Hello, my name is Nicolle. Thank you for allowing me to join this forum. I have so much grief and anger and sadness, that I just don't know what else to do.
My dog Ruby was a little black chihuahua of only 9 months old. We got her to be a companion for our then 3 year old daughter. Ruby quickly became a member of the family and we loved her like she was our child. She had the spirit of any large watch dog, but the sweetness that could not have been matched.
On Christmas Eve, while we were out getting presents out of our car for our daughter at about 11:30 at night, Ruby got out. We were visiting my sister in another city so she did not know her way around. We walked the streets calling her and looking for her til about 2:30 in the morning. I woke up through out the night, walking, calling her crying...
On Christmas morning I had to tell my daughter that Ruby got out. That she ran away. She said, Dont worry mama.
After my daughter opened her presents with my niece and nephew, I made posters, walked around, calling, walking crying, feeling sick.
I came in, got some juice, and went out again. I spoke with a neighbor of my sister's to ask if she had seen my sweet Ruby. She said no...
Just then, animal Control came around the corner. I was so happy, perhaps they had found Ruby.
I told him about my dog. He said he had bad news for me, then handed me Ruby's black leather collar. She had been hit by a car. He had just picked up her remains.....
Oh my god! I feel guilty! Why didn't I shut the door! Why didn't I look for her sooner! Why did she have to run! Why did I have to tell my daughter on Christmas that her best friend died! Im having a hard time coping. I want to get drunk, I want to not feel anything. Why On Christmas!!! This was her first Christmas and she was the best little dog I have ever had. She was my boyfriend's first dog with me! It sucks and Im so sad and angry!
If anyone has insight on what the best way to cope, please let me know. Thank you, Nicolle