Well as some of you already know I have a 15 year old buddy (##erSpanial) named Dusty who was diagnosed with kidney failure 3 weeks ago. We have had him on special at home treatments since he got out of the hospital and at first he was responding really well, but this week he's taken a turn for the worse. Dusty is no longer responding to his Kidney treatments and it's come down to me finally giving in and letting him go tomorrow. We have his appointment set at 4PM and the thought of having to give my baby up is unbearable! I've kept trying because he kept trying, but now he's given up. He won't eat or drink anymore on his own and his artheritis is really bothering him, due to lack of fluids in his system. Today was the first day I really saw him in pain and I won't allow him to go on like this anymore. I ran to the vet to pick up some additional pain medication so he can be painfree util then. I want to do anything in my power to help him in anyway I can and just hope he knows I did everything in my power to save him. Oh how I'll miss my sweet boy! I was hoping he would be around for his "sweet 16" which would be 2 weeks from now. Every year we would celebrate his birthday and he would get so many treats... oh his tail would be wagging with excitement, he didn't know what to try out first! But the little guy can't go on any longer. My heart is broken into a million pieces and I do my best not to let him see me cry, so he won't get scared but tomorrow will not be easy. I will hold him in my arms and just pray he feels the love I have for him one last time and takes it with him on his journey... until we meet again.

DustyLove

Hi Dusty Love's Mom:

I am so sorry......I know that your precious Dusty knows just how much you love him.... I remember you were on the site not long ago because I have you down as one of my "buddies"....
I, nor anyone on this site will say, "Oh, you had Dusty for 15 long years.........", because, the truth is, "no time is ever really long enough"...
Ernestine had kidney disease as well, and she didn't respond well to the treatment of sub-Q IV fluids.... Just stopped eating, lost so much weight, etc.....
Dusty is a trooper, and you have been as well......the treatments worked for a bit, but certainly, I know, not long enough!!!!
Dusty knows that you have done all in your power to help him....God is calling him home....

I read recently, I forget where, that when "human children" pass over, they need a friend, and God calls on "only the best" furbabies to be a friend to that child".... So they can watch over the kids, and have a furry friend to play with... until the time comes that we pass over Rainbow's Bridge.
I found a lot of comfort in that... I'd like to think that our Ernie-Bird is keeping a little child company, and being their companion. Makes me feel good!!!!

I don't know if Dusty is up to it, but, if you read some of Lori's (LibertyBelle's) posts, on her furbaby's DeDe's last day, they all spent the day together doing all of DeDe's favorite things.....pictures, favorite walking spot, treats, etc.... I wish I had done that with Ernie; though she was an indoor girl.. I know they took film with them to snap some photos....It's just a thought.

But, I do remember from before that Dusty was having a hard time, and it sounds like now, it's become a lot worse. I am very sorry for your pain!!!
I wish I could just snap my fingers and make it all okay, but I can't.....

Our "furbabies" know that we love them; we love them soooooooooo much, and it hurts..... I know that; we all do!!!
Someone on this site said to me, "You took on Ernie's pain, (by having her put to sleep), so that she could finally be free of pain." I've hung on to that. I know that it's true.... I'm looking at her picture now, and, I know that she's happy
I never could have kept my Ernie on this earth knowing the awful pain she was in!!!
That's not fair to her....

Tomorrow won't be easy, nor will tonight....It is the worst; but, though your heart is breaking terribly, if Dusty is up to it, (I know that you will), love him with all the kisses and hugs you can give......Our furbabies know that we truly, truly love them and are doing (and have been doing) everything in their best interest ALWAYS...

If you need to talk, tonight, tomorrow, whenever, Please contact me through a personal message, or through my e-mail (I'll make sure it's listed when I'm done with this post)..... I stay up late, and I stay at home during the day....
If you need me, I'm here....

I'll say a prayer to my Ernie that she'll meet Dusty when he goes over to Rainbow's Bridge.....she's only been there 26 days.
God Bless you!!!
You are in my thoughts .....

Love, Denise & Ben

Ohmygoodness, I'm SO sorry -- I read your other posts about Dusty earlier today and I was hoping he'd be okay for a while longer. I had to take my sweet baby in yesterday to be euthanized, it broke my heart. Believe me when I say I know the type of pain you are in right now. ((((((( hugs )))))))))) to you to bear the strength to deal with this. We treated Dede like a queen yesterday up until the time came to take her in. We fed her chicken and birthday cake, let her sniff around her favorite walking spot, we took a roll of film of her and just generally let her know how well-loved she was. We all took turns loving her and I hope it helped ease her fear and pain at the end. I was the opposite of you, I cried the entire time and was not afraid to let her see me do so. I know she was scared but so was I. No one wants to say goodbye to their faithful friend. I really sympathize with you and am so sorry you have to bear this pain. God bless you.
Lori

I grieve with you - this is one of the hardest things you will ever do in your lifetime. It is also one of the bravest and most self-less things.

I'll light a candle for your furry one and ask my three on the other side to greet him when he arrives. Someone has to teach him how to fly....