I have three rolls of film that I haven't developed ****** back to Halloween (yes, I procrastinate). Most of them are pictures of my 10 month old son, and there are a lot of him and my recently departed cat Lucy and of Lucy and me. It is very painful even to think of seeing these stills of how happy we all were not so long ago. I miss her so much. Sometimes when I'm alone I call her name hoping she'll meow back. I would really like these pictures of my son's first holidays and I do want the pics of Lucy of course, but there's a sad part of me that just wants to forget this film exists. I know I'm just going to fall apart when I see them, as if it were day one again. Everytime I see one of her toys, her food dish, or even her favorite sunning spots outside, I feel sad, angry, and lonesome for her. I am trying not to let grief overcome me. I am pregnant and trying to take care of myself.
I don't want to forget her, but I'm just not sure if I can handle it right now. Should I just get the pictures? I don't know, I'm a mess.
~S

I lost my cat Little Ricky about two months ago. I found a old 35 mm camera that I forgot about and it had 17 pictures on it.

So I developed it and picked up the pictures. There was my ricky! The Pictures were from christmas past - with me and my wife setting up the tree with ricky supervising.

Then you could tell I was taking the pictures - my cat was in all her favorite spots - and one in particuliar, looking down at me from atop the monitor. I just lost it. But now I have that picture right next to my monitor - and I see her everyday.

Everyday I look at it - and it is getting easier to look at. I am so glad that I developed the film - I might of missed some of the christmas joy that she brought me and my wife.

So I would say get them developed- enjoy the pictures of your child and pet - cry - and then later you will be glad to have your pets and childs pictures together.

wh