I've always believed in signs....but this one took my breath away. Kizzy passed away around 1:30 AM Friday morning. Sat evening we went out to eat at a Chinese Restaurant. I was telling my husband how I was doing a little better...and how I was trying to remember Kizzy alive and playing....we even had a few laughs about some of our trips with Kizzy....while we were talking, I picked up my fortune cookie and when I broke it open, I gasped. It simply said "Miss You". I know that Kizzy didn't "write" the message...but I feel that when the waitress picked those cookies up out of the box....that one was meant for me. It wasn't just that is said Miss You....I "felt" it all through me in the instant I saw the words.
I think one of the things I'm having such a hard time with is a loss of my beliefs. Before loosing Kizzy I believed that when a soul passes it doesn't leave, but becomes part of everything. But through my grief, I couldn't "feel" Kizzy here...and I think it's because it hurt too much to even think of him not being here in body.
It has helped me alot gathering all the photos we have of him...and seeing what a great life we had together...and I know...I believe that all that energy can't just disappear...it's still here...he's still here...and I'll love him forever.
Kelly