Hi! I've never used a chat room before so I hope I'm doing this right....
A few nights ago I came across this site while looking for an online pet loss support group. There were several to choose from so I decided to start with this one. I found this site so comforting I haven't even tried the others. What I forgot to do tho was write down the name or topic title to a particular message that really touched & comforted me & I don't know how to find it again..... so if you recognize the posting please respond. I don't have a computer at home, I'm using my work computer after hours.
A Bible verse from the Old Testement was given on a posting that gave me some peace about whether I might see my dearly loved & missed best friend, Jaz'min. The Bible verse is Job 12:10 which says in essense: ALL living things have souls & are in God's hands! ( I don't have my Bible in front of me for the exact quote). What a God-send that was for me! Whoever posted that verse I want to say THANK YOU! *** I had to say Good-bye to my precious cat Jazz'y this past Sat April 29th 2006. She was 18. Late last Feb she was diagnosed with soft tissue mouth cancer. When the vet said there was no cure I was shocked! I expected to lose Jaz' to old age since she had been healthy most of her life. And now in her old, but young at heart, age she gets cancer! When the vet told me she only had about a month to live ( the cancer wouldn't kill her, she wouldn't be able to eat) I quit my part-time job so I could spend more time with her. She was a beautiful calico with medium length hair & an easy going funny personality & a little chubby ( from being "spoiled" out of guilt because I worked 2 jobs). I adored her. She talked a lot, too. Always had something to say especially when I was on the phone trying to gab with a friend or family member. And she always took my spot on the sofa whenever I got up to do something. Most of the time I sat somewhere else. After all she did rule the house! We had a rich life together but still I wasn't prepared to say "Good-bye" even after the diagnosis. But I have to tell you God is so Good! He answered my prayers to let her live to celebrate her 18th birthday comfortably. She turned 18 on April 16th & I had to say "Good-bye" to her on April 29th. She went down hill pretty fast. I had to euthanize her. That was the hardest thing I have ever had to do. I chose not to be in the room with her at the time & now I regret that decision. I waited so long to finally make up my mind whether or not to be with her for her last moments that she ended up so stressed out the vet had to take her out of the room to give her a tranquilizer & then give her the final injection. He wouldn't let me go with her then. I didn't want her still body to be my last memory of her so now my last memory is seeing her frightened little face as the vet took her away. I've been feeling so guilty; I feel like I let her down. I miss her sooooooooo much; there's a hole in my heart. If it weren't for this site & the Job 12:10 Bible verse & my faith & trust in Christ I wouldn't be able to function at this time. It's harder to talk to someone in person than it has been here. I decided not to go to a pet loss support group because I thought it would be too hard to deal with. I feel more comfortable talking to you here. Thanks for listening, Jaz'min's mom, Carol

Carol,

I am very sorry for your loss. It seems your furbaby had a long and wonderful life with you. You have come to the right place. This is a wonderful site and we all are here for one reason: We have lost the most precious things in our lives....our furbabies. We are here for each other. Together, we will get through this....one day at a time.

Kurbysma

Hi Carol,

I just want to say that I appreciated your recent posting as I, too, am grieving the loss of our beloved Maine Coon cat, Kosckha, who departed for kitty heaven on April 30th at midnight. He was a member of our family for 14 years (I chose him from the local shelter when he was 4-5), so he was 18-19 and the first pet I have ever had to euthanize (also my longest lived pet). It was so incredibly hard and feels like it even keeps getting harder and harder each day; I can barely look at the places he slept; memories of him are everywere in my house, so this is my first time as well visiting a chat room and making my own reply posting. I just know I need to connect with others who really understand pet loss as it feels so lonely in my house now. Koschka was always here, no matter what. I hope on some spirit level he still is with us. He was always fine and remarkably healthy until @ 2 weeks ago when he started to decline dramatically. I delayed the inevitable trip to the ER Vet (partly because my 3 young daughters loved him so) until late Sunday night as I couldn't bear to say goodbye. But, he was clearly in pain and now I am wracked with guilt that he might have suffered unduly because I couldn't deal with my painful feelings around his impending death. How can we ask/expect our pets to forgive us for unknowingly testing their brave, patient, stalwart endurance? The vet says he probably had kidney disease, which shocks me as there were no signs of illness til @ 2 weeks ago, but we'll never know for sure as he was also clearly diminished from old age. If he did suffer, I will never forgive myself. I pray for him every day and appreciate this opportunity to write about him. I think it helps.

Thank you for bringing your heart and loving pet memory to this space.

Vx

If you can remember a particular word thats not mentioned too often you could try the search engine at the top of the page next to the heading.

I tried putting in Bible but it didnt come up, but i think i know the one you mean.

Love Sue

Job 12:10 KJV In whose hand is the soul of every living thing, and the breath of all mankind. I may have posted that reference (not sure) I was very depressed over losing Digger and I too am a christian and there was no comfort in that because I wasn't sure if Dig would be in heaven at least not UNTIL I found the website that quoted Job 12:10. As that has been the argument of so many that dogs do not have souls. WELL - God led me to this website and he brought me peace through his word. I will be with Digger again. I now know that he is in heaven with Aladdin (my rottie) waiting for me.

You see I had lost Aladdin to lymphoma on February 18, 2005 - he was 7 years old. I asked God why! The answer was "It is a prelude to Digger" I couldn't comprehend losing Digger. Exactly one year later to the day - I lost Digger to lymphoma. Why I don't know. But Job 12:10 has comforted me. We don't know why things happen the way they do - it just happens but God is all wise and he has sent me Chip, another little corgi with alot of Dig's ways that brings me alot of comfort. I still don't talk about Dig much because I cry but I will heal and until then I cling to Chip and my faith. By the way, all you have to do it look into their eyes and you can see their soul. God says some people are blinded

May God Bless you and help you all in your time of mourning.

Bonnie - Still missing Digger

Carol

I have never used a forum either and I too have recently (this Tuesday past) lost my 5 year old cat, Kitty. He was run over by a car trying to get home and I didn't even realise he was missing, I just thought he was off playing somewhere - then I drove along the road where he was killed and found him. It was horrible, I can't get the last image of him out of my head. I have just read Job 12:10 and right now it only offers little comfort to me, I guess I am still in the anger stage, blaming Christ for taking my baby off me and asking if my husband is next (not to die the same way). Why would He let me see my little one like that if He wasnt' trying to prepare me for something worse?? I try to focus on the memory I have from 2 days earlier, Kitty lying in the sun on a Sunday afternoon, watching the world go by. I should have gone and patted him and given him so much more time, we have been away alot these last few weeks and he was here all lonely and not being patted and loved. I miss him so much, my heart feels ripped out. We are getting to 7 week old babies next week - I really feel it will help me move on, not replace him in any way, I realise they will be completely different, but I can concentrate on giving my love to them instead of feeling miserable. Kitty wouldn't want me to be sad.

I have him buried in the back yard so I go and talk to him morning and night, please help me get over the this pain.

God doesn't cause bad things to happen. But he will be with you and help you during your time of grief. All you have to do is ask. Remember the verse, ask and you shall receive or I shall not forsake you and I will be with you always. You will get through this time - I know it is hard and sometimes we ask why things have to happen the way they do - we have to accept it as God's will. Through God all things are possible. I have received so much comfort from Job 12:10 - We have God's promise that we will see our fur babies again.