Thank you all for your support. This forum is such a wonderful blessing to me, and I will continue to post here, and hopefully help others with their greif.
We let Midnight go today at 1:30. I feel better now that she's in peace, Like this weight has been lifted since she's not sick and she's playing in heaven.

My Middy is in peace now. I am so happy for her that she's not suffering anymore. Im still sad, but it's not unbearable now that she's not suffering.

She got buried with her favorite red ribbon, and a soft shirt that smelled like my sister. We're plating red Tulips on her grave because Red is her favorite colour And we're putting a little black cat statue on her grave

At the vet some lady tried to get me to take one of her cats, but while sobbing, I nicely turned her down

Im okay now. She's happy and in heaven with all of your pets and they are playing in a great big happy field with each other

WE LOVE YOU MIDDY!
October 1993 - August 1st 2005

I am so sorry for your loss. I understand how it feels to have to watch them when they are alive but you know that they will soon be gone. That is very hard. My puppy stewart was going to be put to sleep the next day and the night before was so hard. I cried everytime I looked at him because I knew that this was our last night together. After he was gon I was sad but I also felt guilty because I had a sense of relief. I know it is hard right now for both you and your family. Just remember how happy both you and Midnight were with the time you were in each others life.

My deepest condolences,
Melanie

Noriko,

My heartfelt sympathies!!

You are right----Your Middy is at peace, in bliss!

Write whenever you want or need to.

You're in my prayers,

Kathy

I'm so sorry about Middy. These first few days and weeks...sometimes even months will be the hardest. It's important to feel your grief how ever you need to. That's why this forum is so wonderful...you can come here and talk and cry and be sad or angry or whatever you need to be and we'll understand.

You and Middy are in my thoughts.
Hugs,
Kathleen

I'm so sorry that it had to come to that for Middy, I know how hard it is to relieve them and say good-bye. I think you know that you did the right thing. It took me 2 months to believe that I did the right thing, and I still replay the last day I had with Cosmo.
I hope to see you here when you need to be, sharing whatever feelings you may be going through. This forum has saved me.
It seemed that those closest to me were gone when I needed them most, but not the loving souls here at LS. They have been a blessing in my life, to say the least, and I hope you find the same support that I have found here.
If there is anything I can say or do, let me know.
Peace, Love, and Prayers,
Michelle

Im freaking out! I wake up in the middle of the night and all i can think about is my Middy in a box in the ground in my garden!!!! And then i remember how her eyes looked into ours, and then clouded over... and that day only replays over and over and I can't sleep anymore!

I know her soul's not there,but it still makes me soooooo sooo soo depressed! What can I do to stop thinking about it? I keep thinking " what if she didnt actually die? What if she woke up?" Im just freaking myself out more and I don't know how to stop!

To make things worse, I got yelled at at work today for something I didn't do. This girl ( who isn't even a manager, she's a normal employee where I work, she wasn't working that day, she just came to spy on me, and is a HUGE hypocrite) yells at me for not opening on time, but I was told we opened at 10:30 and we really opened at 10:00. Well I told her " I'm really really sorry, I had no idea we opened at 10:00. Iv'e been having a really hard time. My cat just died yesterday" you know what she said? "Tough. I really don't give a F*** about your damn cat"

I started bawling and left work.

Why are people so insensitive, and why do I keep thinking about Middy in the garden????????

Someone please help me >_< This sucks so much....

Also... I forgot... We're planting red tulips on her grave since red was her favorite color and she loved her red ribbon...

But I can't stop thinking about her Middy....

Hi Noriko, I feel very terrible about your loss.
Just needed to tell you that I can totally relate to what you said about it feeling very strange about your baby being physically* down in the ground and thinking its so not right, and actually being freaked out about if she had woken up (!) I was thinking the exact same thing on Sunday night. The first night that my baby was physically under the ground. I really couldn't fall asleep for fear of that!! I was just, and still am, feeling perfectly miserable about the whole thing. It was so painful so put his body in the ground, like I said earlier, I couldn't even stay there at all to say a few words after I left the flowers. It was just too painful!
About what happened to you at work, I also completely agree about a lot of people being incredibly insensitive (!) and not realizing that we have lost LOVED ONES, not "just a cat, or dog or other pet", actual family members!! And the grief can very well feel the same! Feel very angry about this myself, and also about the fact that I, on some level of conciousness even feel *guily* about crying so much about it to people(!) because, unless they can also lost a precious pet, they can't know the pain that we are all feeling. I just doubt it.

Anyways, you have my heartfelt sympathy,
many hugs, Anna

I know! Even though she's not there, her soul is in heaven, I can't get over my Middy being in my garden!

And I want to hold her so bad but I can't! ;_;

Right now I feel cheated.

I feel Middy was cheated out of her life. 12 years is NOT that old for a Cat.

It's just over 4 weeks since we lost Shaun, and we are still finding things very hard indeed.

I am worse when I get angry and think that we were cheated. Shaun was only 2 years old.
Ammy, my lovely Siamese, died 3 years ago. He was 16. We had to have him put down.

It doesn't matter how long we have with them, it would never be long enough. When I feel myself getting angry, I just think of Shaun and Ammy playing now, no pain. I re-ran the last hour of Ammy's life over and over again. I have been doing the same with Shaun. It really is terrible - but we have to try and think of our furbabies' lives and all the pleasure they brought us. After 16 years of love and friendship, I shouldn't be focusing of one hour of Ammy's life. It's the same with Shaun - even though he was only a baby, he brought us so much happiness.

I try to think positive, but I know how hard that is. It is still too soon for me to think about all the lovely things that Shaun did without getting upset. But I can talk freely about Ammy and all his little ways! It took a while to get to that stage, though.

Keep on going, and come here whenever you need to. We are all here to help each other.

Jules