Hi All,
So here I am giving all of you advice and comfort. I should take some of my own advice. All of a sudden like a ton of bricks the pain and heartache just comes crashing in on me. The reality that I will never sleep with Tinky and Millie again. That my little shadow Tink will never greet me by the door again and roll over on her back so I can rub her tummy. I come out of the shower and expect her to be waiting for me as always sitting on top of the toilet seat. Following me from room to room. I really can't bear it sometimes. And now Frankie is ill with an eye infection. I took him last night and his eye still looks terrible. The vet said to give it a few days and if its not getting better to call. But I am a nervous wreck. What if something should happen to Frankie? I don't think my heart could take it. So please say a prayer for me and Frankie and I will try not to be negative and think positive. Thanks

Deb

Hi Deb,

My thoughts and prayers are with you tonight...

Take Care,
Rubie

Deb,

I'm sending good thoughts to you and Frankie.

Luna

Sending you positive thoughts and prayers. Sometimes it is difficult to have faith, but keep trying. You are doing everything right. We all have little relapses of sadness. That was happening for me today, and that is why I logged back onto this website. Take care. I will be thinking of you and Frankie.

Dear Deb,

Hang in there, sweetie. I know exactly how you feel. One day you can be feeling relatively peaceful, and then something happens to bring all the pain back with a vengeance! I've been reading a book on grief (actually, it's called "On Grief and Grieving" by Elisabeth Kubler-Ross, who originally came up with the five stages of grief -- denial, anger (including guilt, or self-anger), bargaining, depression and acceptance). The book says that grief flows like a roller-coaster because we can't physically handle all of the grief at once. There is a lot of grief to go through when you've lost someone you love so much (and in your case TWO someones!), and so we have to let it keep coming back after periods of rest until we've gone through it all.

At the beginning, I felt guilty for the times when I felt relief from the pain (or maybe it was just mental exhaustion), but now I know that we have to have those times, or we'll never be able to work through the grief. I think it helps me the most to think of my beloved furbabies at the Rainbow Bridge, young and healthy, playing contentedly and feeling peaceful and loving. I may have mentioned this before, but I highly recommend the book "Animals and the Afterlife" by Kim Sheridan. It has helped me to truly embrace the concept of our babies living on and watching over us and waiting for the time when we can join them.

I hope you're starting to feel a little better. My thoughts are with you and Millie and Tinky.
Take care.

(((Big Hugs)))
Eliza

Oh, and try not to worry too much about Frankie. I'm sure that he's going to be just fine! He's getting great care from a good vet and a very loving mom! I'll keep him and Sheeba in my prayers, too!

Eliza

thanks guys for your prayers and support. Eliza I think it is true about not grieving all at once. I guess its our way of protecting ourselves from too much pain as you said. That makes a lot of sense. I will look into getiting those books you mentioned.As for not worrying about Frankie and Sheeba, that's another story. Now Sheeba has caught Frankie's eye infection and they both I was told by the Vet today have parasites. I think that is fairly common in kittens. I can't wait till they are both healthy tho. I have had them for 3 weeks and it has been one thing after another. Trying to hang in but worried none the less.

Deb

Hi Deb,

I can see why you would be worried about Frankie and Sheba. That's only natural. My cat Charlie had an eye infection when he was Frankie's age, and it obviously turned out just fine. Also, I do think that parasites are common in kittens. Still, it WOULD be nice to get them both perfectly healthy again so you don't have so much to worry about! You're such a good Mom to be taking such good care of them! Lucky kitties!

I'll send out some healing energy (not that I'm a healer, but it couldn't hurt!) I hope that you are all in good health soon!

Eliza