My Dusty is gone now and I can't bare the pain! He woke up this morning is pain, so I phone the vet and asked to take him ASAP instead of waiting until our scheduled 4PM appointment. We arrived at 8:30AM and as soon as the vet took a look at Dusty, she said it was definitely his time. I held him and kissed him, trying to comfort him as he starred at me moaning in pain. They came and took him to prep him with his IV and said they would be back shortly. Well she immediately returned back and said as they were shaving his little leg, he had passed on. The vet said he knew how hard this decision had been for me, so he decided to make the decision on his own instead. My poor baby! I swore I would never let him feel any pain, yet I let it happen anyway. Even if it was for just a few hours, he surely didn't deserve that at all. I feel so guilty, knowing I could have taken him in sooner before his pain had ever started. I can't get his little face off my mind and his big brown eyes starring at me asking me for help and there wasn't anything I could possibly do for him. I had made plans to take him a bath and sit outside on a blanket under the sun, snacking on his favorite treats, so he could enjoy his last day and instead he had such an awful ending. The pain is just killing me! He was like my shadow... everywhere I was, he was by my side... and now all I want to do is lay by his side as well. I miss my sweet boy soooooo bad! How can I go on with out my best friend of so many years by my side? This is the worst day of my life.

DustyLove

ohmy, the anguish you feel right now. I'm so very sorry it didn't go as planned. Thankfully you were with him at the very end though, and he felt that love come through you. I do believe that. If an animal can sense when their human is in pain, they can certainly sense when your love comes through. So I think he felt your fear, pain, love, concern -- all those things. Please don't dwell on the guilt too long - your beautiful Dusty would want you to grieve for him but eventually smile again. Oh I'm so sorry for the way the day went, I really am. ((((((((( hugs )))))))))) to you in your time of pain.
I hope Dede met Dusty at the Rainbow Bridge and showed him how wondrous Heaven can be. They'll both be waiting for us to arrive when it's our turn. What a joyful reunion that will be!
I hope your heart stops hurting so badly and that you are soon able to smile when you think of Dusty.
God bless you -
Lori

Dear Dusty Love:

I am sooooooooo very sorry, I hear you and I share in your grief with you. I am sorry that you even have to feel this pain.
I am grateful that the vet could take him early this morning..... YOU DID NOT LET YOUR DUSTY FEEL PAIN, he was in pain from his illness..
It stinks & it hurts & your heartaches, I know...and, I'm sorry you have to go through it.... But, your beautiful, beloved Dusty is over Rainbow's Bridge where now, there is no pain at all.....No more, for eternity....
Please, think of ALL THE WONDERFUL TIMES that you & your Dusty shared, out in the sun, with his treats.... That is the great thing about memories, is that "THEY CANNOT BE TAKEN AWAY"..... Forever, they will always be in your heart, soul & mind... ALWAYS!!!!!
YOU did not LET HIM FEEL PAIN....your Dusty was sick... You did all that you possibly could... I KNOW that you did!!!! You have to believe that.
Knowing that our furbabies are on the other side and in NO MORE PAIN. I know it hurts, it hurts so bad you want to scream & cry & kick, etc.... mostly, cry, because your poor heart is broken.
We all know that here. Cry all you want...let your feelings out.. I know it's the hardest thing that I ever had to do with Ernestine...but, we set her free from all of her suffering..

My heart breaks all over again when I read everyone's posts because I know the pain, and, really, it's just too much to bear.
I know for sure that your baby Dusty is over Rainbow's Bridge; there is no more pain and suffering anymore.... Dusty is doing all the things he used to do when he was healthy!!!! I really believe that, because that's what keeps me going, believing!!

I am so very, very sorry for your loss....it hurts!!! No amount of time with our furbabies is ever long enough...
I wish I could say something, anything to make you feel better, but I know that nothing could make me feel better in the beginning....
Yes, it is the worst day....it stinks.... I am just very sorry, I really am.

May God be with you in your time of need.... Please, if you feel like it, just keep typing on this site... Use my e-mail address is you'd like... I'm available if you need someone to talk with - to cry with.
Your Dusty, he is looking down at you, and, he is not suffering any longer. He also loves you very, very much!!!!
You will see each again!!!
Love, Denise

I just wanted to comment on how beautiful Dusty was - what a lovely dog!
I hope you are feeling slightly better today. My thoughts are still with you.

hugs,
Lori

Lori,

Thank you for you kind comment. I also think your precious DeDe is beautiful. I wish I could tell you I'm better today, but it seems as each day passes I miss my baby more! I know it's only been 4 days and I need to give it more time... I still keep thinking I'm going to see him again. I miss his sweet face and miss this clatter as he walked though out the house (tile floors) I always knew when he was looking for me and he would not stop until he was laying right by my side. The tears are coming down just as hard right now and how I wish my boy was here to lick them away and make it all better. I hope you are doing well and wish you all the best!

DustyLove