Valeisha, I'm so sorry about your loss!!!
Sycther and you were lucky to find each other and share the love that you did. And, Sycther is okay now -- you don't have to worry about him. I have no doubt that he is in complete bliss and is not aware of the physical/emotional pain of being separated from you, because his spirit is in the realm where there's no sense of that separation. To him, it will seem like an instant before you will be joining him (when it's your time).
But in the meantime you are in such pain.

I'm glad you found this site. Please come here often and let us know how you are doing. It gets easier, and we're all in this together and will help you.
God bless,
Kathy