
I am so sorry for your loss !
Please try not to feel guilty. Sidney was probably having a blast playing, when his time came. You gave him a good life---even though it was short. The time with you, I'm sure, was the best time of his life.

He's in bliss now, too---his spirit is in the realm where there's no sense of physical or emotional pain, no sense of separation from you. To him, it will seem like no time at all has passed ---and there you'll be, joining him (when it's your time).
Take all the comfort you need in this site. It's impossible to go through alone. And a lot of people (in our everyday lives) just don't begin to understand.
I am glad you have the other 3. You and they can comfort each other.
Keep us posted.
Love.,
Kathy