MahJinBoo
Mar 6 2004, 12:06 AM
Hi everyone.
My cat died on last week on Feb. 26th. His name was Mah Jin Boo, which means "black magic". He was really sick, and I had spent about $200 on multiple vet visits. I was there when he died. He was underneath my grandparent's bed and still warm.. I had Boo for over a year. He was a stray cat, and I found him undernear a car with a broken leg. I took him in because he seemed friendly and I was lonely. He had been there through the toughest moments of my life- being evicted from my apartment, losing a 4 year relationship, and even moving cross country to start my life over. I didn't know how old he was but I wanted to keep him forever... he was my best friend and I got attached to him very much very fast.
Ever since he died I have been a rollercoaster of emotions. Laughing and crying a lot within the same hour. More crying though. I bought a stuffed animal that looks like him, put his collar on it and now I sleep with it. Everyone asks me if I want another pet but I can't even think of it... only a few people seem to understand how I am feeling which is why I am so glad that I have found this website. I have been wondering if how I am feeling is normal. I had been depressed because of a job situation before, but now it seems to have magnified a lot and I don't know what to do.
I want to send my condolences to every member who has recently lost a pet as well.
Muffins
Mar 6 2004, 10:23 AM
Hi!
I am so sorry about Mah Jin Boo, for your loss; the fact that you had to find this website at all.
But, you have really come to the right place.
There is a lot of very unconditional love here, undersanding, without judgement - I bet that sounds like a lot of our "furbabies"??
We all understand, and what you are going through is so very normal!! It really is..
I'm glad that you bought a stuffed animal and put your babies collar on it - I'm sure Mah Jin Boo is looking down on you with smiles......
Look at different peoples posts, if you want and see what it was like in the very beginning and just how things progressed for others... Keep in mind, we are all very, very different. It just helped me see how, what other people did to cope. Doesn't mean I handled (or, still handle) things the same way.. ---- I did that, I actually felt like I was "peeking", but that's why they're all available to look at. It really helped, and still very much does, to start putting the pieces of my very broken heart together again. And, I will ALWAYS BE VERY, VERY GRATEFUL!!!!
Unfortunately, the job market is horrible right now - I am actually looking myself, and with that (job searching), you just have to "keep on keeping on"... When that perfect (or somewhat perfect) job is here, you'll get it....
We all get soooooooooo attached to our beloved "furbabies" so quickly....they don't ask for much, just a little scratch under their chin, some food and water... They're so grateful.... And, in return, we get so much.
I will pray to my girl Ernestine that she "show Mah Jin Boo the ropes" over Rainbow's Bridge.... She went there on February 7th..... I'm sure that the good Lord gave her her "Angel Wings by now", because she was mommies Angel Girl..
Feel your feelings.....cry, laugh - all the emotions that we humans share.... However you are feeling is okay for you.. Don't forget that.
And, no time on earth is EVER ENOUGH when we're talking about our beloved furbabies..... But, I believe in the promise that, when it is our turn to pass over Rainbow Bridge ourselves, that out little furbabies (all of them), will be waiting for us, and we'll walk into eternity forever....
God Bless you!
Your Mah Jin Boo was absolutely beautiful.. He looked very "regal", and very happy!
Peace & Love,
Denise
cdboogie
Mar 6 2004, 07:48 PM
I want to send you my condolences and prayer's on losing your beautiful Boo! Losing a pet is a tough thing to experience, and many people don't understand the range of emotions that one goes through! I found this website right after my JayJay died suddenly, and it's been a blessing for me to share my feelings with other's who know the pain of such an incredible loss, I think that you'll find that as well!
Stay Strong and God Bless you,
Cheryl
MahJinBoo
Mar 7 2004, 01:39 PM
I want to thank the both of you from the very bottom of my heart. Reading both of what you had to say really put smiles on my face, and made me feel so much better about how the grieving process works. I feel so much more at ease knowing that everything that I am feeling is normal. Muffins you are completely right when you say that we all go through things very differently. Your heartfelt post is exactly what I needed, it helped make me feel normal again when I read it. The thought of your baby angel Ernestine "showing the ropes" to Boo is a true comfort.
I also want to thank you as well Cheryl for your condolences. From the photo JayJay looked as though he was a beautiful creature, and I'm sorry that you had to experience his loss. I hope that everyone that has become a member of this website, although due to unfortunate cir%%stances, can bond and begin a road to recovery and acceptance.
It's so hard to put into words everything that I feel when I see this website.. the posts everyone makes and the love they have inside them. It's truly remarkable.
mittens_is_gone
Jul 25 2004, 06:42 AM
Hello,
I am very sorry to hear about Mah Jin Boo. I am glad that you found this wonderful website. We all know how you are feeling and we can identify with you as well. Not many people can understand the devastation that we feel after the loss of our best friends. But here, we know. I am crying yet again to read of your pain and I send a big hug to you. And of course to everyone else who is probably crying as i am now.
I had to put my baby, Mittens down in November and the pain is still very great. I don't know what I would have done if I didn't find this website the very next morning. I was alone, my husband was at work and I was devastated and searching for someone to say, "Yes, I know how you feel." I found that here.
Again, I am so sorry for your loss.
You are in my thoughts.
Janice