Dear Caden,
Two weeks before I got you, Aunt Trish called me to tell me she had found two little kittens on the side of the road and asked me if I knew anybody who would take them. Of course, I wanted to keep those little babies. But, your Daddy and your Grandma didnt really want two more kitties in the house. Your Daddys sister, Hope, agreed to take them. We took them to her house on Father's Day. I thought my heart would nearly break then, leaving them because I wanted them so bad. I cried for two days because they lived so far away. I eventually started feeling better, and knew the babies were in good hands. My life returned to normal. Then Sunday night, June 26th, Aunt Trish called me again and said she found me another baby. I didnt really want to go down to see you cause I didnt want to have to deal with giving away another baby that I knew Id get attached to so quickly. But I walked down to her house, and I saw you, so tiny and fragile, and knew I didnt care what your Daddy or Grandma had to say, you were mine. When Mark picked you up outside, you bit him, do you remember that? You silly little mean girl. So I loaded you up in the pet taxi, and we walked home. The dogs couldnt wait to see what was in the taxi. They met you and right away began licking you so much, you couldnt even walk. You kept falling over. That night, you were in your pet taxi and you wouldnt be quiet for anything, you were making your presence known, thats for sure. I think I got 2 hours of sleep that night. Aunt Trish took you to work the next day with her. She walked around the greenhouse all day with you in her apron. The first time you saw Gage, it was the cutest thing. You thought he was your mommy, I think. Youd walk up to him and try to snuggle, and hed look at you like you were crazy and get up and walk away. You would follow himm all around the house, trying to snuggle. He wasnt having it though. Miss Paige was just plain jelous of you, growling and hissing at you. I would catch her loving you though when she thought nobody was looking. Tuesday you went to work with me and laid on my lap all day while I sat at the desk and worked. You were so good that day, sweetie. Then we went to Taco Bell on the way home to get some food, and you just had to sit in my lap, you really hated that Pet Taxi. At the vets office that afternoon, you saw Dr J. Dr J asked me if I wanted you tested for lukemia and aids. I broke down, because 2.5 yrs ago, I had to have Charcoal put down because he had both. Dr J remembered this and was very understanding. They took you back and took your blood then brought you back to me to wait. It was such a horrible long 10 min wait, Cades. I was holding you crying so much cause I thought for sure you had both. Because you were so skinny and little. But Cades,when he told me the tests were negative, I started crying again, but because I was happy. My baby didnt have those awful diseases. He told me you didnt even weigh a pound. Only 3/4 of a pound. But I was gonna fix that little baby. I was gonna make you nice and healthy. Wednesday and Thursday, you stayed at home in the bedroom alone all day. I didnt want you alone with the animals yet cause I thought they might hurt you by accident because you were so tiny. Granny came up and checked on you though and made sure you ate and went potty. I couldnt wait to get home to you. We played and snuggled for the rest of the night. You always slept by my side, snuggled in your baby blanket. Friday you got another bath, which you werent very fond of, but you needed it so bad. You dried in no time kiddo. Saturday you stayed with your grandma all day while me and Daddy went out on the boat. We got home late and I just had a feeling you werent really feeling well, sleeping alot. Didnt really even wake up to see me. We all went to bed and I had you in my arms. Cades, what happend then? At 3:30 I woke up and you looked like a zombie. You just kinda fell over in your litter box and wouldnt move. I was so scared. We rushed you up to the E/R and your weight had dropped to 7 ounces. How baby?? You were eating good. Oh darling, you looked so pitiful. It took me forever to make the decision to end your pain. Your little tiny body was weak, Cades. You were so small,your body was tired. I can still see your face so clearl I see the little marks on your whiskers. Those eyes. I miss you little one. You were so precious to me, so precious. You still are. I miss you Miss Cades. My heart aches to hold you again to smell you. Im so selfish, I want you so much. I wanted to watch you grow. I hope you are happy girlie. Hold me close to you Caden. You will never leave me. I will always have you in my soul. Be well girl, be happy and healthy and enjoy yourself. I will see you one day and we will pick up where we left off. Till then Cades, I love you more than you know.
I will write you again Caden.
Love Mommy.