, having suffered a similar loss myself. My Yorkie had just come home after being at the hospital for treatment. The vet was very optimistic, although the odds were not as good as yours were supposed to be. The next morning, she went into a terrible seizure, and could not be saved. She died on April 1 of this year, 19 days before her 12th birthday.

I'm glad that you found this site. It has been very helpful to me and many other people. Everyone here understands the grief you feel. Everyone here has felt similar pain.

Nothing makes it better. Time does not heal, at least for me - but sharing feelings does help.


Again, I am very sorry for your loss.

Daisy's Mommy