The weather is so wonderful now….you would just love lying out in the back yard, basking in the sun. My sweet boy, how I miss you! It amazes me still how the pain just tears through me. The tears I shed every day don't come as a surprise anymore....they are so common and part of me now. I feel like I left you on your own to die. I know, I was there, holding your sweet, tired, and worn out body as you passed, but I still feel like I should have had some way to take this on with you. I guess the journey you took is one all of us have to take alone, no matter how loved we are. I still wonder, though, what you found at the end of that journey. Was it the “rainbow bridge”? Was it something wonderful, peaceful and ever-lasting……or was it “lights out”. Another thing that amazes me is how unreal this all seems. It is so difficult to deal with the fact that you are no longer here. Even writing that sentence makes me want to pick it apart. What does that mean? “You are no longer here”. Oh my god, you will ALWAYS be here, if only in spirit. Baby Jake, I miss you so much!

Love you always, your Mom.

This post has left me tearfully speechless......how it mirrors my own own thoughts and deep pain...

((((Kim)))) - I know you've been with me from the second I got onto this wonderful forum! I am so sorry for your pain. I can't make it go away anymore than I can make my own pain disappear. But, together, maybe we can get through this in one piece.

Sending some major ((((HUGS)))) your way!

Jake's Mom

I feel the same way. It all seems unreal and I can't believe that my beloved dog is not here anymore. I sometimes wonder what it would be like if I woke up and it was all a dream and he was here again and life was normal again.

It is definitely like a nightmare that just won't end....I would love to just wake up! I am very devoted to Jesus Christ, and I have to believe that my baby is in his beautiful eternal kingdom waiting for me, but I am only human, and I do have those thoughts every now and then of "what if it was just 'lights out'". The very thought makes me feel literally ill. She has to go on...her soul was much too precious to just cease to exist, and I have to see here again...that is the only thing that keeps me going right now. Heaven without her with me would be nothing short of hell, surely God wouldn't keep us from those we love so dearly. I pray that she is in the company of all the other precious furbabies that she loved so dearly, especially those who never knew love while they were here on earth...she loved all animals, but she seemed to be especially tender with those that she knew needed extra TLC...she was such a special girl. God what I would give to have her back...I miss her so much...
Kim

This is one of my favorite pics of her when we first got her 'little sister', Zada...she instantly took her under her 'paw' and from that day forward they were inseperable...at least until Sasha died...Zada hasn't been the same dog since....

I am a Christian too and I firmly believe we will see our beloved pets again. Our Heavenly Father cares about animals too and knows how much we loved them and want to see them again.