Herbie, an 11 year odl shih tzu with bone cancer was layed to rest this morning, although he doesn't belong to me but rather my grandparents I am still very close to him. I am a teen who is trying to deal with the loss of my furbaby angel.


A note to Herbie

My Beloved Herbie,You entered my life when I was 4 years old, and you were a little one year old puppy then. I remember when My mom's friend Mike first brought you home. I remember dressing you up as an Alien dog one year, I believe I was seven. Not once did you ever bite or snap at me or Katie. I remember you barking for Ice water, or to have your toy box knocked over, and how you snored as you slept. I remember how you carried arround the Blue Baby Blanket Granny gave you, and how when I took it you would chase me through the house trying to get it, Oh how I Wish You were able to do that in your older days. You did have spurts of hyperness, even after you got the cancer my sweet sweet angel. Although Your body is now an empty shell you left on earth, you can now spread your wings and be with Jesus and God, as an Angel.My heart is broken that you had to go,and I know you hate to see so many sad on your account, but today the world lost a sweet angelic dog, and the Heavens gained one.You are Missed, and Loved dearly herbie, Absent from our homes but never from our hearts.I know you are not in pain, or illness and have been restored to youth and vigor, I know that god has made you an angel, and has made you better, and the cancer is gone. We weren't ready to lose you my Herbie, and we wish you could have held on a bit longer, although we know it would not be a good life for you here, being ill and in pain. You wait for Granny or Papa at The Rainbow Bridge, I know they miss you more than words or anything else can be expressed.10 years together has gone and passed, I only wish I had used my time with you more wisely.We lay your body on Granny and Papa's property in the woods under a tree, you were burried with your favorite blanket. We plan to plant flowers near your grave, and get a gardenstone with your name etched into it to mark the area where our beloved angel resides.I was told Granny held you the entire time as you passed on to Heaven.I wish you happiness and peace Herbie, My furry little angel I Miss you and Love you, absent from my sight but forever in my heart.

Love,
Tori

What a beautifully written piece to your sweet Herbie. You are very wise for a 15 year old, and your pain for your loss of Herbie just pours from your post. My heart breaks for you as someone who has also lost the best friend that I grew up with. I often wondered how I could ever live without her, but here it is, eleven months today, and I am still making it, one day at a time. It is such a precious gift to have such a wonderful friend in a furbaby as you come up in the world. I can only tell you now, to cry when you need to, and talk about him often. Come here everyday, several times a day if you need to. We are always here to listen, and we all share in your pain of great loss. May your Herbie run as fast as he can, bark as loud as he wants, and have all the ice water he could ever dream of. Rest easy Tori, your Herbie is happier now than he has ever been, and you will see him again one day.
Love,
Kim

I agree with Kim. What a wonderful tribute to Herbie. My Sandy P (gone two weeks today) used to love ice water also. She used to wait by the bowl until we gave her fresh water with ice in it. I am so sorry for your loss, but happy to read about a dog that was loved and well-cared for. Many dogs aren't so lucky to have a home like that. Please come here often and let us know how you are doing. Later, you may be able to help someone else through the grieving process. You sound very wise for your years. Did you show your tribute to your grandparents?

You will have some hard days ahead of you. Just when you think you are feeling a little better, it all comes back again and you can't stop crying. Allow yourself time to grieve properly. I wish there were some magic words I could give you that would help you, but grieving is a process that you must go through in YOUR own time, not anyone elses. You will find the support you need here to help you through, and you can tell us anything. We've all been through it and know how you're feeling, even the thoughts you think are crazy. Come back soon and talk to us. You are helping us too.

Love,

Christine

Thanks for the support, It is really difficult letting one of your best buddies go, but a life on painkillers and being in a "zombie" like state wasn't really a life. So I guess I can see how it was for the best. No I haven't showed my grandparents, I tend to keep my writings to myself, I am still debating on letting them see it.

I heard these lyrics on the radio earlier, I am not quite sure what exactly they are about but, they remind me of Herbie.



Landslide

(Stevie Nicks)
I took my love and I took it down
Climbed a mountain and turned around
And I saw my reflection in the snow-covered hills
'til the landslide brought it down
Oh, mirror in the sky -What is love?
Can the child within my heart rise above?
Can I sail through the changin'...ocean tides
Can I handle the seasons of my life?
I don't know.....I don't know
Well I've been afraid of changin'
because I've built my life around you
But time makes you bolder, even children get older
And I'm getting older too....
So, take my love...take it down
Climb a mountain and turn around
and if you see my reflection in the snow-covered hills...
well the landslide will bring it down
The landslide will bring it down

-Tori

It sounds like Herbie was well loved. May he rest at the Bridge.