HI everyone, My name is Emelisa. I am new to this forum a friend of mine just now told me about it and said it is a great place for support.
This is my first loss re a beautiful animal friend.
Panda is almost 19 I have had her since she was 6 weeks old.
She has stopped eating yesterday and I fear it will not be long before she moves on.
She has been such a healthy soul until 2 years ago when she ended up with a thyroid inbalance and then had a stroke. She weighs less than an envelope now and her right side of her face is not working from the stroke.
She gets around ok but the last few days she is getting slower
I choose for her to die naturally unless I know in my heart she is in great pain and I will not let her suffer.
I feel a little numb
This loosing her on and off has been happening for me for 2 years now and I am exhausted
I love her so much
she has been the beautifulest blessing for me
Thank you for listening hugs em

My heart goes out to you and your sweet girl who has fought the valiant and had you by her side loving and empowering her with compassion and grace ~ I am so sorry that you have to go through this difficult time and want you to know that you are not alone ~ not ever ~ and that this minute when you least can feel it there is the healing breath of God surrounding you both with warmth , and holding you in the hollow of His hand ~ May you know the peace that passeth all understanding and may God grant you the strength to face the moments and hours ahead ~ know that a candle burns for you both this night and that the members of her clan who have passed before have gathered at their spiritual resting place to solemnly honor the life of one of the many elders that will pass and join those who have gone before ~ there is a mystical transformation that awaits us as we become spiritually connected to our babies when they leave our physical space ~ There is a huge wave of love "here" for Panda ~ May it surround you both and cover you with the comfort and peace that comes with a lifetime filled with the sharing of love and joy ~ And all the other amazing experiences we manage to create in knowing life with that special glow that will stay not only now but forever and a day ~ Sincerely, Kathryn

Emelisa,

Please know that I will be thinking of you. I know that it hurts and what is worse, we have no control over certain cir%%stances in life.
If you need us, we are here.
love Gold

Emelisa, I can't express how sorry I am for what you are going through at this time.

Panda has to know that you gave her the best of love and life. To see her through to the end is exceptional on your part. Panda has had a great life, and you were there, making the difference.

I hope things go well. Stay strong. I know in my case, I couldn't take my Abby not eating, as that was her livelyhood. She had barely ate anything for about 5 days. I know the night before I took her in, I layed with her, and prayed she would pass, if it were meant to be, so I wouldn't have to make the decision the next day. Unfortantately, it didn't turn out that way.

My strength goes out to you for seeing Panda go on his own.

I hope all works out well for you.

Midwest

I will be praying for a peaceful journey for Panda to go to the bridge. I am praying for you to have strength to watch her as her earthly light goes dim. Love and Peace to both of you. We will all be here when you need us both during and after Panda's journey.

ty you all so very much
this is what is happening now


She fell out of the kitty litter an hour ago and fell flat to the floor
she didnt move
I ran to her
she no longer can walk
she cannot even meow
*tears*
this beautiful little soul
I have watched the last few days as the life is slipping away so quickly
her paw is resting on my arm as I type
memories have flooded through me of our time together
her courage
cheekiness
support she has given me
her love
she would have been 19 this september
I had her almost half my life

Now she is frail
unable to eat
her fur matted
one eye no longer seeing
a little purr still comes from her as I talk to her
and touch her gently
Tears flooding down my cheeks as I write this

I have said goodbye
I couldnt love her more than at this moment
I pray an esy passing
it is her time and I let her go
my tears are not to hold her
but the rememberance of a love that will last forever
I love you Panda
em xoxo
your support means alot to us

Emelisa,
You are not alone. I will be thinking of you ALL EVENING... and I will await to hear that it is over and that you are alright.
God knows your grief right now too.
We love you....we love Panda
Love Golden

Emilisa,

My heart goes out to you and i am crying with you. My furbaby went thru the same thing the end of April. He had trouble walking, he fell off the coffee table where he used to like to lie, i had to help him into the litter box as he couldn't lift his right paw up high enough to get in and he pushed my hands away as i tried to give him water with a dropper as he was dehydrated. Rico was 17 years old and i had been preparing myself for over a year knowing his earthly life would soon be coming to an end but the pain of his last 24 hours still lingers with me. The happy memories are coming through more with time but i still have my moments where i miss him more than words can say. Know that you are not alone in what you are going though as difficult as it may be. You and your Panda are in my thoughts and prayers this evening. Come back and share your sadness and your happy memories with us all.

Cheryl

Panda passed away
I had her by the fire
read with her
talked to her
touched her paw
then put her out in the sun
went for a quick walk and when i came back she was taking her last breath and gasping
I miss her
I buried my little angel
and she is the ground
in a dark hole
with out me to hold her
or pat her silky soft fur
Her face wont be there as I awaken
I miss her already
ty so much for your support
and love
huggles em xoxo

I read your post of your last hours together and I weep ~ I have a strong identification with your sorrow ~ I have not yet had the strength to write of Amber's last days and hours ~ but your brave sharing has given me a pathway into that time of sorrow and despair that I too felt in losing a friend of 20 years ~ Such similar events for Ambie and me ~ It is an intensely powerful spiritual transformation for us ~ to be able to experience and support in compassion and love this journey from the earthly bounds to the infinite spiritual place of forever ~ You are brave ~ You and Panda Bear went together through this physical place across to where there is nothing but pure love ~ I say together because there is a part of your soul that is forever together with Panda ~ and there is part of her's that is forever here with you for the rest of your days ~ I am so honored to have shared in your final time together it is a sacred event and I pray for only comfort and blessings for you in the days ahead ~ Sincerely, Kathryn