I am so grateful I found this site. Thank you for giving me a place to unload my grief for a little while. People try to comfort me but no one seems to comprehend how sad this is for me.
Miranda was euthanized yesterday morning. She was almost 14 years old and was starting to show signs of aging. She was uncomfortable and she just wasn't herself anymore. Of course there were good days but the unpredictability of her moods and pain level made it too risky to keep her around my 3 year old daughter. I made the decision and I think I made the right choice.
I cannot believe how deeply it hurts. I miss her for so many reasons. She made me laugh and kept me company unconditionally. She soaked up so many of my tears over the years and went through so many ups and downs with me. When I got her at 8 weeks old she was infested with fleas and the vet said she would die. For three days I combed and killed fleas and just kept telling her she would be ok. I knew from that day on that we would forever be friends. We both needed each other so much and I loved her so much. I just cry so much and I don't know how to stop. I want her back even just for one more day. I don't know what to do without her. It's hardest at night because she used to snuggle with me and keep me company when I had insomnia. I miss her soft black fur that was as shiny as patent leather. I miss her gorgeous green eyes. I miss her purring and other little squeaks. I just miss my one of a kind, irreplaceable friend.

I, too, lost my kitty recently. She was 16, and had lymphoma (brain tumor). She had begun to suffer, so I had her euthanized.
It was a kind, selfless thing we did, as now we know our kitties are happy and without pain now.
I didn't get Soshi until she was 11. She had recently been diagnosed with diabetes, and her previous owner couldn't care for her. Everyone thought I was crazy to attempt it, but she was so worth it.
She was a good friend. She taught me so much about life and love.
She saw me through tough times, and ushered me into good times.
I know it hurts so much.
It's very painful to loose someone you love, and often people don't think of pets as the true friends they are. They love us all the time, though, don't they? Even when we're not so loveable!
So, we know how sad you are. We feel the same.
This is also a place to heal. I come here and talk about myself, and I try to reach out to others. This gives me so much comfort.
Just know that the pain will get easier, and your happy memories will comfort you.
Much love,
Brandy

Dear Missing Miranda,
I am so,so, sorry to hear about your loss. For some reason there are some animals that grab our hearts and others that don't. Anyone who has never met that "special animal " will never understand the grief of letting it go. They are the ignorant ones who say "Oh, just go get you another one", and you want to physically hurt them.

In 20 years of animal rescue and adoption, and owning animals, we have only had to put 3 to sleep. The first was my very first dog, a border collie, I held her the whole time. She had gotten to where she couldn't stand to go use the bathroom. Despite what Miranda's health problems were, you will find yourself asking yourself it you did the right thing. YOU DID! Now she doesn't hurt anymore. You sacrificed the desire of wanting to hold onto her for what was best for her, an end to her pain.
That takes a lot of unselfishness that many people don't have.
God Bless,
doveslanding