I first posted here in Feb. My baby Judy Garland (b. March 1, 1993) was presumably killed by her pit bull yardmate of five years (Dee Dee Myers) on Sept. 22, 2003. Monday will be 6 months since her death, and I am still an emotional wreck. She is my first thought in the morning and my last thought at night. I still cry daily, amd I wonder if this pain will ever abate. Nevertheless, I want to express my gratitude for this site and to say that I will always treasure the understanding and genuine sympathy I receive here. She wasn't 'just a dog', and I think other mourners here know what I mean when I say that.

oh ((((((((((((( Carolann))))))))))))))
I'm so sorry that it's still so hard for you. Grief takes time. Some people can move past it more quickly than others. My sympathies to you on the six month anniversary of Judy's passing. Do you still have DeeDee or have you given her to someone else? I bet that is hard, to know that one dog is responsible for the others passing. I feel for you and your pain

Lori

Hi Carolann:

I remember you.....I am very sorry for your loss, and yes, I believe we all understand that, "Judy Garland wasn't just a dog"...

I am sorry that you are grieving so.... There is no right or wrong when it comes to how "we humans grieve".... Have you been able to sleep well, get up in the morning?? Are you eating??

I am not a doctor or therapist, but, I just want to make sure that at least you are & can take care of yourself..... I really, really care, Carolann.

It surely is a REAL LOSS, when we lose our wonderful, beloved furbabies - a shock to our body - The broken & shattered hearts that we have....

I just want to make sure that YOU, are okay..... I know & understand that it is sooo difficult without your little girl, but I know that she would want you to take care of you..... Didn't your Judy Garland have that ability to know when you were sad & not feeling well???? I know she wouldn't want you to be so sad..
She is over Rainbow's Bridge; there is no more pain or suffering; and she is just like you ALWAYS REMEMBERED HER TO BE BEFORE THAT TRAGIC ACCIDENT!!!!!![/u]
We here at LS ARE ALL HERE FOR YOU, WHENEVER YOU NEED TO JUST RAMBLE........ Carolann, I know that I did that frequently....I RAMBLED, NOT EVEN KNOWING IF I WAS MAKING ANY SENSE TO ANYONE...JUST KNEW I NEEDED TO TYPE & TYPE & get my feelings off my chest!!!!!

Please, keep in touch with us here frequently, because we all care VERY MUCH -- I care!!

Love, Denise

Carolann,

Denise is right, you need to take care of yourself. I know how hard it is, I miss Megan so much that I feel like screaming and throwing a fit that would equal one of my three year old's. But I also know that Megan absolutely hated it when I was upset and I think she would not be happy with me if I continued to let my grief run my life. I kept reliving having to put her down, how I was holding her head in my lap as she passed...but I just could not handle those images anymore so I followed Beth's advice and focused on all of the happy times I had with Meg, and those far out weighed my grief. Don't get me wrong, I still cry, I still feel cheated (she was only 5), and I still miss her. But I needed to release the guilt and sadness in my life and I wanted to celebrate Megan as well as mourn her. Does this make sense???

I don't post here much anymore but I do check to see how all of you are doing and that still helps. So like Denise said...post here, let us help you through this. We are here for you.

Tracey