Hi. I'm new to this forum. I'm just feeling completely sad and lost after my husband found our sweet little orange cat Lucy dead. She died in a horrible way. A piece of fence in our backyard collapsed onto her during a storm. I thought she would be cuddled up with our dog in her little house as she usually did during rain. I would've let her in but I didn't know because it was all in the middle of the night. We thought she'd just run off for a day, but we didn't find her meowing at the door or none of her food gone we began to worry. When my husband noticed the fence he had a bad feeling and he was right.
She was part of the family. We called her goo-goo all the time for some reason. She even had a bond with my ten month old son. We got her from an animal rescue three years ago as a tiny kitten who'd been abandoned by her mother. We were just ****** when we got her so shes been through a lot with us. She was quite a character, with her own little quirks. Cat lovers will understand what I mean. She was obsessed with flashlights, loved pasta,and purred louder than any cat I've ever seen.
I just feel so horrible that she died in that way and that there was nothing I could do. I feel guilt and anger and sadness. I'm going to miss her running up to me meowing when I get home from work and I'm definetely going to miss the sight of my son petting her and chasing her. I feel so bitter about it right now and sick at the thought of her death, part of me just wants to block it out, but it's there and it hurts! I don't think there's anything that could make my husband and I feel less guilty and, essentially, that we've lost part of our family. I miss you, Lucy goo-goo, and I'm sorry.
~S

ScarlettW,
I understand that your kitty was such a part of your life - we felt the same about ours. I'm so sorry your kitty had to go in such a tragic way. I've learned in this past week that time begins to heal your heart (as much as you might think you'll feel horrible forever). I know it's helped me to talk about things and share some of the special memories I have of my sweet Soshi. Keep these alive, and know your Lucy and my Soshi are probably sunning themselves and eating tuna.
You're in my prayers,
brandy (and soshi)

I am so sorry for your Lucy ~ the hardest things in my life I have ever done is lose my pet's. Everyone here understands your feelings of helplessness and grief. We have all been there no matter what the cir%%stances are surrounding the loss we still feel like we could have done more to prevent it ~ but the truth of the matter is that life is so seemingly unpredictable and filled with chance amid the bigger picture ~ You gave Lucy so much love and such a wonderful life with your family ~ it is such a shell shocked feeling when we lose them so suddenly ~ as with what happened to my sweet CC ~ it will take time for you to heal ~ but please don't blame yourself ~ this is an accident ~ we have all had them ~ and the difficult part of an accident is that we keep saying it could have been prevented ~ but you have to remember to tell yourself a couple of things ~ One is that we live in God's time not our own and two is that each creature upon the earth has a reason for being here and a time for leaving here ~ I hate thinking in platitudes at a time of grief but as the days progress , the love that we shared with them becomes more pronounced again ~ replacing the sadness. Bit by bit it begins to transform into a bittersweet yet golden cloud of love within our hearts. It is there we will keep them a place to be with us forever more ~ You may feel the golden cloud glow brighter and surround your soul with warmth ~ close your eyes and feel her ~ resting close in her own special way ~ amid the joy and play of her eternal day ~ May you find Comfort ~ I am truly sorry for your loss ~ God Bless ~

Thank you everybody for your support. We buried Lucy today in her and my dog Trinity's favorite spot.
I am crying just to know that there are people who understand how I feel. Even your best friends can seem cold at times like this because not everyone loves pets like we do.

The internet is full of bs a lot of times but then there's these times where you need to reach out to the world and find people to empathize with you and that's when I'm really thankful for technology!
Love much
Scarlett