I just lost my baby today and it hurts so much. Although she's old and had heart disease, I was not just ready for her to go. Her name is Lucky but I call her dearly sometimes LuLu, Nono, Princess Noki, or Loki. She is a prissy little Pom. I got her from a rescue house because she had been passed from foster house to foster house several times. I only had her 3 years but I loved her so much that my heart hurts so bad. The pain is so grave that I would rather have my heart physically extricated than feel this agony and pain.
April 7 was when my little angel LuckyNono went to the Rainbow Bridge. She's such a sweet little and flamboyant gir.
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I'm so sorry for your loss...my Grandma and uncle adopted a Pom not too long ago.
You came to the right place. I noticed that you replied to my post - I'm in no shape at this moment to say everything you NEED to hear, but go back to mine and read the replies again....I would tell you the same thing...
Take care of you!
You came to the right place. I noticed that you replied to my post - I'm in no shape at this moment to say everything you NEED to hear, but go back to mine and read the replies again....I would tell you the same thing...
Take care of you!
I am so sorry!!! 
Lulu is definitely LUCKY to have been adopted by you. Those three years, I am sure, were the best of her life.
She got to know real love thanks to you.
How wonderful of you to rescue an older dog who had been through so much.
Right now she is experiencing only bliss, because her little spirit is in the realm where there's no physical or emotional suffering. And you'll be fully reunited with her, when it is your time to pass. In the meantime, you have more life to live in this physical body, and she is fine. (And who knows, possibly one day you'll even be able to rescue another animal who needs you, in Lulu's honor )
Take good care of yourself, and do all the things you need to do. This is a hard time, but it will get easier. Please keep us posted on how you're doing.
Love,
Kathy
Lulu is definitely LUCKY to have been adopted by you. Those three years, I am sure, were the best of her life.
She got to know real love thanks to you. How wonderful of you to rescue an older dog who had been through so much.
Right now she is experiencing only bliss, because her little spirit is in the realm where there's no physical or emotional suffering. And you'll be fully reunited with her, when it is your time to pass. In the meantime, you have more life to live in this physical body, and she is fine. (And who knows, possibly one day you'll even be able to rescue another animal who needs you, in Lulu's honor
)Take good care of yourself, and do all the things you need to do. This is a hard time,
but it will get easier. Please keep us posted on how you're doing.Love,
Kathy
as i read the posts on this website, i always wished that i could reply to everyone that i have read but often feel at the lost of words. i feel your pain, and just as littlegirl'smommy said, it was very kind of you to have adopted lulunono and gave her good three years. i also think that may be you can adopt another one in honor of your little baby. just remember that you are not alone and you've came to the right website.
littlegirl'smommy, you seem to know just what to say. i hope you are dealing with your loss alright. i also had a little girl whom i loved so much. i missed her dearly. i found her on the street ten years ago. she was a gift meant to come into my life and changed it. i love animals so much now and have become and animal right's activist.
littlegirl'smommy, you seem to know just what to say. i hope you are dealing with your loss alright. i also had a little girl whom i loved so much. i missed her dearly. i found her on the street ten years ago. she was a gift meant to come into my life and changed it. i love animals so much now and have become and animal right's activist.
A note to JJ's Mom---I loved hearing that you're an animal rights activist. I am too! 
Thank you everyone but the hurt is so bad that I just want to be with my baby LuckyNono.
I am actually LuckyNono's mom.
I am actually LuckyNono's mom.
Last night, I heard my baby barked, scratched the carpet, coughed, and flapped her head. It felt so real that my other dog Ferguson reacted too. I am a little bit okay now, but it seems that my body is still resisting any food intake. Does it really hurt this bad?
I know I feel like I am just blubbering but I am just trying to get things out my chest. My God, it hurts!
I know I feel like I am just blubbering but I am just trying to get things out my chest. My God, it hurts!
I too cannot find the words to respond to all the posts because I read the pain in so many. But YES it does hurt this much!!!! From losing Tillie I see the same pain I had in people here over and over and I am very sorry you are going through this. It has been almost 12 weeks since Tillie left and the pain is different but still present I read many posts here even years later they hurt but a tolerable hurt. I wait for those days to come.
Now as for eating I lost almost 12 pounds in about 2 weeks after Tillie died not on purpose I could not eat and then I became very sick after a couple weeks so PLEASE force yourself to eat something or drink a power drink something because when you are not feeling well it makes the pain in your heart even worse I think. Again I am sorry for your loss and yes we understand that horrid feeling inside of you right now.
Tillies mom
Now as for eating I lost almost 12 pounds in about 2 weeks after Tillie died not on purpose I could not eat and then I became very sick after a couple weeks so PLEASE force yourself to eat something or drink a power drink something because when you are not feeling well it makes the pain in your heart even worse I think. Again I am sorry for your loss and yes we understand that horrid feeling inside of you right now.
Tillies mom
Thank you Tilly's mom, Crystal's mom, Livia8, LittleGirl'sMommy, and JJ'sMom, it is somehow a comfort that I am not alone feeling this worst pain! Thank you for your comforting and kind words. They meant a lot! I will try to exist, but I may not experience living for a while.
To my sweet little baby girl,
It had been 3 days since I last saw you and went to sleep. I can feel your presence, when you shove your cold and wet nose in my arms or feet. Oh I long to hold you my sweet baby girl. I miss you so much! Stay with Mommy for a little while baby girl, she wants to come with you!
It had been 3 days since I last saw you and went to sleep. I can feel your presence, when you shove your cold and wet nose in my arms or feet. Oh I long to hold you my sweet baby girl. I miss you so much! Stay with Mommy for a little while baby girl, she wants to come with you!
I am so sorry for your loss. I felt the same thing when my beloved 14 year old dog died. I can only say that it DOES get better over time. We have to accept that death happens to all of us--animal and human. It is the natural course of things and we have to accept that. It is the cycle of life. We may not like it, but it's the reality of things. Your dog would not want you to be so unhappy, I am sure. I think I would try to distract myself from the very depressing thoughts and maybe consider grief counseling. They should have a pet loss support group in your area. Check with your humane society. They are usually free and would help you a lot, I think.
This is a tribute to my sweet little baby girl, Lucky!
http://www.in-memory-of-pets.com/personalt...te.php?ID=58499
Writing this tribute helped me a lot. You may want to do something like this to help with the pain!
http://www.in-memory-of-pets.com/personalc...es.php?ID=58522
http://www.in-memory-of-pets.com/personalt...te.php?ID=58499
Writing this tribute helped me a lot. You may want to do something like this to help with the pain!
http://www.in-memory-of-pets.com/personalc...es.php?ID=58522
LuckyNoNo's Mom,
I know how badly you hurt, it has been six weeks since I lost my Torie Girl, Simple and have gone thru so many different cycles of grief. She like your Baby past away from heart failure, and she also had kidney failure, she was 18.
I wanted to tell you how special you are for having adopted little NoNo and giving her a wonderful three years. Wherever she is tonight, I know she is trying to surround you with her love.
But you have to eat and take care of yourself, because letting yourself become ill is something that your Little Girl would not want, afterall, who did she love the most, and who would she never want to see suffer?
Please remember that you will never lose her, and that even though you are far apart, you are actually as close as always, because a piece of her soul lives on within your heart. You will see her again when you time comes to passover, just as we will all see all our FurKids agin somewhere in time.
But please do not close your heart to the possibility of adopting another Baby, because that is something that would be a wonderful tribute to NoNo's life, and to the fact that she taught you how deeply we humans can bond with our animal counterparts.
I just took in a beautiful FurBoy angora, that no one wanted because he has a heart condition, and could live for years, or go anytime ( he is four ), but when I got my Simple, she was a sick little kitten, and whether I had her a week, or the 18 wonderful years we had together, she taught my that the love of an animal is worth the pain felt when we have to part until we meet on the otherside.
So for now know that we all hold you and your Girl in our hearts, and hope that someday we will all feel our pain lessen to that dull ache that never really leaves, but makes it a little easier to go on.
I'll say a little prayer for you and NoNo and keep posting, it really helps, because all of us who post here understand.
Your friend in grief,
Cindi
I know how badly you hurt, it has been six weeks since I lost my Torie Girl, Simple and have gone thru so many different cycles of grief. She like your Baby past away from heart failure, and she also had kidney failure, she was 18.
I wanted to tell you how special you are for having adopted little NoNo and giving her a wonderful three years. Wherever she is tonight, I know she is trying to surround you with her love.
But you have to eat and take care of yourself, because letting yourself become ill is something that your Little Girl would not want, afterall, who did she love the most, and who would she never want to see suffer?
Please remember that you will never lose her, and that even though you are far apart, you are actually as close as always, because a piece of her soul lives on within your heart. You will see her again when you time comes to passover, just as we will all see all our FurKids agin somewhere in time.
But please do not close your heart to the possibility of adopting another Baby, because that is something that would be a wonderful tribute to NoNo's life, and to the fact that she taught you how deeply we humans can bond with our animal counterparts.
I just took in a beautiful FurBoy angora, that no one wanted because he has a heart condition, and could live for years, or go anytime ( he is four ), but when I got my Simple, she was a sick little kitten, and whether I had her a week, or the 18 wonderful years we had together, she taught my that the love of an animal is worth the pain felt when we have to part until we meet on the otherside.
So for now know that we all hold you and your Girl in our hearts, and hope that someday we will all feel our pain lessen to that dull ache that never really leaves, but makes it a little easier to go on.
I'll say a little prayer for you and NoNo and keep posting, it really helps, because all of us who post here understand.
Your friend in grief,
Cindi
my precious little Lucky,
I went out to work this morning. I keep looking at your seat beside me in the car still seeing you looking out the window with your nose pointing up. I had to go home early because I realized there was no point staying in the office. I still cannot think clearly more so do my work! Oh my little one, I need you back! Will you please ask God to bring you back to me? I will give up everything just to be with you again. Loving you so much until ETERNITY!!!
I went out to work this morning. I keep looking at your seat beside me in the car still seeing you looking out the window with your nose pointing up. I had to go home early because I realized there was no point staying in the office. I still cannot think clearly more so do my work! Oh my little one, I need you back! Will you please ask God to bring you back to me? I will give up everything just to be with you again. Loving you so much until ETERNITY!!!
My precious little princess,
It has been 5 days since you leapt to the Rainbow Bridge. I hope you are having a good time up there! You can probably tell sweetheart that I am still hurting. Don't worry I guess this is just a human thing. A lot of people in this site are helping me with their love, sympathies, and writings. Your big brother Ferguson is helping me cope while you are away. I am missing you so much sweetie, but until then, remember to be a good girl for Mama who loves you so very much! I love you Lulu!
It has been 5 days since you leapt to the Rainbow Bridge. I hope you are having a good time up there! You can probably tell sweetheart that I am still hurting. Don't worry I guess this is just a human thing. A lot of people in this site are helping me with their love, sympathies, and writings. Your big brother Ferguson is helping me cope while you are away. I am missing you so much sweetie, but until then, remember to be a good girl for Mama who loves you so very much! I love you Lulu!
Sweetheart, I got your pictures today. Of course, tears came running down again. I am still missing you and the pain is still the same. I will try to go on but not without you, little girl! I know humans who love their babies like I love you are saying that time will make it easier. It may or may not, but my love for you will never change. Until then sweetheart!
Lulu, it has been a week since you went to the Rainbow Bridge. I still clung to your favorite bed and blankie. Remember that embracing you so close to my heart put me to sleep? Well that's how I've been able to sleep. Thank you for caring for me sweetheart. Loving so much and ever.
Thank you also for giving me peace in my heart and letting me know that everything is now better with you. Till we see each other my sweet little baby!
Thank you also for giving me peace in my heart and letting me know that everything is now better with you. Till we see each other my sweet little baby!
My sweet little baby princess,
It has been 8 days. Although I am not crying 24/7 anymore, I still cry and call out your name at night. I still could not sleep without me clinging to your blankie. Looking forward to seeing you again, my little angel!
It has been 8 days. Although I am not crying 24/7 anymore, I still cry and call out your name at night. I still could not sleep without me clinging to your blankie. Looking forward to seeing you again, my little angel!
My sweet little angel,
I just you to know that although I can't see you, I can sense you near me. Feeling your presence gave me new hope and lease in life. Somehow, knowing that you are okay and happy is enough reason for me to aim to keep on living. I would not be without you and you will not be without me. We have that great bond and love that defies rational and human understanding. Till then, sleep tight my angel!
I just you to know that although I can't see you, I can sense you near me. Feeling your presence gave me new hope and lease in life. Somehow, knowing that you are okay and happy is enough reason for me to aim to keep on living. I would not be without you and you will not be without me. We have that great bond and love that defies rational and human understanding. Till then, sleep tight my angel!
LuckNono,
Thank you for your message regarding Bo. He was very special as was Lucky. Words of encouargement and understanding from cyber friends do help. I wish I had some magic words to help you feel better, but regrettably theres nothing I can say. Bo will always be loved as long as I am alive. Stay well, time will help but we will never forget them, and thats the way it should be.
Darrell
Thank you for your message regarding Bo. He was very special as was Lucky. Words of encouargement and understanding from cyber friends do help. I wish I had some magic words to help you feel better, but regrettably theres nothing I can say. Bo will always be loved as long as I am alive. Stay well, time will help but we will never forget them, and thats the way it should be.
Darrell
I just wanted to say that yes it does hurt this bad. I can't eat either. Sleeping is hard and I have bags under my eyes. My husband thought he heard her meowing Sat. night. I woke up because he had all the outside lights on at 3:15 in the morning looking for a cat that he heard. It was heartwrenching to watch and I felt a hole in my heart too.
She was a beautiful dog and I feel your pain.
She was a beautiful dog and I feel your pain.
Somehow knowing that I am not alone in this grief had been such a help! I did try to find a grief support group in my area and found nothing! That day that my baby went to slept, I just wanted to be with her. I kept thinking that she will need me to give her medicine and most of all, give her all the love she needs. That day I felt like my heart was ripped into pieces.
But as days go on and I kept reading the postings in this site and more so, knowing that I will see my baby again, I began eating. I am not past the grief over my baby but at least, I can look forward to reunited with her one more time.
God bless us all in this site. I have never seen such an outpourring love for animals like I have seen in this site. You will all be in my prayers.
Fe (LuckyNono's Mom)
But as days go on and I kept reading the postings in this site and more so, knowing that I will see my baby again, I began eating. I am not past the grief over my baby but at least, I can look forward to reunited with her one more time.
God bless us all in this site. I have never seen such an outpourring love for animals like I have seen in this site. You will all be in my prayers.
Fe (LuckyNono's Mom)
My sweet little princess
Just to let you know that my love and longing for you has not eased a bit. Although I keep telling myself that I gave you all the love that you need, it feels like I should have done more and love you more! It hurts me to know that some humans had abused you and taken you for granted. I wished that you came into my life earlier, but who am I to judge God's will?
There's just so many train of thoughts coming into my mind. But the main idea of it all is I want to hold you so tight in my heart that you can hear it calling for your name, over and over and over! I love you so much, Lulu, until we see each other again!
Just to let you know that my love and longing for you has not eased a bit. Although I keep telling myself that I gave you all the love that you need, it feels like I should have done more and love you more! It hurts me to know that some humans had abused you and taken you for granted. I wished that you came into my life earlier, but who am I to judge God's will?
There's just so many train of thoughts coming into my mind. But the main idea of it all is I want to hold you so tight in my heart that you can hear it calling for your name, over and over and over! I love you so much, Lulu, until we see each other again!
I thought by now that the pain had eased a bit. I was wrong! It felt like the pain only gets worse as the days go by. I am about to lose my mind. I can't even think! All I want to do is hold and kiss my sweet little baby!
LuckyNono's mom
LuckyNono's mom
It's now the 15th day
that my sweet little baby girl went to the Rainbow Bridge to wait for me
I dreamed that she's oh so happy playing with other fur babies in the happy place,
their tails a-wagging like wings
their paws taking them in all directions the angels can hardly cope.
I wished I died that fateful day of April 7, 2006
But God will not hear of my many pleas
So until then He will say yes,
Keep on watching for your mom, sweetheart, at the foot of the Rainbow Bridge!
I love you sooooo very much Lucky!
Mom
that my sweet little baby girl went to the Rainbow Bridge to wait for me
I dreamed that she's oh so happy playing with other fur babies in the happy place,
their tails a-wagging like wings
their paws taking them in all directions the angels can hardly cope.
I wished I died that fateful day of April 7, 2006
But God will not hear of my many pleas
So until then He will say yes,
Keep on watching for your mom, sweetheart, at the foot of the Rainbow Bridge!
I love you sooooo very much Lucky!
Mom
QUOTE (LuckyNono @ Apr 21 2006, 05:56 PM)
It's now the 15th day
that my sweet little baby girl went to the Rainbow Bridge to wait for me
I dreamed that she's oh so happy playing with other fur babies in the happy place,
their tails a-wagging like wings
their paws taking them in all directions the angels can hardly cope.
I wished I died that fateful day of April 7, 2006
But God will not hear of my many pleas
So until then He will say yes,
Keep on watching for your mom, sweetheart, at the foot of the Rainbow Bridge!
I love you sooooo very much Lucky!
Mom
that my sweet little baby girl went to the Rainbow Bridge to wait for me
I dreamed that she's oh so happy playing with other fur babies in the happy place,
their tails a-wagging like wings
their paws taking them in all directions the angels can hardly cope.
I wished I died that fateful day of April 7, 2006
But God will not hear of my many pleas
So until then He will say yes,
Keep on watching for your mom, sweetheart, at the foot of the Rainbow Bridge!
I love you sooooo very much Lucky!
Mom
Luckys Mom, its been 16 days since our Pepper Anne departed to her eternal home with God. My wife had almost the same dream as you. Pep was there playing with all the other babies and Lucky. In soft green fields and sunshine. They were all back in their youth with no pain or ailments. They were having a good 'ol time. We surely miss them so much. But its such a great comfort to know that now they are all safe, healthy and happy. And that will NEVER EVER change again. As I've said before won't it be a glorious day when we reunite with them. NEVER to ever leave their side again. God said mans days on earth are short and full of trouble. So hang in there, it will get better. God promised so. Prayers are with you all.
Pepper Anne's dad,
thank you for such comforting words. I am sorry also about Pepper Anne, but I am sure both our babies are our little angels watching over us now. I can't wait to see my baby!
Take care
Lucky's Mom
thank you for such comforting words. I am sorry also about Pepper Anne, but I am sure both our babies are our little angels watching over us now. I can't wait to see my baby!
Take care
Lucky's Mom
Lulu,
I will forever love you sweetheart and my heart will never be whole again because you took a big chunk out of it when you left for the Rainbow Bridge. Only you and you alone can make my heart whole when I see you again and never be apart! As you can probably tell, I am not crying as much as before anymore. The pain of losing you is still the same but I am beginning to accept the fact that you are in a better place right now, surrounded with love and purity.
For sure, when God says yes, I know that we will see each other again, my sweet loving baby! Until then, please remember that I love you with all my heart and soul!
You mom
I will forever love you sweetheart and my heart will never be whole again because you took a big chunk out of it when you left for the Rainbow Bridge. Only you and you alone can make my heart whole when I see you again and never be apart! As you can probably tell, I am not crying as much as before anymore. The pain of losing you is still the same but I am beginning to accept the fact that you are in a better place right now, surrounded with love and purity.
For sure, when God says yes, I know that we will see each other again, my sweet loving baby! Until then, please remember that I love you with all my heart and soul!
You mom
My sweet little Lulu,
I am still terribly missing you sweetheart. I miss seeing you, and running my fingers through your hair. I am still having a hard time accepting that you are not physically with me anymore. I do not know when can I go on like this. I just miss you soooo terribly.
Your mom
I am still terribly missing you sweetheart. I miss seeing you, and running my fingers through your hair. I am still having a hard time accepting that you are not physically with me anymore. I do not know when can I go on like this. I just miss you soooo terribly.
Your mom
Lulu, thank you for coming to my dream again last night. I saw you at the backyard, eating your heart out. I love you so much sweetie, and missing you soooo terribly. Each day without you feels harder for me to go on.
Until we see each other again,
Your mom
Until we see each other again,
Your mom
to my little girl Lulu,
it's almost one month since you left baby girl but the pain is still as deep and fresh as ever. i need you to help me ease the pain of physically losing you. i cannot do this alone sweetheart, so, will you please help your mom cope with the pain and help her accept the truth?
you already know by now that my love for you is so deep that i still can see vividly your loving eyes endlessly gazing at me. but in order for you to achieve eternal peace, i need to let go off you. i will try not to call out your name every night but let's be real, of course you already know that you will still hear me call out to you every now and then. hey don't blame me, blame my heart for loving you so much. until we see each other again sweetheart,
mom
it's almost one month since you left baby girl but the pain is still as deep and fresh as ever. i need you to help me ease the pain of physically losing you. i cannot do this alone sweetheart, so, will you please help your mom cope with the pain and help her accept the truth?
you already know by now that my love for you is so deep that i still can see vividly your loving eyes endlessly gazing at me. but in order for you to achieve eternal peace, i need to let go off you. i will try not to call out your name every night but let's be real, of course you already know that you will still hear me call out to you every now and then. hey don't blame me, blame my heart for loving you so much. until we see each other again sweetheart,
mom
It's been 30 days since I last kissed Lulu, my sweet little baby girl!
The pain is still the same as the first day, but I can tell everyone here that I am not self-destructive anymore. I am still in that deep depression, but I am not under professional care as well as meds. I still cry and miss my baby, but I am now facing her absence. My objective now is to make my baby so proud of her mom.
But still, I can't wait to see her loving eyes again! I love you so much and until eternity, Lulu. See you at the Rainbow Bridge, be good for mom, okay?
Mom
The pain is still the same as the first day, but I can tell everyone here that I am not self-destructive anymore. I am still in that deep depression, but I am not under professional care as well as meds. I still cry and miss my baby, but I am now facing her absence. My objective now is to make my baby so proud of her mom.
But still, I can't wait to see her loving eyes again! I love you so much and until eternity, Lulu. See you at the Rainbow Bridge, be good for mom, okay?
Mom
Its hard work isnt it, a little better every day, thats all you need.
A little eventual adds up to a lot, keep going your doing fine.
Love Sue
A little eventual adds up to a lot, keep going your doing fine.
Love Sue
Thank you so much Sue, I refuse to think what could have happened if this site is not existing. Thanks from me and Lulu
We WILL see them again one day. And with how fast life is going, it won't be too long to wait. And then we will never be separated from them again. Just hang in there for a little while.
God bless you.
God bless you.
Hi sweetheart,
Visiting this site and all the posters in this site really helped me with my depression and the grief of losing you. I am better and I am getting back to living again and you should know that I still look forward to seeing you one day. My love for you has not changed a bit, but I now have accepted that in spite of not being physically together, you are within me, within my heart, within my being, and within my spirit. I love you so much sweetheart.
Your mom
Visiting this site and all the posters in this site really helped me with my depression and the grief of losing you. I am better and I am getting back to living again and you should know that I still look forward to seeing you one day. My love for you has not changed a bit, but I now have accepted that in spite of not being physically together, you are within me, within my heart, within my being, and within my spirit. I love you so much sweetheart.
Your mom
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