Dear Kai:
Thank you for your message/"The Dance"/ AND about your Beloved Trixie.... It doesn't matter how long.... Twelve years is a very long, long, long time. A loss is a loss & it's a very big loss when you have loved....
My heart feels like someone smashed it into 1million pieces; I have a lump in my throat and my heart hurts. I cry when I'm just sitting there... Ben & I comfort one another; he was her dad for 3 years & got very attached....
Ernestine (she had lots of names; Ernie-Bird, Roy, Muffin, Girl), because I guess she was my everything.
For the past few years she got into jumping onto the toilet cover, so that "when" someone went by the bathroom, they'd go in & turn on the water so she could drink out of the sink. AT LEAST 15 times/day. I'd make a big production, wiping off the sink & then looking at her, & say, "are you ready"??, and she'd leap onto the sink, go into the sink, and start lapping away...
I have pictures of that--I tried so hard to find them last night...
When Ben would go in to shave in the morning, she'd be right there..... He misses that. He'd have to have a "cold water shave" because he didn't want her little paws or mouth to get burned... I have a little Beanie Baby "Cat" that I put right on the sink.
She had two favorite Beanies (a Lemur & a Lion), which I held tightly in my hands last night & took all of her little friends to bed with us.
I saw her hair brush, with her fur.... I smell it, look at it, touch it....
About "sad songs"..... Garth's "The Dance" always made me cry...when it first came out and everytime I hear it.
There's another song out now that talks about "100 years to live" & it talks of going through different ages..... and, the Eagles, "Hole in the World", with regard to the War, losing people, mom, dad, brother, sister..... I have to ADD "beloved pets" in that, although that isn't the songs intention..
To Everyone..... I feel your pain & I am glad that "Lightning Strike" exists.... I never knew...
Love, Denise