Amphia
Aug 11 2005, 01:53 AM
Ttaazzii...My little love. Thankyou so much for spending your life with my family. . .We loved you so much, but you must know that. I am so sorry to lose you.
Dear God, please take care of my mother through this awful night.
Our family dog of 12 years got out of the car tonight and was hit. He died instantly. My whole family is in major grief over this sudden tragedy. we all loved him immensely. My mom walked him every day, and it was a good ritual for both of them. They lived together alone in an apartment.
Two in one month. Oh please, god, help me.
Amen
lewcynt
Aug 11 2005, 09:24 AM
I am so sorry for your loss. It tragic when accidents like that happen to animals we love. The important thing is to be there for your mother, and others who feel the grief most. Just try to comfort each other as best you can to help you get through what you're feeling now and will feel the next couple days. This is a really good place to come for support, help or a shoulder to cry on. We all understand what you are going through...
Take Care,
Cynthia
SJ J & S
Aug 11 2005, 01:44 PM
Hi Amphia,
I am so sorry that you and your mum are going through this.
Please post here as much as you like, we all know where you are at the moment and how hard this is going to be for you both.
Love Sue
Dixie's Mom
Aug 12 2005, 10:59 AM
Hi Amphia,
I lost Dixie to the road, also. I know how hard it is. I hope you and your mom will be okay... be sure to give each other lots of support and feel free to talk about your baby dog openly and often (if you both feel up to it).
I have found that talking about the day Dixie died has been healing for me...it is difficult but I think it helps.
It's so unfair when our babies are taken from us by a CAR. Dixie was otherwise healthy (she beat cancer a year ago, arthritis (which mysteriously "disappeared" from her spine), and an enlarged liver that was twice the normal size). She survived ALL that, then someone comes and carelessly runs her over, leaving her in fear and agony for 20 minutes until she died in my arms right as we pulled into the vet's parking lot!!!! I have a hard time understanding why God allows suffering, especially of the innocent (dogs and animals), but aside from that, I know that God gave me Dixie and allowed her to come into my life. I am thankful for that....her fate would have probably been euthanasia (she was a "pound puppy").
Amphia, the pain does get easier. I know it probably seems hard to believe, but hang in there. I still cry everyday, and am trying to deal with the guilt. But it is getting a little easier.
Keep in touch and come her whenever you need support.
Dana
Dixie's Mom
Aug 12 2005, 11:03 AM
I made an error...
When I was referring to innocence, I meant to type animals and CHILDREN,not just dogs and animals!
SORRY!!
I just don't want anyone to think I'm insensitive to us humans! I have 3 children and know how innocent and special children are...
Thanks for letting me clear that up!
Dana
Amphia
Aug 12 2005, 11:32 AM
Hi everyone, Thankyou for your love and support. Dana, I have NEVER had to experience the gruesome reality of pets being killed by cars until now. It's so awful, devestating, simply beyond words. I feel so much for you! To watch them suffer has got to be agony. Tazi seems to have been killed instantly because he was just in pieces,..I HAVE to believe it was instant. I can't stand the thought of him scared on a busy road, not knowing where to go. I am pretty sure this wasn't the case, however. If I know Tazi, he was completely living in the moment, sniffing around, looking for a mate (poor guy was a 12 year old virgin), happy to get stolen time away from the family for some freedom (he was always getting out of the yard). I have good reason to believe that he never even knew he had been left behind....and I hope he never knew what happened...I hope it was that quick. I am glad I wasn't there, but sorry for those who loved him just as much as me that had to see him in such a wretched, gruesome state. In life he was an energetic, eternally playful, way too smart being of innocence and joyous devotion, and love... The personality of a rambunctious 6 year old boy. He had a little bit of asthma since he was little. He did not look 12 and he was still very healthy and incredibly youthful...It doesn't seem right that he had to go.
Thanks again, and I send blessings.
Gingergirl
Aug 12 2005, 12:16 PM
Blessings and love go out to you. I understand your pain to the core of my soul. I've been up for 2 days reading everyones stories. One thing I have learned is that I am not alone, We are not crazy in our extreme grieving. It is like losing a small child. You will heal in time and you'll always remember and love your baby. 2 days ago, I didn't think I'd be able to comfort anyone else. This forum has helped with so much pain. Keep visiting and talking as long as you need to.
I noticed that as time goes by, the stories are more happy memories of pets instead of the horrible ending. That's a good sign that we too will make it through this. God bless you and all the people on this forum.
Amphia
Aug 13 2005, 09:17 PM
Just checking in. Just wanting to write for the sake of writing.
Mom is truly devestated, as is my sister, but they are coming out of the horror of reliving the sight of his body on the road. My sister has woken up three nights in a row in absolute terror and anguish. . .I am so glad I did not have to see Tazi that way. My poor sister has been in the thick of guilt and shock . . .Just awful agony...They stopped the car because she is afraid of bees...A bee was buzzing around the car. They stopped and she feels responsible for him getting out of the car. I wish I could tell you how important this little (huge) soul was to our family. He was technically Mom's, but as far as we were concerned he was like a sibling, the baby of the family.
We have lost 3 long-term furry members of our family in 1 1/2 years. I guess I shouldn't try to tell you, of all people, how important our pets are...You people really understand.
My forty two year old brother weeped like a baby today...Initially when they found Tazi, he apparently lost it...but in a desperate angry way, hitting his car, denting the hood of his own car, saying "not HIM"! NO!!!"
I feel really good that I can help Mom by calling as soon as I wake up in the morning (she walked tazi at 8:00Am for 12 years) and at least two more times a day, once before bedtime. I read her articles on pet-loss, pet's in afterlife, poems...cry with her, laugh sometimes. She's dealing with it well, but I think it will take a long time nonetheless. She's from a generation that didn't totally appreciate the importance of furry friends...and she has always been one to hide, or bottle-up sadness, sort of afraid to go there emotionally. But this time she is doing it! I keep saying "GRIEVE"!!! cry, scream, sit in a chair ,slumped and wail. I think we need to allow ourselves that.
As for me, I wrote to bearcat, tazi, and kell-bell, all of them last night. I just wrote my heart out, and crazy as it may sound, I FELT them all around me, like they were sitting and listening intently to my heart.
Oh, one thing about Spirit after death, a little story: Tazi used to chase Rose, my sister's cat, all over the place. Actually, they were unusually playful together and it was so fun to watch dog and cat pounce on eachother. Rose would hide and watch Tazi from a bush when he was totally unaware, and then pounce on his back. They were exactly the same size and kind of grew up together. When Tazi would come to visit my sister's house, the two would immediately greet one another and start their playing. Well, Brandie says that rose, who is not a kitten anymore, has been going to the back yard (where they played, where Tazi is Buried, and where they just put in a bird bath to honor his life) and racing around, hiding, pouncing on air, and standing in that funny way cats stand where they arch their backs and walk sideways, hair on end. Brandie says she is certain that Rose is playing with Tazi's spirit. It's really uncommon for Rose to be acting that way suddenly, with "no one" to play with!
Thanks for letting me just talk. Love to all
A