Hi,
I am new to the website and I am not sure how to get over my wonderful dog Lakota's death. It has been almost three months since I had to put him down. It was absolutley the hardest decision I have ever had to make. It happended Dec. 28th. In Sept. 2005, he was diagnosed with a bladder tumor. I was and am sure like all of you - devastated. He was with me and my husband for 11 years. He was a wolf hybrid-part wolf and part husky. He was the sweetest animal I have ever had. He was with me quite a bit due to my husband at sea so much. He, Lakota and I did everything together. Hiking ,camping, Lakota loved the snow. He has moved a couple of places and been on many trips with us and sometimes on his own, he lliked to wander and it worried me to death. But God always brought him home safely. How ironic nothing happened to him out in the wild, but he got bladder cancer. I am not sure how to continue to deal with this. I see that all of you are feeling the same. So I am normal. I hold my feelings in and cry in private and reminiscence in private about Lakota, because I feel no one wants to hear what I have to say. I am really feeling that from my husband. I don't get how some people can be so indifferent about this. I am so sorry for all of your losses also. I just wanted to feel some support from someone. I feel that when I say something about Lakota, it seems people look at me like I have grown a second head. And almost like they want to say "he is gone, it doesn't matter anymore." But is MATTERS so much to me. I feel like one of you said. That the image of him going cannot be freed of my memory. It is just difficult all the way around. Can someone help me to help others understand my feelings and let them know not to just wave me and my feelings away. Thank you all for listening. Stephlee

Sometimes the people in your life that seem closest to you really let you down in times like these. I no longer speak to my best friend of over 22 years because she couldn't understand my grief. I too, cry in private most of the time.

It's good that you have found the lot of us broken hearted here though, I can honestly tell you that! Even though you don't 'know' us, we all share the common bond of the love we felt/feel for our furbabies.

I read a book about dealing with the loss of a pet, and one passage from the book that really stuck with me said that the only way to truly understand the loss of a pet to a maternal pet owner, is to compare it to the devastation of losing a child. To me, she was my daughter in every sense.

We are all here slowly dealing with our grief and trying to come to terms with it, please don't feel alone.

Dear Fellow Traveller Along My Path,

I send comfort and condolences to you with heartfelt and sincere hopes that you have found your way to the love and everlasting bond that is with you now and forever in Lakota's spirit ~ I pray that you can tap into the joy and umconditional love that you will have forever and ever ~ together ~ as this is how God gives us strength and the stamina to go on when we lose these precious angels.

Please know that you are never alone here ~ we all have felt and understand the deep bond of everlasting spiritual synergy that is experienced in having been blessed with sharing souls with such a dear angel sent from God ~ This is how we are given depth of character and become forever changed by the pawprints they leave on our souls ~ and yes ~ they rest now ever after in the chambers of our hearts.

May you find your way to the Light of the Spirit of Love ~

May you be Blessed with the Wind at Your Back ~

Stay with your truth and be forever at peace in the times ahead.

Sincere Thoughts,
Kathryn

All that any of us can say is that we are sorry for your loss and that we can very much relate to what you are going through. I'm sure that your home seems as empty and depressing as mine does at this point in time. My buddy was the star that all of the planets around here orbited around. Wherever he was was the center of the home.

All of that is gone now and we all just continue on. Time heals, they all say, we'll all see about that.

Good luck, and very sorry about Lakota. He sounds as if he was a cool dog.