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Casey
Hey guys,
I have been crying all day long since I got word that my parents are putting Casey to sleep tomorrow. He was diagnosed with prostate cancer today and the doctors gave him a short amount of time left to live. I just don't know how to deal or what, I cry, I think about the last time he wakes up, the last time he eats, the last time he leaves the house and when he gets to the vet office he doesn't know that it's his last stop on this Earth. That is what hurts me the most. He is so innocent, does he deserve this? No, I don't want to see him suffer, but I wish God could just stop time and perform some type of miracle in order to keep him with us. I can't even go to my house and see him, I want to remember him the way he was before he got sick, and I don't even know if I feel guilty for doing that. I am so confused. He is so young, only 5 years, and he doesn't deserve this. I can't even look at pictures of him. I just don't know what to do, my feelings and emotions are so mixed. sad.gif
Kathleen032
Dear Keith,

I'm so sorry about Casey. I know exactly how you feel as far as Casey being so young. My dog, Shiloh, was diagnosed with lymphoma (a very aggressive kind of cancer) when she was just shy of her 5th birthday. Even though we did chemo she only lasted about 3 1/2 months after the diagnosis of cancer. As you deal with Casey's illness you'll question why, you'll get angry, and you'll grieve deeply. I encourage you to share your thoughts and feelings here...it really does help. You'll find that people here are very kind and will offer you the comfort and support it takes to help you along this journey.

You and Casey are in my thoughts.
Kathleen
Casey
Hi Kathleen,
Thank you for replying to my post. I appreciate it. I loved this dog with all of my heart. Our family had 5 wonderful years with him. I am really glad I found this board. I was reading some other posts and you guys seem like such a nice, wonderful group of caring individuals. I already have been questioning why this happened and why God is taking him. It just doesn't seem fair. Did you have those same feelings when you lost Shiloh?
Kathleen032
You know, Keith, I went through exactly what you're going through. I had those questions when Shiloh was first diagnosed, and to be honest, sometimes I still ask those questions. I've been angry, I've been sad, I've asked why Shiloh...why my young Shiloh who I loved dearly and who had a better life than many of the people I know. This is a normal part of grief's journey.

Something that helped me was a statement made by another member here...He/she said that our animals are like angels and they're sent to be with us to teach us certain things and when they've taught us those things, they move on. When I read that for the first time, I was a little put off by it because I felt like Shiloh had so much she could have taught me. But the more I thought about it, and the more I thought about Shiloh's life with me, I realized that the greatest lesson Shiloh taught me was through her battle with cancer and ultimate death. She taught me that each day is a gift, and that life is best lived one second at a time, and that worrying about tomorrow or worrying about yesterday is not as important as living fully in each moment. My little Shiloh was a very special spirit and she sacrificed her life to teach me that very important lesson...a lesson I will carry with me all the days of my life.

You're in the very early stages of grief right now. You have every right to be angry and to ask why. As time passes, the anger will fade and you'll be left with the happy memories you have of Casey and all the love you two shared.

I'm so sorry you and so sorry for Casey, too.
Hugs,
Kathleen
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