I am able to cope with the loss of my best friend, Daisy, better during the day. Each night when it is time for bed, I feel so bad that I cannot sleep. All these memories rush my mind -

Beautiful ones of her greeting me when I came home, sleeping next to my head, the first time I saw her, her playing as a puppy, and then the horrible ones follow --her death - the quick decline at the end(liver disease), the last attempts at treatment, her return from the hospital for one last night at home; and in the morning - the final terrible seizure and cries - getting worse and worse as I rushed her back to the animal hospital and held her in my arms as the Vet did the only thing left to do. Her lifeless body, my baby gone forever - knowing I will never see her on earth again.

These thoughts invade my mind and I cry and I cannot sleep. I am exhausted. Does anyone have any suggestions on how to cope with night time grief.


Daisy's Mommy

I absolutely understand, feel and share your pain. I am haunted by exactly the same thoughts/visions as you. My baby left me April 6th so 11 days ago. I usually cry for an hour or more, but I have found the only way I can sleep is to hold Crystal's favorite toy. I find that I clutch it all night. If it falls out of my arms, I wake up immediately and hold it again while I go to sleep. Night time is the hardest! I have been told that most take sedatives for a while, but I just can't do that either. Maybe just a Tylenol. Hopefully time will allow us more of the happy memories.

I am sorry for your loss and I feel your pain. My kitty died from a growth on her liver which caused renal failure and it was also quick.

Last evening I went down to the basement where she spent a lot of time and cried pretty hard and did a little bit of yelling. I think this helped me last night. By the time I went to bed I was pretty spent from my basement episode. I don't know what will work best for you. I've also been bringing one of my other cats to bed with me. Occassionally through the night I feel for him with my foot. I think that probably helps me too.

It's hard. I am on day 4 (she died very early in the morning on April 15), 3 nights without her, and it is still a nightmare. I can't enjoy anything, working is hard. I am having trouble sleeping too (I didn't sleep at all the first night and only a little on the second) and it's at that time that I really think about her a lot. I hope you find something that works a little for you.

We are all going through the same horrible episodes. I myself still cling to my baby's favorite bed and blankie. It gives me comfort and somehow, makes me feel asleep. I guess these all bring comfort to me. I am so sorry that we are all going through this most horrible episodes in our lives.

Your friend in grief,
LuckyNono's mom