Some of you read and replied to my post about my 2 babies, Sam and Creole. I had a very rough time with their deaths. It's been 4 weeks and I think of them daily. I have cried, cursed, questioned to no end, Until recently. Let me tell you why:

On Monday on the way out of our neighborhood my hubby and I saw a golden retriever that was an identical twin to Creole just standing in a yard soaking wet. My heart dropped to my stomach. My hubby said he saw the same dog when he had to pick up our babies out of the ditch. Yet we have lived in this neighborhood for 4 years and have never seen this dog before. Our neighborhood is not that big. Later in the week, I stopped by the house where this dog was standing in the yard. I asked the lady (who actually happened to be the one who told my hubby to call the sherriff's dept) and she said she has never seen that dog before and doesn't know anyone who owns a golden retriever, she has lived there 3 years. I was kinda dumbfounded at that point....was this someone visiting and bringing their dog too? Or was this a sign that Creole is happy? I decided to take it as Creole is happy.

I have tried everything in the book to make myself feel better, to get on with my life and I did find one thing that helped:
For over 2 weeks I have done a ritual about 1,000 times a day. I pat my heart and say...."i must let you go, i must let you go" until I felt better. Then I look to the skies and blow 2 kisses, one for each of them. I hope that if anyone uses this technique, i hope it helps you too.

Now for some people, getting a new dog is too soon. However, I have lived with dogs my whole life, including as a baby. A house is not a home without dogs! Plus not to mention our fenced in one acre was "barren". So, we purchased 2 new puppies to add to our family. They stay inside most of the time, I'm still paranoid. They are nothing like Creole and Sam but they have their own characters that are so loving, wonderful, playful! They will never replace my babies...ever. We have had them for about 3 weeks. Some people say it was too soon. And it probably was, because I have just recently come to terms with Sam and Creole being gone. My hubby and I talk about Sam and Creole every night now. He has finally told me why he had to cover them up for me to see them. I know now they both went instantly without suffering.

I absolutely adore Nelli and Jenny. They are very funny puppies. For those of you who may want a new addition but not sure if you are ready. Stop by the SPCA or pound. Play around. You never know when you will be welcoming in a new addition to your family too.

Thank you all for being so kind, gentle and loving. May you all be blessed each and every day.

Hi Trinity!
Congratulations on the two 2 additions to your family. Do not let anyone tell you it was too soon, the time was simply right for you. Let's face it, no matter how hard we grieve, how loudly we rail at the gods, how often we are plagued by guilt, it just does not bring them back to this earthl;y reality.
What a wonderful tribute and celebration of Sam and Creole's happy life with you. Let's face it, there will never be enough homes out there for all the needy furbabies, but you have transformed a tragedy into a victory. My best wishes to you and your husband. The world needs alot more people who reason like you do.
Regards, Nicole

Oh Trinity, I think it is wonderful that you opened your hearts to two new wonderful and needy babies. Sam and Creole would be so proud of you. They are in no way a replacement for your two angels, but it is a testament to how wonderful Sam and Creole were that you came to love dogs as much as you do.
I lost Lucy in February, and our house was so empty. It just did not feel right, or whole to me. I saw a picture on the internet of a sad looking pointer mix with the caption "Urgent- need home by tonight or I will die!" This poor guy was scheduled to be euthanised that evening. It was way too soon, or so I thought, but something about him spoke to me. I called the shelter, and they agreed to give him one more day so that we could make the trip out to meet him (the shelter was a couple of hours away). We went the next day, and fell in love. We adopted him and brought him home after he had been neutered. He was wild at first, and we had our doubts, but all is well and "Fergus" is happy" I can't help but feel that Lucy's death saved his life.
Some people did not understand, and thought it was too soon. I still miss my Lucy so much, but I don't regret finding Fergus and giving him a home. I think you did the right thing. I also think that Sam and Creole would agree. Maybe that Golden Retriever was some sort of a sign. What happened to you and you furbabies was a tragedy, and you chose to make something positive out of that by offering your love and home to two needy souls. Be proud of yourself and find your much needed comfort in them.

Take care of yourself...Caroline