I picked up fur today. Searching in all her sunny places. Placed the pieces in her new container. I just wanted to touch her one more time. I was not home to be with her in her final hours. I feel like I let her down. My precious "B" had been with me through good times and bad and always curled up next to me and never judged. When I was down she'd extend her paw out and rest it on my face. Always running along my car in shadows as I pulled into my home. She may not of known I saw her run from the gate to my apartment when I lived in one she'd scurry up the stairs as if she'd been cooly laying there and just happened to notice I had come home. Whenever I moved she never got lost I'd through the old rug she lay on out the door and let her out and there she'd be when I whistle for her at dinner time.
When I moved to Texas I went to a cat show the second day I was here. That was 14 years ago. She was a winner of the mutt cat division at the show and enter by a local shelter that did not put down animals. I had lost my Baby cat many years earlier and this cat just spoke to me with her eyes and I knew I had to take this beautiful winner home with me. I had no local vet and alomost could not adopt her but finally the name of my old vet in Florida entered my brain and the Animal Defense League called them up and yes I was a suitable owner and could take this beatiful yellow eyed black furry beast home wih me.
When we got home she ran straight for the shower and jumped in she always had an affection for that area of the house from there forward. She coud fetch as good as any dog I have known and knew how to sit on command...well that is when she felt like it. I miss her pawing her way in the bath in the mornings. Greeting me at the door, talking her endless talk and my talking back to her. It is the middle of the day and I had to stop and cry cause I miss my queen "B" so badly. She was my beaver cat, my baby cat, my bad "B", my good "B" That cat was A+ to me. I miss my baby "B"

Dear Missing B,
I am so sorry for your loss. This sounds like an absoulutely wonderful friend you had. Life can feel so empty without them, can't it? I had to have my beautiful calico put to sleep 3 years ago. She was a one person cat but so affectionate. Then I had to have my husky put to sleep a few months ago. We all have broken hearts here. I hope it helps you to know that others are going thru the same thing.

May we all heal soon.
hugs to you
Cathi

Dear Missing B,
I am so sorry for your loss. I know you feel bad that you couldn't be with her, but you didn't let her down. You obviously loved her very much, and she was just as obviously devoted to you. Maybe she wanted to spare you the pain of being there.

Ypour tribute to her is very beautiful.

pghbekka

I'm sorry for your heartache! You and your precious B were truly lucky to have each other. And, you will be together again.

In the meantime, B is experiencing only bliss because I have no doubt that her sweet spirit is in the realm where there's no emotional or physical pain and no sense of separation from loved ones (all the things that we who are still in our physical bodies have to experience ). She is fine. She wants you to be okay, just as you would want that for her if the roles had been reversed.

Try and take good care of yourself. Do you have other lucky furkids to care for? Just wondering. Sometimes that can be a good thing, knowing that you are passing on more love to others who would be lucky enough to receive it.

You're in my Prayers,
Kathy

Kathy,
I do have another cat but it is different he is a stray that I adopted me recently and he was beat up pretty bad by someone. I know in time he will become a great baby but he he still has a few trust issue to work through. It has been only since August but everyday he is getting better and better. B an him never saw eye to eye she was the Queen of the roost say to speak. Always a one person baby. I don't even think Q (the stray baby) is misses her at all. I think he is happy that he can walk around ad not get hissed at. Lay on the bed without having to avoid my B. I am trying to hold hi close but like I said he does not seem ready for that. He is very affectionate and loves to ave his belly rubbed but is not one to squeeze and bump heads or let me blow in his ears. And this is the first ca I have ever seen who does not like his neck rubbed. I think in time he will like this ad having his ears scratch. I am not sure he is helping to much right now though. I was kind of a one kitty mom too.

Marie