It'll be two months and I week this coming Thursday. I thought as time passed I'd be feeling more at peace with what happened to you Chloe. I thought I'd be able to let go of the guilt, but just when I think I have it closes in on me from everywhere!
I cried and cried for you the other day. Did you hear mommy crying? Did you feel my tears of anguish as I held your picture so close to my heart if any closer they would have become one. Good I am so mad at him! You know who I'm talking about. The one that was jealous of the love we shared. The one who told me you'd be safe. Quentin misses you so much Chloe. I know he wonders where you've gone? Mommy wants you back so bad, but knows that only in my dreams, my thoughts and in my heart can I have you for now. Please come back to me some how some way, and I promise to protect you better next time. I wish I could turn back time. And yes, I've learned from this mistake and promise to keep your three brothers as safe as I possibly can. I love you Chloe. You where a special kitty. I'm sure you're with Grandpa now. 
I'm sure he welcomed you with open arms for me. Take care of each other... 
Hoping I see you real soon sweetheart angel girl.Mommy
Thank you both for your words of support. I must say time does have a way of healing. Although, I still do miss my Chloe something awful I believe I'm on the road to forgiving myself. God does answer our prays. I wish to also say how sorry I am for your losses as well. I can not believe how many of us animial loving folks there actually are out there! It is truly amazing and a relief to know I am not alone in my deep, passionate love for our four legged companions.